my bro now facing dilemma.. he's thinking of backing up his contract n not sign on le.. ya.. so now he dunno wat to do.. haiz.. sometimes i feel that we are fhee.forced to make decisions that will affect our life at a veri young age... at 19 wat do u really know abt the life outside? if u dun really know abt the life outside, then how are u able to make decision that will severely affect ya future? yalor.. felt quite sorry for my bro.. he has to make a decision and stick to it for the next 6 yrs.. and 6 yrs isnt really a short period of time.. yalor.. but guess he most prob not going to sign on liao.. so he's kinda a 'free man' le? =P

my dad drove my bro back to book in.. and all of us tag along for the car ride.. then after tt we went to hav turtle soup.. hee.. but onli me n my dad had it.. cos my mum n granny are full... yalor.. then when we wanna leave the place cant leave cos the car decided not to start.. bleh.. had to borrow power frm another car to start.. finally got started and got home.. jus dunnno whether the car will fail to start tml anot.. hope not..

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i'm back.. haha.. but not today lah.. was back on 21 april.. but too lazy and busy to post the trips updates.. firstly wanna thank all who msged me and wished me well for my birthday! thanks alot.. =)

the trip was not too bad.. hee.. but the sea were rough so the ship was shaky.. and i didnt feel veri stable there... ha.. made me kinda giddy too.. =P then went to experience casino for the first time.. cool experience.. but really not my cup of tea.. hee.. mayb cos i dun really know how to play ba.. so can onli go for the idiot proof game- jackpot.. haha.. jus press button onli.. lol.. btw the legal age on cruise is 18.. lol.. so i can guang ming zheng da de walk in and out of the casino.. haha.. and i was veri happy tt i kana checked by the ppl there.. haha.. =P shows tt i look young.. haha.. but i was checked on the last day of the cruise.. lol.. ok shall post more details abt the day on cruise..

19 april 2006

talked to him before i left the house for the cruise.. then he reminded me to bring a jacket.. but i left all my jackets in hall.. ya.. so going jacketless.. then when i reached the harbour front, when to shopped ard for some jackets.. but not nice leh.. so fated to go jacketless liao.. ya.. then when was waiting for my mum to do the admin stuffs.. then he appearred... with a jacket too.. hee.. was really touched n surprise he came cos it was exams period and unlike me.. he got lotsa of papers.. yalor.. then he lent me his onli jacket too.. exams hall are freezing cold one.. so was really really veri touched.. oh then he aso met my mum n granny n my dad.. hee..

then we boarded the cruise.. it's big.. nono.. big isnt apt.. enormous.. lol.. we boarded star virgo.. ya.. and it's like got 13 levels.. and there is front deck, mid deck n back deck.. it's my first time on a overnight cruise.. been on cruise before but it was jus a day's cruise to nowhere..

the dinner was not bad.. then daddy ordered a bottle of white wine.. then i had a glass of it... initially found it not bad.. but after a while it didnt taste that nice afterall.. then had another mini round of buffet at another restaurant.. =P took bread and a small portion of salad for some bites.. hee.. =P

after that we went to catch the 'Masters of Kung Fu' performance. It's a mixture of Shaolin KungFu with Chinese, European and North American arcobats.. think i more amazed by the acts by the Chinese arcobats.. they are really zai man.. hee... didnt really like it as much as my parents n granny though.. =P played bingo at a bar but sadly we didnt win.. then proceeded to the casino to try our luck again.. hee..

it was my first time entering the casino.. culture shock.. haha.. see those footages of casinos before from the tv.. but seeing from ya veri own eyes.. standing in the casino is a totally different feeling.. ha.. and the legal age is 18.. and i'm way past tt age liao.. (hai.. old liao leh.. ) so dun hav to worry abt sneaking in too.. hee.. =P

was amazed with everything i saw.. and the way they played blackjack seems different frm the way we or shld i say i played during CNY at my aunts hse.. and the rest of the games needless to say, all looked alien to me... haha.. yalor.. then the onli game i played was jackpot.. lol.. spent most of my time playing it... played till my eyes were sore lor.. lol... dount really understand why ppl can play jackpot for sooo long.. dun their eyes get tired? mayb cos my luck isnt veri gd ba.. didnt keep winning so i got bored.. hee.. my granny and mum seems engrossed wif it though.. ha.. while my father found his entertainment in playing the rouettle.. dunno how to spell.. it's the game whereby u try to guess the number one.. the the person will spin the 'thing' see where the ball lands..

i was acty quite seh when i was at the bar playing bingo le.. guess it was the glass of wine.. tot my jiu liang is tt bad man.. but i was able to walk straight jus my head felt heavy n i was super tired.. but it was later on tt i found out it was other reasons tt made me liddat.. mayb the glass of wine did partially caused it ba.. but the main contributing factor was the rough sea..

20 april 2006

today is my 20th birthday! Happy Birthday to me! hee..

woke up with a cold.. tot i had a hangover.. but it's jus the rough seas.. really make me feeling giddy.. bleh.. made me felt uncomfortable the whole day on board..

went to the jacuzzi pool after i woke up wif my mum.. the jacuzzi was really veri shuang.. hee.. if onli my hse one was jus as gd.. wah.. heaven man.. lol.. then went back the cabin to bathe.. to my surprise, there was a cake left on the table for me.. ha.. service veri gd man.. lol.. and we onli ate mouthfuls of the cake after our trip frm redang.. hee..

went to redang in the afternoon.. the beach is really veri veri beautiful.. guess gonna psycho the vballers to come here for a short get together trip.. cld play beach vball, swim/soak in the clear sea.. and see fishes under water.. or jus plain suntanning.. then for those willing to spent one can go fishing or snorkelling out in the deeper seas... yalor.. hee...

didnt want to get wet intially.. but after my mum's persuasion, i got changed and went down.. really glad i went down man.. ha.. there were many different kinds of fishes and they are sooo sooo beautiful... and the water is soo clear too.. hee... and the waves were veri shiok! hee.. the onli sad thing is that the sea bed some parts veri painful because of the broken coral reefs.. the view is really gd.. make me wanna go there again to try snorkelling.. hee... but think redang onli can go for a short period onli.. 3d2n is jus nice.. any longer will be quite bored cos nothing much liao.. yalor.. hee...

caught another performance after dinner.. this time it's the same Chinese, European and North Americans arcobats performing.. jus minus the kungfu parts.. but they performed a different sets of stunts.. ya... and the chinese arcobats are really veri veri ZAI!! the rest were jus mainly dancing so nothing much lor..

then at 12midnight catch another performance.. a topless dance.. ya.. the tic is 20 per person.. quite cheap according to my mum.. hee... she says if outside wanna see this kind of dance veri ex one.. so she bought the tics so we cld like see how issit like.. hee.. kinda curious how they are going to dance too.. hee...

but the show wasnt really good lah.. the cast are the SAME European n North American dancers.. gosh! being a performer on the cruise no easy leh.. gotta be all rounders man.. gotta bare it all.. ha.. but they didnt reallt literally bare it all.. at least they still had their undies on.. =P

there were many diff dance segments and not all are really topless.. some were purely dance wif some tops on.. ya.. but when they are dncing topless they wore this kinda special bra.. sth like those underwired bra jus without the padding.. guess it's to make their breast stay in place n look firm ba.. then got this segment is where the husband tries to make his tired wife who jus came back frm work into wanting to hav sex wif him.. like veri porno liao.. then u get to see the exotic dance moves lor...

when watching it make me tot of WAH... ha.. learnt the term Voyeurism.. haha... reminded me of 'Sarah', Saartje Baartman.. and how i'm now part of voyeurism and how the performers are being the subject of sexuality.. and the term 'Otherness' flashed across my mind too..

21 april 2006

had breakfast at this particular restuarant.. they had chinese and english breakfast.. we ordered the chinese one cos of our granny.. ya.. but the food was really veri veri nice.. the porridge was gd though.. so after that we went to the buffet for another round.. as usual.. i'm into my bread n butter again.. ha.. the scrambled eggs tt morning was not bad too... then my parents decided to go back to the restaurant to try the english breakfast.. ha.. didnt joined them cos i ate quite alot already at my 2nd round.. ya.. so wet back to pack my stuffs after the breakfast...

nothing much to do aso so went to slp while my family played at the casino.. ha..

then home sweet home..

rambled @ 3:34 PM

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will be leaving for my short trip soon... hee.. wun be back till 21 april.. so for those who frequent my blog and u wanna wish me a happy birthday on the 20th april... let me help u save one sms.. hee... jus tag ya well wishes here.. hee... cos i wun be bringing my hp to cruise.. ya.. so watever msges u sent me wun be seen or replied till i'm back.. but guess i will be lazy to reply a 'thank you' msg to those who sent me msges when i'm back too.. =P

turning 20 soon... bleh.. sounds old.. and scary too.. as u grow older u hav more responsibilties.. no longer can be like a child and everything heck care cos u know u can reply on ya parents to help u solve all the problems... hee.. yalor.. and being 20 means veri soon i'll reach my legal age.. jus a yr more i'm getting the key... ha.. think i'm blabbering nonsense already.. haha..

more updates abt my cruise when i'm back ba.. unless lazyness sets in again.. =P take care peeps.. will miss u all.. and pls study hard for those still having exams.. gambattte!!

rambled @ 1:22 PM

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my hall cliques gav me a surprise bday celebration yesterday.. i was surprised.. didnt know they celebrating my birthday.. hee... thanks peeps.. hee.. but doubt most of them will be readng this too.. =P but i really appreciate it tt they took precious time off their revision to celebrate my birthday.. yalor... gan dong.. had a sumptous meal too.. lol.. super full after the meal... hee...

then receive my pressie frm them too.. yeah! it's a product design book that i've been wanting to own.. hee.. didnt she de to buy the other time cos it's really veri ex.. yalor.. so thanks peeps!! =D

received his pressies too.. hee.. really touched he made me a card.. hee... although it's a simple card.. but still it is handmade by him.. hee.. =)

got home late and got reprimanded by my mum.. =P and it continued when i woke up at 2 plus this afternoon.. =P

veri long nv slp till so late le... veri shuang.. hee...

rambled @ 4:33 PM

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ha.. can see i super free rite? haha.. ya i'm... lol..




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rambled @ 4:05 PM

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baked cookies today.. haha.. quite fun.. haha.. didnt bake them all by myself lah.. had the help of my mum.. hee.. then packed some for him...

went to watch his match at geylang sports complex.. he playing for ang mo kio n they playing against nus today... quite an interesting match i wld say.. oh.. and his parents were there.. ya.. i finally met his dad.. but think i left a bad impression ba.. cos i was late.. =( ya.. underestimated the time i need to reach aljunied...
so i was late...

then we had dinner at geylang the beef kway tiao there then he sent me home first... ya.. so this practically sum up my day today...

going cruise on 19.. ha.. i'm seriously not behaving like i'm having exams.. bleh....

rambled @ 12:00 AM

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woke up late today.. suppose to be at tj for vball training at 10 one.. but in the end onli reached there at 1130.. and tt is because jass called me.. not think i will hav missed it totally... =P

been ages since i last touch vball.. and kinda ost touch liao... and my reaction time getting slow.. basically i lao le.. not as agile anymore... think i need to train man.. and the last time i touch vball was in the last ih competition i tink.. gosh and tt is mths ago... a long long time ago man... getting rusty is not a gd sign.. bleh....

then after training, went to kelly's hse to eat.. ordered pizzas n drumlets... hee... pizza hut hav gd drumlets... hee.. then wasnt full so had her maid to cook a bowl of maggi for me.. then i was super full.. guess i no need eat dinner aso.. veri veri full.. getting fat le.. later ppl complain i fat.. =P

rambled @ 9:09 PM

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had my first paper today... WAH~ ha.. prepared my essays the night before.. then didnt really have time to memorise my essays... so ya... wasnt able to write the essays i prepared.. so had to impromptu.. ha.. so i'm not gonna expect much frm this module.. at least a C, i'll be happy le... hee..

then i kinda pretty much no more exams le? =P next paper on 5th may... quite some time still so gonna enjoy myself first.. especially during my birthday... to be mugging on ya birthday is a damn sad thing for me lor.. yalor.. hee.. so i'll be on cruise on my birthday.. hee... which is gd also lah.. doubt any of my frens able to celebrate wif me also... exams period leh.. hee..

gonna rush out my lamp tonight cos it's due tml afternoon... =P i'm a last min gal.. hee.. =P

i seriously no exams mood.. =PP

rambled @ 8:31 PM

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ha.. i'm being distracted again... bleh....

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rambled @ 11:47 AM

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feeling veri veri sian.. can i dun study?? haiz.. dun hav the exams mood.. dun hav the mood to prepare for my essays... ya i noe i shldnt be complaining... i get know my exams qstns beforehand.. so all i jus need is to prepare the qstns... but i seriously no mood to do them.. art history.. argh~~ *headache* dun understand the movements and techniques then how to formulate my essays? plus my writing skills is so sucky lah.. bleh...

tml is the day of my WAH~ (western art history) gosh... it's tml!!!! and i hav less then 24 hrs left to prepare my essays... technical speaking i am left with 12 hrs 55 mins to prepare my essay.. then the time is ticking away as i type this entry, trying to escape frm reality, escape frm the preparation i need to do.. bleh...

save me frm my essays..... argh~~~

rambled @ 11:02 AM

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had tuition in the morning.. then later back home i nua... ha.. didnt do anything n my exams is on wed.. guilty guilty... really tired n i slpt... gosh.. been ages since i sooo nua at home le... cant remmber when was my last time soo nua lor... =P

went to watch ice age 2 yesterday.. it's nice.. =)

tue the c gals playing their finals at toa payoh.. hope they win.. hee.. =) sad tt the b gals got third... but it's kinda unfair to comment liddat cos i didnt see their standard.. yalor... but at least both are in top 4 lah.. so not tt bad ba.. hee...

rambled @ 6:14 PM

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yeah! finally the last wk of sem.. now all i left to tackle is exams and my lamp.. hee.. yeah!! hee.. 4d projects were ok.. not too bad and arent tt really bad ba.. lol.. and i glad that they like the story i wrote.. hee.. =) hope i can at least get a B frm scotts...

watched ice age 1.. it's funny... hee.. lol.. looking forward to catch ice age 2.. lol.. hope it will be good.. hee...

finally saw my brother today.. gosh! he is damn thin now lah.. and he seems to hav grown taller again.. gosh... or issit cos he has become thinner and thus looked taller? hee.. dunno lah.. but he definitely seems taller and is definitely thinner.. hee...

anyway, now my parents n brother know abt me being attached liao.. ya... they didnt hav much reaction though... ha... maybe they silently reaction big big, but in front of me like nothing big happen liddat?? hee... =P

rambled @ 12:01 AM

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went to meet his mum yesterday... the initially plot didnt really go according to wat he plan though.. ha.. not a veri gd actress here... then went to study for some time before meeting his mum again for dinner.... sent his mum home then shun bian visited his house too... in short, the meeting was fine.. his mum is friendly... but during the meeting i was veri quiet.. =P dunno wat to say as usual.. so was like listening to their conversations throughout the night.. hee... didnt get to hav dinner wif his dad cos his dad was on night shift.. hmm.. i'm more worried abt meeting his dad... fear for those awkward silence lah.. cos i really dunno how to initiate conversations one...

looking forward to tml after 2pm.. ha.. cos by then it will mean MORE FREE TIME.. muhaha... then a gd break too... will still hav one last project which is my lamp for the 3d module.. but tt still ok lah.. cos i will be enjoy doing it mah.. hee.. then wat's left to worry will be my papers le which i haven start revising.. bleh...

really scare for the presentation tml... haiz.. last wk my fellow classmates had set too high a standard le... STRESS man.. haiz... sad sad.... guess my grades for this mod will be bad ba...

happy that i got B+ for my foundation drawing.. hee... was expecting a B- one.. hee.. then wonder how my 2d will fare... bleh... doesnt feel confident cos the final tt i submitted arent really veri impressive.. yalor... haiz... i jus hope this sem i wun get any Cs... then i'll be a happy gal.. hee.. BUT not all B- tooo lah.. hee.. greedy gal here.. =P

rambled @ 12:34 PM

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rambled @ 3:31 PM

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yesterday was april's fools day...and it also became another special day for me too... (*'.'*) i'm attached... on april's fools day..

then at night met the gals.. the unsurprise surprise birthday celebration for jasmine... plan didnt go veri smoothly though.. but a little glitch didnt spoil the whole event.. plus nothing beats as long as we spent the night together.. hee.. as usual, had fun and laughter during the fish n co meal.. =D

he came to look for me after his match and then went to east coast wif him for supper... ya.. so didnt join the gals in their game of twisters at von's hse... enjoyed the chat we had at east coast and of cos, his company..

made a big step in saying yes.. and i'm happy i made tt move... =) casting my pessimistic thoughts aside, like him, i'm feeling positive abt this relationship... and this relationship will go in the right direction.. hee... but seriously there are still times when i question myself if this is too fast... really scare it will be like a bubble tt doesnt last... but guess my fears are jus me thinking tooooo much.. ha..

exams are coming... and the coming wk is all the assessment wk.. argh!! stress stress stress... still got lotsa things undone... chiam liao....

rambled @ 12:09 PM

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