one rabbit die today.. sad..
went training.. amazed at the guys.. tink finals will be a tough fight.. =) our guys got chance... =)
arguement broke out during training too.. 1st time see kor sooo angry.. scary... misunderstanding n playfulness caused it.. haiz.. but tension was WOW den.. wouldnt want to be there lor.. whole hall was like soo weird..
anyway today had beenan interesting day for me.. hee.. morning had breakfast at toa payoh.. den went to the HSBC tree top bridge.. took abt 2hrs to walked there n back to the car.. ha.. and cos we go there due to last min decision.. we were all wrongly attired.. haha.. me n my mum were wearing jus slippers n my dad slightly better.. he wore sandals.. ha... but the view real nice.. haha... so long nv go treking liao aso.. so kinda fun.. haha...
den went turf city to hav a look.. haha... den spend 2 hrs there shopping at the giant there.. onli giant lor.. haha.. bought 2 bottles of fruit wine.. haha... nice nice.. had 6% alcohol in it.. so not tt bad? haha... bought alot of things there too.. hee...
nidta do excercise liao.. getting fat.. =( ate too much! haha.. consectively somemore.. ..

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today's von's birthday.. think our surprise for her arent really veri surprising lah.. ha.. she kinda expected it liao.. dinner was siao as usual.. lol... esp vani.. haha...
the ride home was also crazy.. haha... me n jas cant stand anna n vani who were in front taking pics.. haha... and the bus was filled with crazy laughter from us.. or should i say from the two of them? haha...
dont feel like working.. very sian... but no work = no money.. so have to work.. but actually i also not veri hard up lah.. just veri not shuang with the figures in my account.. ha... =P
heard on the radio today about an old man's story.. about this old man who under some welfare scheme lah.. then every month get $200+ as allowance.. after the bills and stuffs, he'll left about $100+ for food n other stuffs lah.. $100+ a month for food and other stuffs leh!! gosh.. dont tink i cant survive lor.. my transportation fees alone already like take up 80% lor.. still got food leh? haiz~ anyways... having that little money for the month only.. he one day decided to eat steak.. well, eating steak isnt a big deal for us right? but it IS a BIG deal for him... a steak doesnt cost cheap.. for him to decide to eat THAT steak needs sacrifices, compromises... then why did he made that sacrifice? for him, THAT steak was the FIRST steak he ate for his entire life.. walking past the restaurant , seeing people eating it for years but never had the ability to eat it.. not really no ability to eat it lah.. but cant really afford it lor... can imagine the amount of feelings he took to eat that steak? and of course after that steak, he everyday onli can eat plain noodles.. no money mah.. after hearing it, i was like WOW~ applauded his decision.. you live onli once.. so good to sometimes be crazy abit? haha.. do something that is really WOW~ like him.. haha..
sometimes think what the use of being thrifty? money is never enough.. so u save sooo much for what? ??? future medical bills for old age? high living standards? unpredictable situations? well.. good to save for rainy days lah... but save so much and neglect the quality of your life worthwhile? dont find it so lah. . but want me to spend to enjoy, especially a huge sum to enjoy, bit heart pain n unwillling leh.. haha... but seriously think it's good to pameper yourself once in a while.. why be so hard on yourself? u live only once leh.. rather enjoy living or not enjoy living? i rather enjoy my moments on earth.. =)

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well.. jass receive her acceptance letter from SADM le.. good for her.. =) i didnt receive any.. not having hopes for it liao... the school cant possibly like give out acceptance letter batch by batch right? or the postman delayed my letter? oh well.. singapore postal service isnt that inefficient.. given up... just waiting for them to give me the rejection letter.. but would be better if i receive news from the 2nd choice or even my 3rd or 4th choice.. so at least i know i have somewhere to go.. not i seriously have to plan where to go liao..
and yes i'm sad about not getting in to SADM.. not gotta deny it.. haiz~ will get over it soon i guess... meanwhile let me mull over it... afterall my dream of getting in got thrashed..
feel that my life like so sucky lor.. just like settle one heartbreak then came another one.. somehow i not mean to stay happy? there just have to be something for me to be sad about? haiz~ i'm tired... feeling empty and drained.. think this is hitting me hard or is the after effects of all that had happened? oh well.. lazy to think and get it right.. just tired.. feeling super lost.. will get back on my feet after my down period.. but right now i'm tired and drain.. so dont make me entertain you can? will only further drain my already- not- much- left energy...
so now i'm more oblivious to my surrondings? ha.. got horned today.. =P almost got horned yesterday... oh well.. able to type this entry so nothing much happened.. when you are not meant to leave this world, you wouldnt leave one lah.. and my granduncle time was up yesterday morning... think he went to join his sister which is my grandmother who passed away recently... think now that he will know his sister had gone before him ba.. didnt tell him when she left...
my mother went to library to borrow books.. then read 4 books liao.. all 4 had some characteristics that are similiar or same in my life.. such a conicidence.. bit scary.. ha.. soo qiao lor.. lol.. kinda excited to start on the 5th one.. wonder what kind of similiarity will occur... ha..

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guess i've already zhang da le.. =)
went on a buffet wif kor n yanli.. suppose to be kor's bday treat for me one.. in the end yanli treat.. so bu hao yi si... plus no cash to pay her back.. so went buy her belated gift.. hee... hope she likes it.. lol... so now kor, u still owes me sth.. haha..=P
still haven receive ANYTHING from anywhere.. haiz~ wanyang's friends received his acceptance letter.. me leh? nothing... haiz~ how i wish i dunno his fren got it.. haiz~ if i cant get in SADM at least send a rejection letter mah.. dun let me have false hopes... sad no doubt i'll be.. but it will definitely be much better then first building up my hopes then crush it cruelly later... then nus also never send me anything.. -_-" no letter for interview or what.. ntu at least got ask me go for test lor.. nus NOTHING.. haiz~ really scare i'll end up nowhere... haiz~
so stop asking me whether i receive anything can? haiz~ vexing.... =S

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woo.. the black rabbit gave birth to 5 babies!!!! haha... but the baby rabbits look kinda disgusting to me.. haha... sooo small n fragile.. gosh!!! furless too.. n i dun dare to touch them... lol...

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woo.. i'm older liao.. haha...
was actually quite sad yesterday.. cos yesterday birthday mah... but no one made plans to go out with me..=( initially wanted to celeberate after work with anna they all but conisdering next day got work cant play much so pushed it to sat... then on the eve on my birthday my mum asked me if i'm coming back for dinner not... told her dunno cos no one asked me out YET.. was hoping SOMEONE/S will asked me out lor.. then she say come home after work then we go celebrate as a family.. go out eat..
so yesterday left on the dot.. called home n asked them where to meet.. told me go home first.. tiow.. like huh? told going out eat? nvm.. so headed home.. reached home at 7.. watch show.. saw the pizza boxes on the dining table.. asked told going out eat.. mum say all lazy to go out so ordered pizza.. then i orh.. quite sad.. cos not going out.. but seriously if go out eat aso dunno go where.. then watch show..
halfway, my mum phone rang.. told me her fren is here want to pass sth to her.. she took a red wine den ask me pei her... told me her fren last min asked her book function rm.. den ask me along to see the rm.. was sensing sth fishy but went along... then went in the rm the gals started singing happy birthday song.. i was surprised.. tot meeting on sat? then on my way home, jas still asked me wanna meet her n vani for dinner not... ha... pleasant surprise frm them.. really fooled by them.. sat outing was jus a cover up.. lol... and they still collaborate with my parents lor.. lol... was real touched~ =D
then after eating.. they made me go on a treasure hunt... ha.. the hunt for my pressie.. lol.. hinted me here n dere n sometimes i didnt look carefully.. lol... had fun.. then we also had trouble opening the wine my mother brought.. haha.. funny scenes at opening the bottle.. lol...
was chatting then heard someone called me..
ha.. was kelly they all... was surprise they came.. tot they not coming le..cos initially when i went to the function rm tot it was them.. ( cos at tt time seriously tot meeting the 5 gals on sat mah) then had another round of cake.. haha..
ally they all left early then went back to chat wif kelly they all... ha.. frm the chatting learnt abt things i didnt know.. oh well.. those are over.. but at least i see the bigger picture liao.. still got a missing piece but guess i wldnt want to dig for it ba... unless it comes to me lor..
later the guard came to lock up the place so shifted back to my rm.. continue our chatting... then jing's father came, everyone went home...
had an enjoyable birthday.. =) BIG THANKS to the gals especially.. =D and all those who wished me.. thank you~ (",)
took sick leave today.. super fluy.. but going to see the guys match later.. but gonna stay far away frm the guys n schooling gals.. dun wanna pass my germs to them.. haha.. cos tink i'm the one who caused the office to be filled wif sick ppl.. lol... so stay away frm me if u dun wanna get sick.. lol..

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thoart feeling sore since yesterday.. but it got worse over the night.. cant blame it for getting owrse.. it didnt got worse by itself but kinda got worse by me.. =P last night had bbq at my hse.. family gathering.. paternal relatives gathering.. all the bbq food n fried foods made my thoart sorer.. ha... then my cousin anounnced her plans of getting married this nov.. her parents told us she jus one day came home n tell them she's engaged n getting married soon... ha.. big shock to the parents.. but wat can they do? then my ma warn me dun i ever learn frm her.. she will hav heart attack one... haha..
thoart really feels bad.. think i'm getting sick.. got wat i wan.. haha.. but did i just spend my bdae wish just liddat.. hope not.. definitely dont want to spend my bdae wish on getting sick.. ha...
learnt frm my bro the gals lost.. oh well... reminds me of last yr.. were in their shoes... exactly the same? we were just THAT close... oh well... still can remember tt day.. =X was my birthday lor.. totally sianed... oh well...

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went training today early.. haha.. reached at ten.. saw a little video.. saw how aj played.. seriously think our gals can one.. also not say aj play till veri shen... though they jump higher but believe our gals can handle them one... tt is if they dun scare n put all wat they have out.. in other words be super ping! hee..
anyway didnt stay long for the training cos have meet my family for buffet at novena... went Vienna to eat.. so left at 1130.. quite early.. so didnt really trained much today.. pity.. really hope to like train wif the gals together... hee... but too bad got lunch wif family...
den went to the buffet to eat wif a super empty stomach.. haha... why SUPER empty? cos i didnt hav breakfast tis morning plus didnt hav dinner last nite.. so my stomach is SUPER empty.. but i didnt eat much too lah.. think it's because the food dere not really up to standard today... but i ate super slow n keep walking to take food lah.. but take also only take small portions onli.. lol... den when i stand up abt to leave, the couple beside me keep staring at me... ha... wonder why.. lol... cos i eat super long? lol...
anyway today my mum brought lelly for grooming... haha... the person had a hard time cutting lelly's hair.. lol... nid 4.. FOUR people to hold on to him n cut his hair k.. lol... difficult boy.. lol... well.. cause he's afraid of the shaver.. when the lady uses scissors to cut he dun struggle tt much lor.. hee...
nite went to meet von n roy n frens.. went fish n co... didnt really hav appetite.. so didnt finish my fish n chips... stomach wasnt feeling well after the buffet... guess it must the hot n cold, cooked n raw food i ate wif my empty stomach ba.. haha.. now my thoart feels dry.. guess getting sore thoart soon... well... tink i'm really getting sick soon? haha...
tml relatives coming my hse for gathering.. haiz.. so sian.. tt means have to pack the hse~ sian.. i hate packing lor... not a veri neat gal... =P sian sian sian... hope tml nothing bad gonna happen... hope tml everything feng ping lang jing... *crossed fingers*

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well... not having high hopes to get into SADM le... my test was horrendous... *faints*
anyway i confirm not getting leave on my birthday liao... taken too much leave and now i'm behind my work.. =P so guess i'll be guai n work tt day.. and mayb leave slightly early lor.. haha... =P
heard abt the gal's lost.. hope they are able to get back on their feet n battle... they got to know the real battle isnt really agst AJ but it's agst themselves... hope the best for them...
tink i'm werid.. feel like getting sick.. hah... but i dun wanna get flu.. haha.. kinda like having fever.. ha... oh well.. i'm jus weird lah... =P

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well.. i'm super duper broke now... n i'll be jobless soon.. haiz.. n i'm tinking of going learn driving.. haiz.. can confirm i cant go overseas liao... no money.. = X
tml my entry test for sadm.. hope everything turns out well... = ) really hope i get into tt course... but now i haven go pack my stuffs.. haha..=P dunno wat to bring too.. lol... haiz~
wish me luck n pray for me tt i get in k? =)

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well.. haven been blogging.. been super busy this week.. lol.. and it's all just for saturday.. lol... why? cos i'm going for a formal dinner...
well... sat is also the day i'm going for my blind date.. ha... too desperate for a boyfriend... cos want to get married at my ideal age of 23 so went for a blind date... ha....
if u tink the above is true... well.. it isnt entirely the truth.. ha... first.. it was not a blind date.. but a semi blind date wif a guy.. haha... second... didnt go for the blind date cos i was despo but went becos i was a good samaritian.. haha.. and third.. we really went to some formal dinner... at swiss hotel ballroom k.. lol..i had to put on a gown and he had to wear formal...
haha...confused? well... not very rite.. just have some missing links here n dere onli rite? haha....
anyway... he is roy n minghui's buddy.. den minghui is von's bf, roy is emily's fren who intro me to the guess job... so the guy is somehow linked to me... then one day, emily called n asked if i wld be sooo kind to pei a guy to a dinner so tt he wun be dateless for the event... the timing n day was fine with me so i agreed... it's onli after i agree then realised it's a veri formal event.. kinda regret afterwards but i've agreed liao...
then conference wif him, roy n emily to get more details den realised it's an army event.. ya... commission ball.. then he'll be sponsoring all my clothes n stuffs for the dinner lah.. budget 200 bucks... haha.. and a thing to note... till then wen i toked to him on the phone i still haven seen him b4... jus onli noe he is my nas senior.. ha....
preparations for sat was nothing like my preparations for my prom nor grad nite lor... my sch prom n grad nite i didnt spend much effort also leh.. for tt sat nite.. i spent my thurs n fri searching for the gown n shoes n all the related stuffs... gotta think of the hair n make up how n stuffs... even went to emily's hse b4 i go work to borrow her gown to try see okay not... not my event so cant too shun bian... ha...
den sat came.. we met up for lunch wif roy n agnes too... haha... so finally get to know who i'm going out later tt night with le... den went to shop for a matching bag for the gown n glitter hair spray for my hair n body... cos diy for my make up n hair.. lol...
den the event.. well... it was an ocs commissioning ball... and he... didnt just commissioned but he is the instructor.. ya.. getting 2 stripes on his shoulder soon... kinda boring lah... was also uneasy.. 1st was with someone i dun really noe n he is super duper quiet... 2nd.. the place is filled with TOTAL strangers.. haha... well.. not exactly lah.. saw some i know.. but arent really on close terms wif them lah... den mingled with his captain who is a friendly guy.. his date who is an SQ air stewardess a bubbly n straightforward gal.. so kinda losen up the arkwardness alittle.. haha.. den sat wif his other instructors frens n dates.... onli tink tt interest me tt nite was the clips of the different plattoon lor... some were beautifully done some were just ok lah... but the effort behind was WOW.. haha... u'll onli appreaciate video after u have done one.. lol...
den after the dinner went kbox to meet roy n agnes... haha.. and yes both of us in tt outfit.. lol... sang till 2 den drama happened.. my pa apparently had been trying to reach me... ya... onli realise at 2.. he wasnt happy of cos den wanted to talked to the guy... den home straight.. but after seeing the guy he didnt put up a black face to meet him lah... den asked more abt his army background... den end of confrontation..
i didnt go kbox without letting my parents know lor.. told my ma tt i'll be home at 230 liao... pengs.. den my pa keeping calling me... disappointed n sad lor... he's like showing he dun trust his daughter lor... haiz~ i noe he's worried for me... but it's not like i didnt tell he wat time i'm coming home lor... haiz~ nvm... getting use to it liao.. haha..
toked abt it wif my ma n bro... haha.. liked wat my bro said... u quick go stay hostel lah.. lol...

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today went back work... super tired.. keep dozing off.. hee.. =P anyway todat the office atmosphere is tense... scary... think cos march jus ended and people are stressed with the closing... wooo.... scary... lol...
checked my ntu application status again today but it still shows that they haven receive my stuffs... super sianed lor.. then later check mail then realised they sent me a mail for the entry test!!! haha.. yeah!! my friend got it too... just the entry test is a hurdle next to cross.. = ) excited and scared by it.. hee... cos i'm one step closer to the course but on the other hand dunno what they gonna test... draw? paint? haven been touching them for like ages lor... somemore they ask us bring pencil n watercolours etc... haha... guess i got now till next wed to brush up my skills? haha...

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had fun wif the siao gals.. lol.. they nv failed to brighten my day.. haha... bbq was fun.. toomuch food tt we cld finish.. lol... chated den sent jas to the cab... the rest staying over at hse... haha.. vani was playing wif herself lor.. haha... wif my toy dog.. lol... keep making stupid noises.. haha... entertaining herself.. den we all 5 ppl squeeze on my bed.. haha... like sardine in a can lor.. lol..den onli one blanket too.. so in the middle of the night some wun hav blanket.. lol..
den morning vani left for meeting while the rest played majong.. haha.. really like chalet.. lol... haha... den afterwards was shopping at bugis.. ally n jas didnt joined.. so the 4 of us went... shopping spree? haha... onli von nv buy anything... fun.. 2 days of fun make me dread working.. haha... but no work= no pay.. cant cant.. output more than input = broke.. =(
i dun like ppl wanting to enter my life and suddenly want to be part of it all... so... pls dun forcefully enter my life can? it'll onli make me shut you out COMPLETELY... everybody got their rights to disclose wat they wanna say and place you where they wanna place you in their priority list... jus wanna said u had jus pissed me....
checked my ntu application status.. seems like them haven receive my SADM items... dun tell me my items are lost......... pls tell me they haven update the page!!!!!!

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jus read jass blog... felt bad... actually aso know during my jc years that the starters n non starters arent tt well bonded lah... somehow there is still a distinction between the two... although both get along well.. but it's still sign of difference.. something which i wanna change but couldnt.. guess i wasnt really active to change too ba.... but as a captain it WAS my responsiblity to do that but i failed.. guess i wasnt a gd captain... well... wasnt easy being a captain... guess espeacially with my personality.. ha... for a start i didnt really like to command people to do work.. plus it wasnt easy to get people to do things too... esp the non starters... like what jass said... keeping n seting of stuffs are usually left to the starters something which i seriously dun like... cldnt get the non starters to do.. mayb cos i wasnt firm enough ba... haiz... if anyone ever notice my gloomy period of time during my yr 2 time was cos of it lor... well.. guess no one ever notice or knew ba... ha... everyone tot it was stress... oh well....
anyway went training yesterday.. felt gd.. at least better than last wk one.. last wk i played soo shitily.. super depressed wen i had to sit at the side n play no more... sad at my lost skills... well... happy tt my ball sense coming back.. lol.. hope will be better next wk... lol... kinda sad didnt played much too.. but well guess their competition coming so the attention have to be on them da duiing more n not us senior ba... cant take away their chances of da dui, ultimately it's them going for competition not us.. ha.... onli chance to da dui more is to show fungus tt your skills is gd to train the small ones.. haha...
btw the movie swing girls is nice... funny lah... can go watch.. but tink jus go on wkday can lah.. not pt paying 8.50 for a show tt doesnt got much action pack.. haha... go enjoy the story for 6.5 can liao... hee... guess wanna watch movie gotta do now? haha... movie prices gonna increase again.. lol... mayb next time jus go buy the dvd, den come my hse lah.. haha... den i collect cheap cheap fees~ haha... lol...
*excited* hee.. meeting the 5 ladies later.. haha... it's gonna be a wonderful night.. haha... = )

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been ages since i blog le...
handed in my 3 items for SADM yesterday.. ha... in the mrning was rushing it liao siao.. den made jass wait for me for sooo long... sorry jass... was guilty... ally came to help me with the video editing..sian lor... somehow the software dun work well on my com... guess my RAM jus wasnt enuff... then want to add music to the video aso cannot.. so in the end it was a audioless video... cheated here n there too.. by right the clip isnt 3 mins which is the minium length... ha... but made it looked like it was 3min 10 secs.. haha.... after this, i'm appreciating those videos i see... gosh.. the hardwork behind it is damn ALOT lor...
anyway yesterday was a bussie day for me.. ha... keep taking bus... took 30 back frm nus wif jass... then saw this uncle trying to dou ji yan after watching the advert with the dou ji yan eyes... sooo happy... kept laughing... den took 24 home watched the tv mobile.. it was showing true courage, abt a 7 yr old boy kana bone cancer and had to amputed his arm... gosh the boy was soooo BRAVE... then tears jus well up my eyes while watching lor... sad sad...
went work today and told me head, i taking leave on mon n probably 14 if i'm shortlisted.. she said ok, but asked me not to take too much leave boss wun be happy.. =P well... so guess i wun be taking leave on my bdae le.. haha... happy slogging at work.. lol.. the other part time there leh, today last day... then think she got her fren in to like replace her..
now tt my sadm stuffs are complete.. thinking shld i go busy myself with the application for smu... haiz.. smu sooo mafan lor... think think think ba....

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