Your Existing Situation
The fear of rebuff and the extreme caution of her approach make it difficult for her to achieve the degree of intimacy and identification she desires.

Your Stress Sources
Seeks independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoids obligations or anything which might prove hampering. She is being subjected to considerable pressure and wants to escape from it so that she can obtain what she needs, but tends to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but restless and inclined to be emotionally withdrawn, which prevents her from becoming deeply involved.

Your Desired Objective
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.

Your Actual Problem
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

Your Actual Problem #2
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or her reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to remedy this by intense activity and by insistence on getting her own way. Faulty self-control can lead to ungovernable displays of anger.



quite zun leh.. think free can try.. hee...

rambled @ 1:44 AM

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The results of your analysis say:

You like to be surrounded by four solid walls.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

rambled @ 6:41 PM

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saw my bro in his botak head yesterday night when he came back.. haha.. his head is soo small... lol... jus it runs in the family ba... haha.. my head aso veri small.. lol.. now my bro seems fitter and thinner.. guess it's always training in there.. heard he everyday do pull ups lor.. gosh.. tough man... first day he did 11.. but nowadays he can onli do 7.. shack was his reasons.. but glad he is ok wif army lah.. =)

went to the nite cycling comm ppl to their recce trip.. it was fun.. it was my first nite cycling trip and first time cycling on the roads lor.. was teribly scare at first.. at later on not too bad liao... cycled all the way frm sch to bedok jetty.. hee.. and wanted to watch the sunrise one.. but too bad the sun was blocked by the clouds... =(

really miss u gals... meet up soon k? hmm... guess after cny? then we gotta draw lots again for Valentine's day! haha... i'm excited abt getting pressie.. lol...=P but i'll more excited meeting u gals! hee.. cant wait to all the bitching and laughter.. hee... =D

rambled @ 10:42 PM

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Intelligence Intelligence is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You like to be able to talk about everything that is on your mind, and if your partner can't keep up, well, you know. You are very attracted to someone who can challenge you, and make you see things in a whole new way. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Your hidden talent is psychic You are able to foresee certain things, and prevent bad things from happening to yourself. It could just be a lot of common sense, but it’s probably something a little more. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

You will be famous for eating the most hot dogs at Nathan’s Famous hot dog eating competition You love life and enjoy doing what you feel like whenever. You are a free spirit and are not tied down by any social conventions. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

rambled @ 9:39 PM

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been ages since i last blogged... acty had quite alot of things to blog one... but somehow when i'm in front of the com, jus dun hav the mood to blog or have forgotten wat i wanted to blog... hee... signs of old age... scary... yesterday i realised that i'm TWENTY this year!!! OMG!! old liao old liao....

bro went army on the 7th... so far so gd ba.. haven heard him complaining so far... hee... haven got to see his botak head yet... haha... this wkend ba... hee... cant imagine him in tt short hair.. haha....

sch's been fun... took maths as my prescribed module... lots ppl are giving me tt werid stare when they know i took maths... haha... maths is fun mah... jus sometimes it's tooo tedious... hee.... but it'll be a gd break frm my drawing n design work.. hee... and got 3 other frens taking the same modules too.. haha... but they all guys... lol.. so i'll be the onli gal among them.. but guess the most odd thing abt me wun be being the onli gal in the grp of four but being the onli design student taking maths ba... haha... =P

i'm losing my tan... haha... though not drastically.. but i'm losing it... so i'm not tt chao ta liao... hee...

rambled @ 5:04 PM

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had my 2d lessons today... thought today will be the start of my hellish sem.. but i was wrong... the prof decided to change his way of working n thus we'll be having lesser bring-home- projects... but instead we'll be doing all the assignments in class... woo hoo... sounds great cos tt will mean no more slpless nights or working till wee hours days... however, lessons seems less interesting... not tt it is not interesting but less interesting... amt tt i'll be learning will seem less too... hmm... pros n cons... shall go thru it first ba... u nv know till u try...

dont like decision making... cos it always mean i hav to giv up something.. opportunity cost... shld i or shld i not?? bleh...

the guys vballers will be playing the semis later.. same place as yesterday... somehow the saddness came back as the time to go there to support is nearer.. guess the place now holds unpleasant memories for me... kinda dreading to go... but gotta face it afterall... boo! gotta be strong and live with it and fight back! zhiwei says next IH we'll be strong cos guili coming over... yeah... thinking of pulling eileen in tooo... then we'll hav a vball team.. yeah!! fight back!! personal grudge... cant stand losing to her... bleh!! been si dui tou for years... although dun really know her but sorry... jus dun like her... so it makes losing to her AGAIN more bu gan yuan n angry.... haiz...

everyone been having the same line when they see me.. " you are very dark leh... "
haha... think they are trying to be nice.. it shld be, " OMG ! u are chao ta!"

rambled @ 6:53 PM

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lost the semis... sad... no doubt... mixed emotions... the team fought well... except for the first 2 sets... we were tooo nervous... me included... it's sucky!!! damn sucky... cld have won one.. but we too too long to warm up and lack of mo qi... fought well though... just angry at myself why crucial pt nv serve the ball over.... why i soo nervous at the start tt i cldnt perform to standard... made super lots of mistakes in the start.. if only i am more calm, things wld be different... if onli... haiz.. too many if onli liao....

gotta train hard for next year... guess will be making frequent trips down to tj to train... haha... hopefully... *crossing fingers tt my schedule wun be so packed* hee... really into vball now... guess my love for it increases as i grow old.. hee... yue lao yue nong... hee...

rambled @ 11:06 PM

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Woo.. today is my first day of sch for my second term... finally no more 8.30am lessons... lessons are starting later.. so they start at 9am instead... yeah!! so can waker up later... had foundation drawing today... nudes again... but today is my first time drawing nude MALE model... haha.. damn paiseh lah.... we had to do 25 1 min sketches... then most of the pics i was onli concentrating on the top... lol... but after a while he was being treated as an object liao.. so not tt awkward liao... lol..

after lunch the model was switched... so back to a familiar face.. hee... but she cut her hair short n dye them RED!! haha... my fave colour!! but somehow think the dye didnt suit her... but the haircut does... hee... had fun today at drawing lessons... drawing bit rusty frm the lack of practice during holis... gotta buck up...

later having vball semis... hope we can win... gotta JIA YOU!! =))

rambled @ 4:06 PM

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my first post for the year 2006... hee... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

conclude my new in 2005... hmm... first half of it was working.... kinda fun working in guess.. though got some kind of politics involved.. but overall it was fun... gd to earn your own money too and working wif frens u noe... hee... next half was spent in uni and most of the time was in hall... great knowing new frens and experience new stuffs... ran the publicity dir post and so far enjoying the banners painting.. haven got sick of it yet... hee... fun learning new sports although it turned me black n mummified.. =P met wif some politics too in uni and learnt abt the ugly side of humans... but oh well... everywhere i'll get to know the ugly side of humans... haha..sometimes realising mine ugly side too.. lol... but i guess i was happier in 2005 as compared to 2004... so guess 2005 was kind of a ok year for me ba.. hee....

hope 2006 will be a better year for me... seriously hoping so... =) new year resolution?? hmm....
1) be organised
2) treat myself better
3) lesser injuries
4) fairer? lol
5) good results
6) treasure time wif my loved ones
7) be neater and tidier
8) build closer relationships wif ppl ard me
9) slp more
10) learn more stuffs

above just my list for new year resolution... hee.. but doubt i will be able to fufil them... lol... but will try my best to acheive them.. =)

had tution today.. somehow see the kid improving make me feel proud.. hee... then went over to my aunt's hse... the games they played wif the kids was fun.. lol... they treated the kids like 'horses' then numbered them 1-6, then threw 3 dices... the numbers show means the kid wif tt no will be able to move a step forward. the kid tt first reaches the finishing line gets $2.. haha... then was the catching money before it reaches the ground... lotsa games played wif the kids but all involved money.. it was fun to see them play lah.. but to think of it, the kids were like motivated by the money.. kinda sad...

ankle hurting again.. sian... guess i kinda aggravate it during warm-up before my compeition.. opps... no time to go see tt doc... thinking of going to see tt geylang sinseh.. but there no gd go alone.. and so far frm sch... sian... hesitations sets in cause competitions coming and there are like a suitable time to see doc till everything is over...

yesterday went 85 to eat supper wif kelun.. it was fun being there to eat and tok wif him... hee... the place also holds pleasant memories for me too... so being there is also a happy thing for me.. hee... and got to know abt this werid gal wif a doll called watutu... scary... haha....

i missed the old carefree days... i missed all the gd old times... i missed all my frens who i haven seen in a long long time... and pretty soon i will miss my brother too.. haiz.. h's entering army soon... and i JUST realised it... so sad... haven been seeing him... gosh i sounds like my bf is going army.. haha.... 7 jan he gonna cut botak.. hee... cant imagine his botakness... lol... but tink till then home will be quieter.. and i shld be spending more time at home to pei my parents le...

rambled @ 12:27 AM

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