didnt go work todae.. decided to pia my sadm stuffs so told my distant aunt i not going work.. jus this week will be taking leave quite frequent.. haha... cos gotta pia my stuffs which the deadline jus ard the corner- 1st april... ha...
didnt noe editting is THAT tough.. like wat anna n ally have said b4... i'm appreciating those shows i'm seeing already... damn lotsa hard work~ die... dunno can finish my video in time not... *crossing my fingers*
gonna take leave on thurs n coming mon... thinking shld i take on wed not... haha... anyway.. sad tt my feb pay veri little.. haiz~ veri veri way out of my expectations... so sad.... guess it's due to my frequent leaves tt month.. haiz~ or mayb hazelle didnt giv me much commission.. cld be the case leh.. haiz~ nvm... hope my current job can help mend the hole i made~

rambled @ 11:56 PM

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i finally apply for ntu n nus le... finally.. but... super pek cek cos met ALOT of problems... sianed.. all the application i need to redo twice than can successfully submit... then when i wanna check my nus application i CANT go back!!! argh!!! posible explaination they give is either my pin or application no is wrong; or i didnt apply.... dots~ gonna check it out tml.. if cant again~ gonna go nus and check it out liao... stupid system!! den aso wu yuan wu gu go do the application for teachers too.. haiz~ just hate completing application forms.. den the nus nid me send in suporting documents.. sianed.. my itchy hands go click relevant working experience lor... now headache wat documents to give... pengs~ anyone can help me?
sometimes i think too much.. haiz~ just gave myself false hopes... haha... getting sick of my behaviour liao... haiz~
anyway guess will be taking leave these few days for the sadm thingy... last min chiong arh!!! haha... no choice rite? 1st april coming den i haven complete my video n essay.. photos took liao.. gotta ask ppl to help shortlist 5 for me.. those interested tell me k? greatly appreciate ya help.. =)

rambled @ 10:14 PM

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went to collect my specs finally~ ha... dun tink i dare to wear it to work tml leh~ haha.... been listening to radio while working.. lol.. but the channel i listen too onli some time slots nice... so those time tt are not nice swtoch to either songs / other channels.. find some of the DJs quite duh~ guess tt is they connect to they listeners ba.. hee...
guess i
m getting hang of the job.. but i still get slpy after lunch.. ha.. n my tummy is growing.. haiz~ guess tt is part n parcel of office job? scary~ gotta go training to flatten those flabbiness... but ask me go train myself i no notivation one..
i'm someone who lacks motivation n self discipline lor.. till now i haven apply for my uni~ =P lazy~ haven do my sadm stuffs.. got tink abt it.. but haven do it.. ya.. procastinating.. delaying the work.. tt's me.. haiz~ no motivation lah~
my birthday coming.. but dunno to feel excited abt it or depressed~ haiz.. guess last yr one spoils my mood... and it's still hurting lor.. haiz~ dun wanna talk abt it~ well... not hoping much for my birthday anyways.. jus thinking shld i take leave n slack my day at home~ haha... or slog my day at work? hmmm....

rambled @ 11:13 PM

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haven been blogging for a long long time~ feeling lazy.. i'm just sooo lazy... mayb more of un motivated? lol...
dunno why keep tinking of you... mayb i haven really gotten over ba.. maybe~ i dunno lah...
anyway.. today by wallet bled... ha... guess my plan to go overseas is dashed~ not even a short trip to somewhere nearby... ha..seriously tink i abit kong bu.. lol... i seldom buy things one.. but when i buy, the thing is usually very ex... den will burn my wallet... haha... serious lor.. i seldom buy clothes, shoes or accessories... i spend mostly on food and transport lor.. transport is a headache.. haiz~ soooo costly lor... guess i haven explain why my trip overseas is dashed.. ha... it's all the jewellery shop's fault! haha...
went the jewellery shop to see see... den got a earrings, necklance n a ring... a set.. although my aunt pay but i'm gonna pay her back thru instalments.. so i'm broke.. go slowly count how much tt set will worth ba... and tt's not all... my mum saw this diamond pendant tt she like... den i pay lor.. cant expect my aunt to pay rite? though she is gonna do tt... ha... so i'm super broke now~ looking forward to my pay day or issit pay days? haha..
will be getting my pay for feb frm the previous job.. den dunno getting the march's pay tis mth or next~ haiz~ no more overseas trip liao~ but nvm~ happy with the set i got~ esp the ring~ haha.. =P
den cos we went in see the set mah.. then somehow talk abt si dian jin.. then the sales lady ask? huh? u all getting her si dian jin arh? haha... i look like i'm getting married? haha...
ooh~ and i got myself a specs~ haha... guess i tink i'm werid lah~ ppl dun wanna wan specs den i siao siao one so happy~ lol.. ( another contributing factor to my brokeness but not to my happiness) ha.. plastic frame one leh~ haha.. tink it's cool~ haha... but frakly, my short sightedness isnt tt bad lah.. 50-25 den astimagtism aso not high... so tis spec is more of protecting n preventing my eyesight frm getting worse lah.. hee... not a mus tt i nid to wear~ hee...
did a self reflection~ actually i quite xin fu de~ got lotsa ppl ard me tt dotes on me, care for me and love me... and practically i can get wat i wan lah... anyway i aso not a greedy person so dere is not much things i wan for a start aso~ hee... i'm a xin fu gal who doent realise how xin fu she is sometimes~ hee.... =P

rambled @ 10:08 PM

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finally i'm updating my blog.. ha... been lazy...
went to ntu open hse... got to know more about the school.. and i'm feeling excited to be a student there.. but that is if i get into SADM... chances are very low.. haiz.. why? they are going to take in about 130 students( max).. then out of these 130, 20% goes to the international students.. this left 104 places... if the poly n jc students each take 50-50... that would mean that i'm fighting to be one of the 54 students... how great~ tough competition... serious lor.. my drawing cannot make it... my creativity? hmm... not there? maybe that needs uncovering as i go along.. artistic side of me? a little.. but not veri strong... how to fight? haiz... but nevertheless.. i'll try my very best to produce good photos, essays n video for SADM.. hopefully i'll be shortlisted for the fac test... fac test wld then be my nightmare... but first... i gotta cross that hurdle in front of me before i think of the one further in front...
went to nus to look around after that... had zaihao to show us around sheares hall... only went to see SH... quite like the environment there.. but too bad nus dont hav the course i want... so if i cant get in design... shall go business... nus den ntu... if can get into business... shall do arts n social science in nus ba.. tinking shld i go apply for smu... seems like the comments not veri gd... hmm... 60% not gd.. 40% gd... if i cant get into local uni.. then it wld be private schools liao...
more or less settle my plans.. so left the applications... n the 3 stuffs.. haiz~ seriously need to get them done soon... still got my alumni stuffs too.. haiz~ gotta stop procastinating... haiz~

rambled @ 11:35 PM

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todae is san ba fu nu jie.. ya.. nothing much about it.. jus wanna say it for the sake of saying only.. hee.. =P
think office jobs kinda too rountine and unchallenging.. maybe cause i'm just a small fry so i get the brainless job? hee.. yesterday the network was down.. so i cant do my rountine task.. so was assigned to do printing and filing.. gotta print the transactions in the whole month of january.. and it's 1503 pages.. today then finish the print job.. ha.. need 3 big ring files to file it.. cant like print all the 1503 pages at a time cos liddat if other ppl wanna use the printer they gotta wait for me to finish before they can print which will be like ages long lor... so had to print batch by batch... then the printer kinda sensitive.. the paper bent will jam the printer.. using recyled paper.. anyway the printing is just to keep a hardcopy in case the computers are down and can retrieve the softcopy.. finish the jan transactions data... then shue ping ( my head) told me i need to print the feb one too.. but later lah.. ha.. gotta sweettalk the printer.. hope it doesnt keep giving me jams... mayb i shld tell it i dun like jams.. i onli take peanut butter or margarine... kk.. i noe it's lame... not fun taking out the jammed papers lor.. u nv know where u will kana cut.. got some small cuts.. and the hands will be dirtied frm the wet ink.. and i wld hav to reprint the missing page... more work...
anyway it was an experience lah.. 1st time printing 1503 pages.. haha... guess u dont experience this often.. haha... played with the copier too... ha... shall see what's more to learn as time goes by ba...
somehow i got this bad habit... i always get sleepy after lunch.. ha... my eyelids gets too heavy after my lunch and my head keeps nodding... how to keep awake? tried sweets, snack n music.. but they dun help much.. water onli keeps me more busy with the frequent trips to the toilets.. hmm... anyone got any brillant ideas?
completed my alumni mintues.. left the organising of the event.. gotta find my committee soon...
my portfolio is still.. haiz~ other than the essay that i started writing, the rest is still zreo progress.. haiz.. clueless about what to do.. haiz~

rambled @ 10:31 PM

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suppose to go down training one.. but emily's call change my plans... no one is available to work at ck tangs today.. so she find me asked me if i can stand in for today anot.. so went to work today lor.. ha... got the extra income aso.. haha... not a bad idea rite? haha... but somehow i today dont attract people to buy.. lol.. sales not tt gd.. so there goes my potential high commission..
when to the SADM webby.. go read through the requirements again.. this time more detailed... realised after handing in the portfolio doesnt end everything.. there is still an entrance test.. ha... not easy getting in lor... yalor.. shall see how then lah.. meanwhile i have to make my portfolii attractive and appealing to get to do the entrance test.. guess i more or less certain i want to major in visual communications... if i cant get in think shall do business ba~
watch the show on 56~ gosh fell in love with marco chan!! haha... the ghost.. lol... was watching nine girals and a ghost... quite a funny show lah... edison is just sooo cute and shuai~ haha.. thinking i'm starting to drool~ haha... anyway some meaning ful quotes frm the show: in this world, nobody is reponsible for you... in this world, no one will walk hand in hand with you forever... totally agree with it~
haiz~ i'm tired~ eyes are really really veri tired... guess every monent spent typing tis is straining my eyes greatly.. haiz~ so.. i'm logging off liao~ brain activity is aso shutting down soon.......

rambled @ 11:22 PM

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was feeling ok when i woke up in the morning.. went back nas to collect something from mdm lee then came back home started doing the minutes for last night meeting... ppl starting wishing me gd luck n msging me well wishes for my results later.. really appreciate their care for me.. touched too..
then went to tamp to eat with my mum n aunt n cousin.. on the way was msging fung.. he already know the results so i asked him how is my grade.. told me it was lower than ABB but better than BCC.. that msg really took off a huge load off my chest lor~ after seeing tt msg i was beaming all my way.. cos i noe i can go into a uni at least liao.. cos after taking the papers, i noe the lowest i shld get for them are BCC.. so anything lower would be super devastating..
then as my mood were happier, we all went billy bompers to eat.. spent quite long dere.. then i left tamp onli at 245 liddat.. oops.. of cos i was super late.. took 38 down to tj somemore.. ha.. reached the hall at abt 330pm.. was the last person of my class to receive my slip... then was also among the last few to take their slips too ba.. cos went i go collect the slips, i seems to onli see my teacher there waiting for me~ =P
got ACC.. ya.. better than BCC.. the B became a A.. so at least i got a A.. did better than expected lah.. but still sad with the Cs.. but i'm not wailing and crying over the Cs lah... cant help but feel envious of my frens who did better than me lor.. straight As lah, ABB etc haiz... but nothing can undo my grades.. unless i go retake... which is siao~ i nv wan to experience the As again~
went to career fair after getting the results.. know more abt designing.. so now i know i'm interested in visual designs.. hee... went cartel later for dinner.. yummy.. esp the breads~ haha...
note: throughout the whole day my hp was beeping all the while..
went home.. my father ask me, ' u wan to retake your As anot?' dots.. on the verge on breaking down lah.. i noe my grades not gd... den he keep saying u see for yaself lah.. whether u put enough effort not.. does efforts put in necessary = gd results? not denying that it doesnt but not all efforts are reflected by the results... super sad lor.. haiz~ really make me depress over my Cs.. but considering i frm DFO to ACC not bad already rite? mayb i'm jus consoling myself lah.. haiz~ even emily got ABB.. my zhan you during the As.. we stayed back to study together, find mrs lim together n stuffs.. cos we 2 grades werent gd~ so mayb i shld hav go an extra mile further to obtain something better than Cs hur?
then he told me my mum is thinkinh of me doing a part time degree course.. working n studying together.. ask me if i'm okay with it.. definately not.. it's not as if we are tt hard up tt i hav to do it lor.. then why sure i? after talking to him.. can find that he kinda dun like me going design course.. haiz~ he feel like there is no job prospective dere.. well... no comments... doing a 'hot' degree doesnt gurantee u a job either~ haiz~
so now~ where to go????? i dunno.. what i really wat??? i dunno... just soooo many things to consider and think.. so fan~ haiz~

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well.. getting use to my job lah.. but still not liking it... but guess i'll be sticking to this job for at least a mth.. actually learn quite a lot of things lor.. accounting.. good to learn it.. liddat u can do ya own financial planning and stuffs.. haha.. but seriously i think i'll need a pair of specs after working long in this job~ haha..eyes are super tired frm facing the screen and mini mumbers all day~
nowadays my job requires me to sit all day~ ha... haven really adjust to sitting all day.. so i keep making trips to the toilet, pantry.. ha... and sth worries me ALOT.. working in a female environment lah.. ha.. somehow my working environment are female based~ anyway, i see alot of ladies with bulging tummies~ OMG!!! is that the fate of office ladies?? gosh~ my mother also analyse before, at office u sit all day so the fats deposit at the tummy.. then ppl with jobs that require u to stand all day will not hav a bulging tummy~ kinda true? haha.. after switching my job my tummy seems to say hi to me~ argh~
been walking a lot lately.. haha.. guess i'm loving it... lol.. my form of exercise since i dont have the time for trainings.. hee.. have to walk home.. that stretch of road twice.. then i have to walk in to my workplace if i miss that particular bus which i have been missing... that stretch of road in is like walking frm my house door to rachel's hse tt bus stop.. den everyday walk lor.. then today got alumni meeting.. after meeting i walked home frm nas lah.. ha..
wat time should i go school tomorrow? hmm...

rambled @ 11:03 PM

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2nd day at work.. getting to learn more of to use excel better~ haha.. and i think i'm gonna get a pair of specs soon.. haiz~ the fonts of the numbers is sooo small.. and i face the com for like the whole day.. key n key in figures no stop n i think i cantype in figure without seeing the keypads liao.. and it's just my 2 day at work.. imagine the time i spend keying numbers for the past 2 days~
anyway i'm still bored with my job~ fall asleep today at work.. haha.. but it's just like for a brief 1 or 2 min? haha.. then i was like chionging the accounts.. wanted to do finsh the stack today... but guess i'm not that fast enough.. haha... also side track alittle.. my relative asked my helped her write cheque.. something different for a change lor.. haha..
so.. after getting this job.. i'm saying a big fat NO to accounting.. haha... changing my mind about office job too... ha.. practically u sit there the WHOLE day!! gosh!! so boring.. i'll be bored to death.. on the other hand.. maybe i'm just a lowly temp staff so my job is just those boring rountine stuffs? haiz~ just i'm more certain i wanna get into the design course? but my drawing sucks leh~ hah.. i'm not very creative.. i'm kinda square.. lol.. how???? shuacks.. feel like i'm at the intersection.. sooo many roads to choose from~ argh!!!!
friday!! should i take whole day leave or half day? haiz~ think should i go earn that 3 X 7.5 = 22.5 anot~ haiz~ i'm SCARE!!!
shit! i haven done my proposal for tml's meeting!!! die!

rambled @ 11:02 PM

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time flys... yesterday was the last day of the funeral.. the body is burned.. cried.. the body has turned to ashes... my parents and uncles and aunties went to collect her ashes today morning...
didnt go cause was my first day of my new job... it's accounting.. the job is super boring k~ OMG.. almost fell asleep doing the paper work... basically i need to make sure the figures on both the soft n hard copy tally.. and their countless of figures for me to tally and the fonts is like only font 10 on paper~ gosh~ and i got a stack of it to complete.. haiz~ seriously regretting quiting my promoter job.. haiz~ being a promoter is more fun than an accountant~ but dont think i will quit this job soon~ need the money~ making money in my bank account grow~ felt proud when i go draw money today.. just receive my jan's pay... dont how much.. didnt update my book.. but the figure was greater than the last time i draw money.. felt great.. ha...
friday is getting my results~ super worried... wonder how will i fare... been scaring myself also.. been picturing myself getting poor results then the background are my friends happily celebrating their good results... CHOY!! i DONT WANT IT TO HAPPEN!! i want to celebrate with my friends for getting GOOD results~ but still my mind is still scaring me... i'm freaking out... = x
there is alot of things i need to do but i havent started doing... i need to plan an activity for the recently graduates students of nas.. deadline coming thurs~ need to write an essay, take 5 photos and a 10 min video by 1st april... not done... seriously consider my plans for the future.. where i want myself to be.. what course to take.. haiz~ dead liao... time is running out~
told some of the people i know i want to get married young.. my ideal age of marriage was 21.. now is 23.. ha.. which is just4 years more.. well...my ideal age of marriage.. ideal = it will never happen to me.. haha.. why i want to marry early.. influence by my mum... she married early, have kids early.. and i feel that the generation gap between the kids and parents is smaller.. and my mum can be mistaken for my elder sister.. ha.. then recently found another gd reason to marry n have kids early.. so that when the kids is grown up... i'm still healthy and fit enough to look after my parents.. i wont be too tied up with my young and wailing babies/ toddlers to cant help take care of my parents... yup... but as said~ it'll just be an ideal situation for me~ ha... ideal cases is never attainable.. lol...
long entry.. could be longer but i'm tired... slp early yesterday.. totally exhausted from the lates nights n tonning... didnt slp on the last nite of the wake.. played majong to keep awake.. ha... keep throwing 'cards' to my parents then they win the max - 5 tai.. ha.. 12.80 leh.. ha.. still shagged from the lack of sleep.. and idiotly, my ulcers haven recover~ haiz~ from dunno when till now liao.. they seems to worsen in fact.. more are sprouting.. can feel it.. no no.. it's them.. ARGH!!! cant talk n eat comfortbly... sian~~~
slpy slpy slpy~

rambled @ 11:22 PM

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