finally the net is working and finally i remembered to blog.... guess i'm getting senile soon... boo... there seems to be sth wrong with my health.. ha... guess it's it way of protesting against me torturing it ba... oh well...

i'm was damn pissed off today... and almost lost my cool.. and i teared when i returned back to my room... was kinda glad for the msges tt came in during tt time tt help distracted me and helped cool me down..

sometimes it sets me thinking... why ppl keep asking me how's jcrc? jcrc is fun actually... the things i'm doing( tt why i choose to be in in the first place) the ppl i meet.. but frankly.. i hate the admin stuffs to be done... haha.. as usual for me ba... but i really enjoy painting banners... although it's alot... hee...it's fun leh.. hee... however my pt is why is almost everyone asking me how is jcrc and not how are my subcom? or is it because they fall in jcrc? so they are to be discuss as a whole? *ponders*

everyone has their own part to play.. but often we neglect our roles and quality check other ppl's roles... then often we being humans who always think so highly of ourself is picking up flaws of others... but do we ever realise that we not playing our own individual role well ourself is or might affect other ppl's role? and who are we to critise others when we are the one tt cause others to under perform their role? no doubt there will bound to be ppl that will underperform.. but when they underperform do we sit there and jeer at their poor performance or shld we be lending a helping hand to help tt particular person to perform their role well?? sometimes i jus dun understand why humans can be so self centered at times.. and i really hate myself for being self centered at times too... it's jus sooo me me me.. everyting is jus ME! gosh...

i jus feel like bursting out after today's incident... but jus dun hav the channel to burst out.. dun really know who shld i say it too... but i really really glad for your msg... but i doubt u will noe tt u had helped brighten my day with tt innocent msg of urs... jus wanna say i really appreciate tt msg of urs... if not i guess i wun hav broke down ba..

guess i shld go slp now... and after the slp, everything is gonna be fine.. (hopefully... lol... let's not think abt the tons of hw piling... lol...)

i miss blogging.. lol.. it really helps to relieve stress and hard feelings... hee...
and mayb one day it will help reveal my true feelings... haha... =X

rambled @ 2:55 AM

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