been really busy n suffocating with the immersing pressures from the various projects deadlines. seriously behind datelines and the pressure of wanting to do well adds them all.. sometimes, you just wanna run away from all of them... dun wan to think abt it, dun wan to care abt... at least now my fyp concept is much more refiner but now there still sooo much details to handle n the major prob of the prototype.. haiz.. will i make it in time? hope so.... and the dreading essays on hand to complete... haiz... totally detest my final yr days... esp my final sems, having to take up mods that i totally dun like... haiz.. if only i was given the modules i've chosen, guess i would be complaining n lamenting ba....

i'm starting to lose the self confidence... it seems to be draining away... insecurities sets in n uncertainity floods in me now.. what do i do now? i am no longer sure... there is sooo many traps ard me tt i'm too afraid to make a step forward for the fear of ingniting a disaster.. trapped in the corner.... too afraid to move... too afraid to make decisions anymore..

rambled @ 2:43 PM

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