nothing much to update also... went to the wake.. wasnt that busy as my mum, dad and bro... kinda slack for me.. so didnt feel that tired.. the tireness was most probably due to the late night sleep.. slept at 3 last night.. guess todae gotta break that record.. now is alreday 3.15am.. ha...
my bro was pulled into a debate about christianity with my cousins.. the debate was quite hot~ ha.. 2 against 1.. my bro was out numbered.. ha... could see that he was arguing till quite pek cek..
when there is too many people, disargeements sets in~ then arguements are spark~ haiz...
lotsa people at the wake today... reckon tomorrow will have a greater crowd.. didnt go serev the guests much also.. try to avoid it.. guess i'm the slacker there ba.. ha..
tommorow shall go accompany my father to stay up.. haha.. whole family staying over... family spirit! haha... wonder i can ton not.. been sleeping super late these few days liao.. haha... hope can lah...

rambled @ 3:17 AM

*****************************************************

well... my grandma pass away yesterday.. yah.. it was just sooo suddenly.. was in malaysia with my colleagues when my receive the call from my mother about her death.. i was TOTALLY shocked~ just saw her during chinese new year and she was still healthly and fit.. still remember the day i spent with her alone at her house, preparing dinner for second night of chinese new year..
rushed back to singapore and down to ttsh.. went to the mortuary to see her body... although i was there seeing the body but my mind still couldnt register that she is dead... somehow upon seeingher body i still like 'see' movements in her body at the corner of my eye... i just couldnt believe that she is gone... until today when they perform the rites to put her body into the coffin and seal it up... then it registered to me.. she is really gone~
isnt that close to my this ah ma lah... but afterall she is still my grandmother... someone close and related to me~ felt sad and emotional when i was going through the rites... but tears onli flow a little.. i'm not someone who tears easily.. ya... was super emotional when the sons and daughters ahd to feed her and say, ' u feed me when i was young and i feed u when u're old.' gosh... that scene made my teared.. made me think also... do we actually show our gradtitue to our parents for rasing us up? most of the time we take them for granted lor...
got to know actually one of my aunt is a twin~ her twin was given away and they couldnt locate her.. anyway they also give up to locate her lah... so my grandma actually have 12 children.. 4 sons and 8 daughters.. alot hor? but one given away and one dead.. so now got 6 daughters left... then got 16 grandchildren and 5 great-grandchildren.. huge family hor~ so the wake is gonna be busy lor... gonna hav quite a lot of people coming down to pay their respects and comfort my relatives and famly...
the wake will last till mon... then she will be buried.. it's her wish to be buried lor... ya.. wonder how the family will go on with the matriach gone~

rambled @ 12:47 AM

*****************************************************

finally resign~ called siti to tell her tt i'm resigning.. this reminds me i haven type my letter of resignation... have to go to office early in the morning too.. cos going jb with sonya n michelle (my colleagues) tml... sun will be my last day at tangs and tue will my my first place at the new workplace.. ha... dont ask me what company is it and what does it do.. cause i didnt ask my relative.. ha... i'm just interested in the pay and job hours... ha..
read jass and shiqi's blog... they seems to hav completed or half way through their portfolios for sadm.. haiz~ me? still think how to do it... jass got her 5 photographs taken... shiqi's even best~ got her essay, photographs and video taken lor.. wow! me?? none done~ haiz~ tt's me lah.. always procastinating~ -_-"
ulcers outbreak AGAIN~ haiz~ whenever will i be free from it? haiz.. so now eating, drinkning and talking are a difficulty for me~ but rest assure i'm eating well.. haha... just that my speed is super slow~ haha...
results coming out REAL SOON~ haiz~ i'm freaking out...
excited abt the trip tml~ hope it will be fun~ =)
excited about my new job~ haha... cause i'll get to wear my clothes that my mother or i bought~ haha... no more need to wear clothers that are black or white with jeans or black pants only~ haha.... but hope the working environment is good~ but office sure bound to have politics... haiz~ just hope i can stay out of it~

rambled @ 12:25 AM

*****************************************************

had a nightmare... scary.. dreamt tt i met a ghost while on holiday with friends... then i was freaking scare and when to consult a medium for help.. then he had my fortune told, said that my luck is gonna be bad... said that my coming results will be bad too... evrything wont go smoothly for me... haiz~ bad omen hur? especially when results is coming out liao... haiz~ hope i dun fail my As....
when nas early in the morning to collect alumni stuffs from the general office.. then after that when to look for mr wong.. kinda miss him~ haha.. luckily his class having pe at the quardrangle.. so i need not go round the school to find him.. haha... then chat with him a little.. hee... wanna see his baby's photo one.. but he got lessons later on and i cant stay long.. so no choice had to see them other day~ also got to know how my juniors fared in the recent east zone competition too.. haiz~ they were just THAT close to clich the top positions lor.. haiz~ guess that is the curse of nas? haha... hope one day the curse will be broken~ lol.. nvm.. there is still the nationals~ hee... will try to make myself free to see them play at CCAB~ hee...
received a job lobang from my distant relative... pay is gd n the job timing is gd too.. only 5 days a wk... apparently my parents want me to find this kind of job lah.. so they gonna super agree plus want me to quit my present job for it... ha... but now hazelle not in singapore.. cant talk to her about me quiting.. then the job my relative got for me need to be replaced urgently.. haiz.. so headache lor... how? i seriously want that job~ haiz~ hope i can get it~ office job.. new experience for me~ it's a account jobs.. haha... emily said they found the wrong person.. haha... find me, someone super careless for it? haha... well.. kinda agree lah.. i super careless one.. hope this job can make me less careless~ hee... but first i need to be able to get that job first~ haiz~ *keeping my fingers cross*

rambled @ 12:21 AM

*****************************************************

i'm burnt!! gosh... 1st time after kana tan i get burnt till so jialat~ haha... i'm still red lor... haiz~ then shoulders aching.. haiz~ muz be the lack of excercise.. haiz.. or mayb it's signs of old age.. haha..
wen work todae tanned.. ha.. emily like it... says it's healthy looking.. haha... then got one customer even compliment my tan? haha... the way she say is veri funny lor...
she: ya face...
me: huh?
she: black...
me(thinking): huh? sth on my face?? *looking into a mirror nearby*
she: nice.. *shows a thumbs up sign*
ha... i tot wat lor.. tot my face got some stain or wat.. lol..
ha.. but my face look red~ like i wen to drink or sth~ hah...
everyone is toking abt the Os results coming up... haiz~ sudden realisation.. my As are aso coming... a wk after them... how great? i still haven decide wat to do with my life~ haiz~ anyone wanna enlighten me???? i will be grateful~ =)

rambled @ 11:40 PM

*****************************************************

yesterday was a interesting n enjoyable night~ hee... met up withe the 5 gals... ha... been ages since we go out together liao~ then as usual, there will always be some funny stuffs~ haha... vani n von had 'fun' agruing abt the legs n breast.. haha... chicken legs n chicken breast~ lol... had fun exhanging gifts~ haha... got from von~ lol.. so my gut instinct is wrong.. haha... tot anna giving me~ lol... like the top she bought n the earrings.. hee... not to forget my faves~ chocolates~ lol... glad anna like the dress n necklance i got her.. haha... cos both are not sth she wld buy~ hee..
suppose to wake up early today.. ha.. but i couldnt wake up... made my kor wait for me.. paiseh about it... didnt hear my alarm clock lor... but my ma said it rang like siao.. then she aso tried to wake me up but i made funny noise then back to slp then she heck care me... haha... tink i too tired ba... seriously dont remember these details~
cos of me the team is late lah, except kor~ then took cab down and once reach the beach jiu start playing le~ ha.. never warm up also.. ha... den kana thrashed... lol... 21-4... then got loser bracket.. lost that too... so it's game over for us already in just 2 games... ha... then played vball.. veri veri long nv touch lor... rusty~ haiz~ yearning to play indoor~ but cant find time leh~ sian sian~ turn super black jus frm today's outing at sentosa~ haiz~ back to my secondary sch days tt blackie liao~ ha... took me so long to turn slightly fairer but i just need a few hours to be black~ argh~
cant go msn~ need to download the new version then can sign in.. so ma fan~
then heard from jass today that the ntu design course need to prepare a set of 5 photographs, a 10 min video and a essay not more than 400 words why they shld take me in~ how great~ -_-"
been faltering too... is design what i really want to study? i very san fen zhong one... scare i halfway wanna change~ haiz~

rambled @ 8:36 PM

*****************************************************

confirm my off kinda last min.. so out with my aunt, cousin n mummy~ ha..
bought alot of things today.. n all my aunt buy for me.. sooo paiseh~ she bought 3 dresses n 2 tops leh~ but all sales items lah.. but still quite ex lor... then dinner went saeke.. yummy yummy~ ha.. been ages since i went there.. lol... then wanted to pay for the dinner one.. but my aunt took n foot the bill... yalor.. my aunt really dotes me~ hee...
tml gonna meet the gals le~ finally... n to that special SOMEONE~ yeah~ i got ya present liao.. hee... dont know whether u will like it not leh~ cos it's something not really ya style~ ha... something different for a change? hee... well... dont what to wear tml to work.. lazy to change~ haha... wanna take pics together k? been ages since we do so liao~ hee...
sun aso a prob~ gotta wake up soo ealry.. dont know what to wear also~ haiz~ tt why i like wearing dress.. haha.. no need to fan about the matching tops n bottoms~ haha... but wear dress go sentosa sooooo funny~ lol...

rambled @ 1:02 AM

*****************************************************

lost my hse keys.. still cant find.. haiz.. sad sad.. lost the pooh bdae bear too... my key chain to my hse key...
my hse kana rats for the past few days but now no more le... scary sia.... now i sooo sensitive to shadows n moving things.. ha... been working late recently too.. den kana scared by a jackfruit tt is abt a size of a rat... and i got scared by it on 2 consective nights... ha..
been buying pressies recently.. ha... fun lah.. but it's kinda burning a hole in my wallet.. lol... looking forward for my next pay day so i can mend that hole... lol... haiz.. dont think i can save enough to go on a trip with the gals leh... try to save enough lah~ ha... been thrifty le.. lol.. haven been buying things for myself.. then everyday eat at canteen nv go out buy food... lol... except today lah.. went to buy subway cookies before work... haha... eating those cookies reminds me of sch.. lol.. how i always yearn for the days where the library sells them.. haha...

rambled @ 12:59 AM

*****************************************************

met weird people today.. ha...
first was this guy.. came up to me..
he: hihi.. do you stay in yishun? you look familiar.. i seems to see you alot of times..
me: aye.. i dont live there..
he: oh... do u go to double o at ms?
me: huh??
he: do u go to double o at ms?
me: huh????? ( what's that.. then i realise it's a club at mohamad sultan)
me: aye~ i dont go clubbing one~
aye~ his pick up line kinda old.. ha... told my mother and brother and they laughed..
then met this guy who wants to buy this bag for his gf but he dont want spend.. duh lor.. want to buy cheap bag dont come to my counter lor~ then after tried to flirt.. got gf liao still want to flirt~ -_-"
then on my way home met this ah ma who sat beside me then she started talking about her family... ha.. and it's in teochew~ ha.. and i can communicate with her frm city hall to bedok~ ha...
want to keep my hair long~ ha.. long like my sec 2 liddat... hee... dont know i got the determination anot~ hope i can~ hee...

rambled @ 12:21 AM

*****************************************************

happy valentine's day! hope everyone enjoyed their day~ =)
havent been blogging as often liao... in fact i havent been online for days.. ha.. but it seems like ages.. lol..
been working n dont know busy with what~ lol.. then keep sleeping late n waking up early till i like almost over-exhuast myself.. ha.. super duper tired.. but somehow i onli managed to go slp like 1 or 2am.. haiz~ dont know i busy what too.. lol...
been considering should i go change job~ what's keeping me is the pay~ ha.. although after getting my pay i dont get to spend~ ha.. but this job is the highest paid job i heard leh~ no actually the highest i heard was 1 hr $12.. ha..
results coming out soon? lol.. hope i do well... hoping....
my deadline coming and i havent go form a committee.. dead.. no plans no proposal.. deadmeat!
tried making cookies.. ha... wasnt tt fantastic.. lol.. but still edible.. lol... think it's fun making these stuffs.. it's the washing and clearing up that pulls me off~ ha...

rambled @ 12:40 AM

*****************************************************

happy new year~ =)
didnt blog for a few days already.. kinda busy with stuffs.. but also don't really know i busy with what lah~ hee... =P wanted to paint my nails then in the end also no time to do it~ lol..
this year CNY very different from the previous years.. ha... not that i have started to give angbaos lah.. ( very duh i know~ hee..) but the things i do for CNY this year is different.. ha..
guess as i grow older i get more supersitious.. ha... the first day i tried to wear everything new... ha.. but too bad the skirt i bought doesnt match any of the tops my mum bought~ so in the end my skirt n bag are not new ones.. the rest are all brand new~ hee... then this year our family reach my ah ma's house late.. only reach there like ard 11.. hee... then 1st day we kinda finish all the visting le... ha... then back to my ah ma's house for dinner... before the dinner starts gambling as usual for the adults... then cause my father was tired my mother ask us to take his place.. ha.. cause missing a player... then i have to play cause my brother didnt wanna play.. but he has to take up the role as my advisor cause i dont really know how to play~ hee... then to play majong is kinda like a promotion? haha.. cos the kids play black jack n adults play majong~ lol... then all my relatives who came all kinda surprise to find me at the majong table... ha..
in the end lost 20 cents at the majong table.. hee... but black jack won $3.50.. hee...
day 2 leh... no visting.. ha... just have to go my ah ma's house.. ha.. had to go down earlier to pei my ah ma do the cooking... the 1st time i all alone with my ah ma only.. hee... do the cutting n some cooking then watching tv while she slpt... hee.. no bad lah.. considering my teochew half bucket still can communicate with her.. lol... then at night was asked to play majong again~ didnt really want to cause i dont know how to count the tais mah~ but kinda force too~ haiz~ my brother be my advisor for a while then he was asked to be at the blackjack table to add players.. hee... then i'm on my own~ ha... occassionally got my aunts to help out lah~ hee.. but my cousins are more pro lah.. keep winning 3 tais and stuffs~ so in the end i lost $12.. then my aunt say never mind lah, tuition fees~ dots~ haha...
tomorrow gotta be at tangs at 9.. hope i can be at fung's house for steamboat~ haha.. then i can get angbaos~ hee... another thing that is different~ ha.. i get to keep my aunt's ang bao~ haha... so happy~ so got money to put in bank and save~ hee...
and to all my friends... please dont use iweb to play music can? they got this stypid spyware thingy.. and it affects those who go to your blog~ or issit just me who kana? the i'm damn suai liao~ haiz~ i will be avoiding those who are using iweb to host music~ cos i'm sick of having popups~ and scanning my com for spywares n clearing them... worse is now i cant clear the stupid spyware... argh!!!!

rambled @ 11:51 PM

*****************************************************

went to pray my ah gong today.. took a taxi with my mother n brother.. ha.. the taxi sped like siao lor.. ha... the highest he hit was 150km/hr.. gosh!! soooo fast.. lol...exciting lor.. haha.. but i couldnt really take it lah.. lol... pity my brother who sat in front.. hee...
after praying my uncle drove us all to bukit timah help my brother buy CNY clothes.. ha.. then i bought a top from the shop there.. hee... it's a guy's shirt lah... but wear liao not that ming xian it's guy's one lah... the design quite unisex.. hee... just that the size might be alittle bigger.. hee... love it lor.. hee... then my brother bought 2 shirts n a jeans...
emily msg me... told me yesterday lost 5 wallets.. haiyo... 5 wallets leh~ about $300 lor... make me feel guilty for not going work...
CNY is just a FEW DAYS AWAY~ gosh.. so fast.. and i haven't go start packing.. =P lazy lazy lazy... and valentine's coming... and i haven get anything for YOU~ *guilty* timing is running up.. but i seriously dont know what to get for YOU leh~

rambled @ 10:24 PM

*****************************************************

went to see a doctor today.. it's just a dog bite but it seems like such a hoo-ha? went to the A&E to have my wounds checked.. cause the GP doesnt hav the neccesary jab for me so he asked me to go A&E.. sian.. in the end got 2 days mc n the total cost me $65 bucks.. got painkillers n antibotics too.. saying about my pills i hav yet to take any~ =P shall take them tomoorow after my meal ba~
was persuaded not to go work by my mother.. so went to makan with her before i head for tj.. hee.. the guys are having training.. so going over to watch.. didnt noe the seniors are coming too.. thought it was just the yr 1 n 2 only and maybe a few expected faces.. in the end saw quite alot of seniors that i haven seen in ages.. hee.. the matches were interesting.. woo.. cant imagine if i could play like them man.. ha... if only my skills is like half of theirs? i would be happy lor.. haha.. seeing them play make me wanna play ball.. but my hand got tt stupid cut so i had to resist the temptations to play ball.. sian.. anyway the attire that i wore there will also kinda in a way hinder me playing ball...
tml is on mc too.. will be going to offer my respects to my ah gong then have renunion dinner with my maternal relatives.. hee... my ma says my ah gong wants me to go pray him and have tua yuan fan so i was fated to get bitten by the dog.. hee.. cos if i dont have the mc, i would miss the tua yuan fan with them and the morning offerings.. hee...
recently been knowing people who have lost their sense of purpose.. feel that it's scary to lose it.. cause it will eventually lead to the lost of passion for life... then everything will be like sooo meaningless... and depression will sink in.. a downward spiral effect.. it's just sooo bad... hope my friends they all will get better... sad to know ya friends are facing a difficult time and you cant do much to help.. haiz~

rambled @ 1:22 AM

*****************************************************

i guess the suayness doesnt just ends in a day~ haiz.. got bitten by my dog todae... jus b4 i go work.. how suay... and it bit my wrist.. right wrist somemore.. haiz.. it's deep.. now like almost all my family members kana bitten by it liao.. ha.. left my father who haven't kana bitten by it... haiz... then comparing, mine is the deepest.. -_-"
then my house also don't keep stock on first aids stuffs.. so didnt have much to dress my wounds.. ha.. so in the end i use 2 huge plaster ( those that are for blisters kind..) n join them to form one huge plaster.. haha... creative? lol... then went work.. guess the plaster on my wrist somehow gives people the impression tt i slit it.. haha... i got suicide tendency? haha... then the whole journey to work i was like trying my best to hide the plaster.. ha...
showed emily my wound.. ha... she was shocked.. hee... then sonya very kind n good lor... she saw my wound then offered to help my clean it n stuffs... hee.. helped my apply the 'qing cao you' then dress the wound with the gauze i bought before going to work... so during my whole working hours i cant really exert much force from my right hand lah.. sian sian sian... kinda handicap.. hee.. wonder how people can muster the courage to slit their wrist? OMG~ so painful lor... eee~
going to the doctor tomorrow~ haiz.. hate going to the doctor.. bo pain.. cos kana bitten by a dog.. so must go see... my parents want me go.. but i perfectly alright what... no fever, no vomitting etc..(choy, choy, choy!!!)
very fast CNY coming leh.. and i haven go pack my room~ ha... die lah... lol...

rambled @ 1:37 AM

*****************************************************

How lucky can one be? Haiz… stab myself with a pencil at work today.. how? I place the pencil holder on the floor.. then when I swat down to arrange the drawer, the sharp tip of the pencil penetrate through my jeans and stab my knee… -_-“ pain!! Can imagine the impact.. ouch! Then till I came home the wound is still stain with the pencil lead.. sian.. hope it doesn’t poison my knee and make it go weak.. hee..
Then on my way home a bird shit landed on me!!!! argh!!! how lucky can I get??? And where it land? It landed on my head!!!! My head leh!!! Haiz.. anyone want 4 digits? Haha.. can come find me. lol…
Net connection is down for days… it suppose to work tomorrow lah.. haiz… second time like this liao… sian.. cant do without the net.. ha.. I’m being too reliant on the net.. lol.. so I’m typing this entry on Words first den later transfer. Hee…
Went training on tue n bake pineapple tarts on tue too.. FUN!!! Haha.. cut my hair.. or rather trim my hair lah on tue too.. now I got fringe.. haha.. but soo sad.. kor cant tell I cut my hair.. ha… den next day after work went down to nus to watch the volleyball finals.. couldn’t leave work earlier cause 10 cartons of bags came and I die die have to finish at least 5 cartons of them.. lucky Emily came to help.. not think I couldn’t be down at nus watching the match… but missed the guys’ match.. missed the excitement, how they won despite a 13-14 final crucial set.. only saw the 3rd set of the girls match.. kinda one sided lah.. but got some parts interesting lah.. how the weaker side fight n preserve on.. good fighting spirit.. hee.. then when home with ps.. haiz.. another person who can’t tell I cut my hair.. sad leh.. lol… very obvious I cut mah.. why like no difference liddat? =(
Sometimes it just takes a few black sheeps for me to lose faith n confidence in the entire community.. haiz… sick of hearing what that stupid person has done to hurt my friend… pained to hear stories of how my friend is hurting because of THAT stupid idiotic person… really wonder what tt person is thinking?
Want to join the beach volleyball organize by smu.. but cant form a team~ haiz… short of 2 person.. sian… who can I find????? And deadline is closing soon~ haiz.. fated that I cant join? Haiz~ so sad~

rambled @ 1:32 AM

*****************************************************

sales todae was sucky lah.. but gd thing is emily is here to join me le.. ha...guess i wld be tt bored at work le? hee... did lotsa paperwork todae.. ha... felt sooo accomplished... lol... jus hope the stocklist i do wld be jus alright.. lol..
jass came to look for me after her interview.. hee... hope she gets a job soon.. hee.. jas, jia you!! hee...
met jasmine n yvonne after work... lol... as usual siaoing ard.. feels soooo fun.. really hoping to hav a meeting wif u gals...
tml i off~ haha.. again.. lol.. feels great being off lah.. lol... but having off days too near to each other kinda make u dread work.. haha.. tml is gonna be another interesting day too.. haha... it's not gonna be another shopping spree like sunday.. ha.. will be doing lotsa things tml.. haha... looking sooo forward to it... hee... wanna know wat i did? haha.. come read my blog tml ba.. haha... =P or if u see me tml den mayb u will know wat interesting programs i hav.. haha...

rambled @ 1:04 AM

*****************************************************