think somehow been neglecting my blog ba... haiz... think i'm neglecting too much other stuffs in my life too... and i hate this feeling... bleahz...

having pms recently... been veri uptight.. been veri pms... been veri gouchy.. haiz... and i hate this feeling... seriously... it feels not me.. but sometimes it's the things i see that pisses me off... the feeling of being taken for granted is mounting... argh... mayb is my need for attention that make me feel this way... mayb... or it's you... nevertheless, i detest this feeling and wanna break free... boo!

suddenly all the negetives feelings are sprouting in me... suddenly... feeling grey now.. and somehow it's affecting the way i see things...

how 'true' are u to me? is all these smiles and words pretentious to gain sth frm me? do i really mean anything to u?
why am i doing all these things? is there anyone who will appreciate all that i've done? or these are just wat i'm suppose to do?
words... how true can they be? and who is there to judge the truth in it? is there truth in the first place?
irony in ourselves... we want this but often we act as though it doesnt matter... wat's wrong wif us? trying to be macho or jus plain cowards to fight for wat we want?

guess i noe another reason why i'm in this foul mood recently... i'm tired... but hey, is that another excuse to cover things up? bleahz~

rambled @ 6:50 PM

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