haven been putting much efforts in my sch work recently... felt bad that my frens are covering my workload.. esp for those project-based ones... homeworks have been sloppishly done... haiz... think there goes my grades....

my balance is tilted to one side so things are not falling in place... gotta quickly find my balancing point if not things will go out of hand...

looking forward to the one week break... hopefully i can use this time to catch up wif my work and spent more time wif my family.. been spending veri veri little time wif them.. feeling guilty abt the little amount of time spent with them.. haiz..

will blog when i'm more free or when there is sth to say ba...

rambled @ 10:53 PM

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jus had our agm.. hmm.. nothing much to say abt it... kinda sad that i didnt receive much support frm frens ba... and i really cant speak well... argh!!

after doing the personlilty test, i really do notice that i'm veri observant on ppl's non verbal language... ya... and people that i'm not really veri close with do actually confide in me... i not complaining.. but amazed that i do giv some ppl tt closeness lor... ya... but guess my ablilty to communicate non verbally puts me at a disadvantage when there is a need to communicate verbally.. i'll be at lost man... serious... that is why when i stammer n stutter when i'm super nervous... i'm lost at words... it'll hav to take quite some time for me to fomulate my words... ha... and cos i dun communicate well verbally... i tend to communicate thru non verbal means.... and it's kinda sad that not many can understand what i'm trying to say thru my non verbal means... ya...

after a yr as a hall leader, i think cos of the exposure you hav, you will tend to see more to life and hence see the different kinds of people ard... and it's kinda sad to say tt all humans are selfish and self centred... it's jus the degree of how selfish and self centred one is that sets one apart frm the other... i dun deny that i'm also a selfish n self centred person... but i wld say my extent of being a selfish n self centred perso isnt tt high.... i jus dun understand why sometimes ppl are soo narrow minded that the thoughts that they formulate is jus all abt themselves... no compromises, no discussion.. haiz... jus really making the world more unhappy... if onli everyone understand the meaning of give and take... think things will be much easier ba....

now that agm is over, my role has aso officially increased... although i'm still a hall leader.. but now i'm hav more resposibility on my shoulders... and i hope i wun be too saddened with the things that i'll be seeing that makes me lose my motivation... and i will put in my best to fulfil my role well...

so frens, if u see me feeling down... pls do encourage me on and giv me the support... thanks... will still need the TLC frm frens other than my dear and family... =P

rambled @ 4:36 AM

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got this test frm jass's blog.. interesting.. http://www.perex.com/status.php

free can go and do.. =) anyway the analysis:

You are exceptional and unique. Your quest in life is to identify exactly who you are and why you’re here. What’s important to you is the journey of self discovery, determining who you are today is not the same as who you’ll be tomorrow.

haha.. well the quest to self identity cld say is more obvious after i enter adm ba... haha... pressed by profs leh... but as designers it's impt to know who you are... yeah~ still in the process of identifying myself though... hee...

You resist being categorized and are quick to question any social standard that you sense someone imposing on you. Stereotypical gender roles always interest you and, in your mind, connect to issues that most other people would never even consider related.

yeah.. true true... dun sterotype me for who i am not especially...

You can “connect” with any individual person and practically read their mind, but you have a natural tendency to match your actions to the expectations you read from their mind and yearn for company that lets you truly, naturally be yourself. You struggle between letting yourself naturally match the sentiment of the group (which feels like putting on a façade) or letting your individuality shine, which may allow people to see how different you are.

ha.. doubt i hav the ability to 'connect' wif everyone lah... mind reading.. hmmm... no comments.. my friends.. you all decide for me ba.. ha... i enjoy company that allows me to be myself leh.. everytime need to put on a false front not tired meh? well.. i cant lor... unless the situations needs me to do so lah...

You are particularly accepting of other people and have a special talent for seeing people’s true selves instinctively. It takes time for you to trust your gut instinct about people because even you don’t believe that someone could be so right about another person’s nature so quickly. This intuitive sense about what people are thinking (which is actually your hyper-attention to nonverbal cues) is your special talent. You may think it is available to everyone and that others just ignore it, but in truth others could never develop the skill to the level which comes naturally to you.

but i do agree i notice alot on others' body language especially.. it's always the small little things that tells alot abt a person... ya... ha.. but didnt know it's my special little gift.. hee...

To you everything happens on a personal level. Your friends come to you for advice because they know that you’ll love them for who they are and put yourself in their shoes to look at the world. Your advice, although varied in delivery, usually boils down to “be true to yourself” and “listen to your heart.” You are also an excellent confidant because things told to you never return to anyone through the grapevine. You exude this quality so strongly that even strangers will sometimes spontaneously begin confiding their deepest secrets in you.

ha... cos i believe that there is soo much an advisor can give.. the ultimate decision will still hav to depend on the person itself mah.. different people got different values and perspectives mah.. so the advice i give will only be frm my understanding n my beliefs.. the ultimate decision will still hav to be made by the person himself/herself that he/she thinks that is wat he/she really wants mah... follow the heart man.. cos sometimes the mind is jus being too logical and kiasi... hee...

Despite all of that, you are not much of a talker. In fact, words sometimes trip you up because you prefer nonverbal communication. Unfortunately, most of the world is not as attuned to nonverbal communication the way you are, so your opinion can get overshadowed if a more outspoken person is part of the decision.

ha.. i'm jus not gd at words... actions speak louder than words.. ha...

You focus more on nurturing other’s self esteem than any other type. As a result of this naturally caring nature your close friends often turn to you for moral support.

do i? hmm...

You are by far the most talented of all types at reading nonverbal cues. In your admirable attempts to convey a message diplomatically, those who aren't sensitive to inflection, tone, insinuations or body language sometimes simply do not get your message because they only receive the verbal half of what you said.

ha... when i hav difficulty converying my message i will know why now... =P

In the same way that you're the best at reading nonverbal cues, you're also the best at sending them. When you speak they miss the nonverbal half of your message, then they speak and transmit twice the message (verbal + nonverbal) which often gives away more than they intended but is sometimes carelessly inaccurate since they don’t send nonverbal cues as well as you do. When you're tempted to assign bias based on someone’s tone or other nonverbal cues it is wise to have them restate what they said and see if ignoring the careless, unintentional nonverbal half of their message lets the true meaning through.

hmmm.. so this is where misunderstandings start....

If you have children your focus is making sure that your child has a strong self-image and high self-esteem. More than other parents it is important for you to be friends with your children.

i agree! being friends wif my kids will first reduce the generation gap and be more close to them... then they will naturally be more open n confide in you mah... ha.. i believe lah... hee...

You are more philosophical than most and passionately think about ethics and justice more than other types. It is when ethical issues come up in conversation that you most strongly sense that you are fundamentally different from other people. You become visually emotionally focused when these issues arise, while others easily laugh them off and switch topics to something trivial. To you, it seems that everyone should be passionate about ending racism, sexism and other social ills.

ha.. i like philosophical stuffs lah.. but dun think i very into it ba... lol... i dun like tooo wordy texts leh... ha...

You go by the book and are suspicious of anyone suggesting that rules or laws should be ignored. You think constantly about improving laws, and see that at a major avenue for advancing social change because you see legislation and rule creation as the consensus opinion of the group working together. For you the focus is seeing everyone working together in harmony.

yeah~ harmony is the key to teamwork... that is where everyone can work together happily mah...

You are a healer and probably give great massages and know what foods will make people happy again. You prefer to surround yourself with direct, honest, authentic people who let you reinvent yourself every time you meet. You want nothing more than for there to be peace and harmony in the world, and your actions clearly reflect that vision.

haha... i giv great massages? really? ha.. if so... think onli a few ppl can get to hav tt privilege ba.. =p to the others, sorry... ha.. =P yeah.. chocolate makes one happy... go eat chocolate when you are down... helps to brighten the mood alittle... i dun like the unbearable tension.. peace n harmony.. a great place to be in lor.. why disrupt it?? bleh...

You are more strongly moved by poetry and artistic expression than any other type. You are interested in the finer points of different artistic mediums, having many complete and incomplete poems and stories in your head if not on paper.

haha... kinda true leh... lol... mayb tt is the reason why i'm in adm ba... hee...

rambled @ 2:48 AM

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been ages since i blogged.. wanted to blog yesterday.. but it seems ages to load the page.. got bored or i shld say too slpy while waiting tt i decided to blog another day... it still ages to load the page today.. but because i wanted to slack n it's a free day tml.. so i waited.. and so here am i blogging...

pretty much had happened... had some ups n downs.. but the downs i wun not say are those damn upset kinda downs.. but those that are not that drastic and mayb jus some unpleasant stufs that happened ba... life in hall and sch is getting pretty much heavy already.. joined the hall committe again.. but this time as hon gen sec in short secretary.. ya.. and sch side, projects are rolling in and we are highly encouraged to join mini competitions to 'beautify' our portfolios.. ya.. but guess those outside competitions are gd to gain exposure too lah.. but guess i'll too busy to join ba.. unless it's really damn interesting to me ba...

my body is really breaking apart and i'm fearing for the worse.. haiz... will be seeing a doc soon ba... the doc i planning to see is on holi and wun be back till 15 sep.. haiz.. wonder if i shld see another doc first to rectify the problem first cos it seems to be really bad now... haiz... medical fees are really damn expensive... haiz.. and i'm not having much input... so gotta control my output.. so my wants are kinda put on hold now... ha... or mayb it's jus my greed that make my wants list damn long... haha...

kinda happy recently that my tuition kid improved tremedously for the subs i'm teaching.. hee... he was onli scoring an average of 70+ for his english and science when i taught him... but in his recent CA, he scored 97 for his english n 92 for his science.. haha... so happy that he improved sooo much.. the kind of satisfaction.. woohoo.. hee.. jus so proud and happy for him lor... hee.. but worry abt his SA lah.. he kinda see saw type of student.. haha... will go up and come down one... like his maths n chinese marks deproved.. yalor.. fear that his next exams wun do tt well.. then it will be disappointing le... then it will be possible that my income will be reduce cos the mum seems to hav plans to enroll his son in a group tuition that teaches him maths n science.. so i might lost my income on teaching him science and will hav to focus on his english onli... if tt day really comes tt it's either i look for another kid or i'll hav to eat bread n butter everyday le... mayb another alternative wld be to take part in competitions and win them.. muahaha...

k lah.. kinda lengthy post today.. haha... mayb cos too long nv blog so lotsa things to comment... =P hope all my friends out there are doing well.. anything feel free to call me.. got incoming free! hee... take care!!

rambled @ 2:06 AM

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