been ages since i last blog liao... uni life have been hectic for me... and i'm super busy... almost every day sleeping at 3/4am.. haiz... sch is fun yet stressful due to my course.. no exams sounds cool n fun rite??? it totally WRONG lor... it means more stress.. cos every assignment counts.. so everything gotta do swee swee... no tutorials for me to copy... explains my late night.. or shld i say 'early' nights... =S

joined the hall jcrc too.. experienced rally n voting.. interesting experience.. but now start to wonder whether i made the right choice.. adding more burden to my load.. so now i might hav to slp at 5am? considering next day got 8.30am lessons... *sarastic laughter* oh well... but since i've already taken up the load, i'll have to carry it well... will try my best.. hope next yr during my AGM, i wun kana shoot like siao.. but actually ppl wun be totally please with whatever u do one lor.. i find... cos there will be also room for improvement n people are picky... especially towards others.. it's also easier to find faults at others than at oneself... oh well.. just do a good job and dui de qi zi ji can liao...

sucky that everytime u can just affect me just liddat.. haiz.. whenever can i be free from you??? seriously dont understand why u managed to stay in there for so long... and sometimes i really wish i dun get to see/know u anymore.. just be totally out.. but things dont always happen the way u want them... ha... or is it just me?? just like to be in self dilemma.. stuck in my own self illusion? argh!! i just hate myself for being like this... argh!!!

think people or gals tend to be more saddistic? ha... we tend to go for the things that arent really that good believing it's good for us... ha.. that's why the saying goes, ' nan ren bu huai, nu ren to ai'... sad case rite? pity the good guys out there too... lol... being good doesnt get them gals they like and they hav to lose the gals to guys who are 'losers'... then although those bad guys get critise like siao, they tend to get the gals they like... irony leh... or is it just humans?? they just hav tt saddistic elements in them???

haiz...late nights just make me more gan chu ba.. or mayb cos i very very long nv blog liao.. hee... miss blogging.. so shall blog my feelings... hee...

so sian... tml gotta rush tml de tml hw... it's just nv ending...

rambled @ 2:38 AM

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been ages since i blog liao... am super duer busy lah... haiz... lack of sleep... dozing off in class is becoming common to me.. bad bad... but i'm seriously deprived of my sleep!!!!

why? all because of the vibrancy of hall life n my course... almost everyday got hall activities... and my course assignments are killing me... haiz... and actually i'm not suppose to be typing this entry.. should be sitting on my table thinking for my storyboard.. gotta hand it tml... haiz...

almost everyday the prof gives us assignments.... n our course arent like those engineerining course whereby tutorials nv do nvm one.. as long as exams perform well can liao.... cos our course no exams, except those core subjects... so very assignments counts... so die die gotta do finish n hand it... and die die also muz hand in swee swee one... not the grades will suffer...

and i had to take lit n history for my core lah... haiz.. dont noe what the hell they are talking lor... think my exams for these die liao lah... hope i can pass these modules.. then i dun hav to 'da pao' them... choy!!!!

my laptop haven come... so sian.... waiting.. waiting.... i miss msning... but guess my hectic schedule wun allow my to msn alot also.. ha...

anyway i'm joining my hall's jcrc... hee.... gonna be banner gal.. lol... running for publicity director.. then jass running for publications director.. so when we work together... we will be known as the PAP... lol... Publicity and Publications... lol...

went for corrinne may's concert yester-nite... the concert is awesome!!! she is veri veri talented and duh too.. lol... her jokes are kinda cold.. lol.. but it helps liven the mood there... hee... glad i went.. = )

rambled @ 7:20 PM

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when training today..so fun.. finally get to play ball.. but muddle me... left my shoes in hall.. then luckily fung told me can borrow lisi's shoes cos she left it in the sch hall... but went down training forgetting to bring socks... so blur rite?? had fun playing... but sad that my skills got bad... so sad... gotta improve... so gotta train train train...

when to market opposite tj wif my mum in the morning.. and bought 2 jackets n a long sleeve blouse... for my sch.. my classroom is freaking cold lor... so like freezer liddat... hee... and those 3 items just cost only $20.. cheap rite?? hee...

then on my way home.. as i prepare to board the appoarching bus 12.. got this old ladt appoarch me for help... want me to help her carry her marketing stuffs up the bus.. she was carrying 2 big bags of stuffs lah.. damn heavy aso... plus she had difficulty walking also lor... helped her carry liao then on the bus she told me she live in simei.. kinda ask me if it's possible to help her carry those bags home... was hesitating lah.. cos dun really know where she stay although she told me her block no... but later i agreed lah.. cos she stayed near my hse there lah.. but as i helped her.. i was also thinking lah... what if she's out to trick me or sth.. cos the route to her hse quite desertted... yalor.. then was also thinking for her... i dun noe her n she dun know me... how do we know that each other is a good person?? we could have ulterior motives... yalor... but nothing bad happen... n i'm kinda ashamed for thinking that the old lady is out to mayb cheat me or sth.. =P but somehow did a good deed today lah... hee.. kinda happy... lol..

went back home to bathe then is out again... this time wif my father n mother... went thomson rd dere... why? cos my father plans to buy a car... so went down to see see lor... me happy? nah... was quite agst him buying it one.. but didnt voice up to him... only to my ma.. ha... we like now hav to pay the hse loan... my course is veri ex.. ( i keep need to buy stuffs) then my bro going uni in a few more yrs.. why shld we add more debts... tt wat i feel lah... plus we all big liao.. dun find that a car is really neccessary for us... i'm used to taking public transport arh... yalor... but on the other hand... mayb like wat my mum say it might be gd afterall lah... can bring my grandma out... ( my mum initially also agst him buying one..) yalor.. and plus my pa like veri bend on buying.. say so much agst it will only make him angry?? hee.. dunno lah... so let him lor.. when he ask abt my view abt buying... i just asked him whether he can settle the monthly instalments for it lor... he say he canm.. then can lor... nothing else to say liao wat...

with a car in the family... i still dun have the mood to learn driving... think i'm not cut for driving anyway... yalor... still prefer to be driven ard n not the other way.. ha.. =P

jass got her laptop liao... me haven.. so sad... when will my laptop come??? i wan my laptop!!! and i'm stressed!!! my tutorial grp are filled with art background ppl... feels sooooo small being together wif them... and i'm having like having SPA everyday... haiz.. muz be retribution... laugh too much at the yr 1s last yr liao... so now i'm suffering wat they are suffering.. no no.. i'm suffering worse than them.. at least i think SPA is easier then what i'm going through now... ha... but guess mayb i got a little slight advantage over those students wif art bg ba.. cos some grading are based on the improvements made during the sem... so being lousy means the room for improvement is larger... muhaha... tt's provided i improve tremedously lah... and acty being an arts student i shldnt be too preoccupied abt my grades.. but my quality of my art pieces.. haiz... guess i'm just being a typical Singaporean student ba... brainwashed by the educational system... grades are impt... 'A's are good... 'B's, 'C's or 'D's are bad.... oh well....

rambled @ 9:32 PM

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