time flys... yesterday was the last day of the funeral.. the body is burned.. cried.. the body has turned to ashes... my parents and uncles and aunties went to collect her ashes today morning...
didnt go cause was my first day of my new job... it's accounting.. the job is super boring k~ OMG.. almost fell asleep doing the paper work... basically i need to make sure the figures on both the soft n hard copy tally.. and their countless of figures for me to tally and the fonts is like only font 10 on paper~ gosh~ and i got a stack of it to complete.. haiz~ seriously regretting quiting my promoter job.. haiz~ being a promoter is more fun than an accountant~ but dont think i will quit this job soon~ need the money~ making money in my bank account grow~ felt proud when i go draw money today.. just receive my jan's pay... dont how much.. didnt update my book.. but the figure was greater than the last time i draw money.. felt great.. ha...
friday is getting my results~ super worried... wonder how will i fare... been scaring myself also.. been picturing myself getting poor results then the background are my friends happily celebrating their good results... CHOY!! i DONT WANT IT TO HAPPEN!! i want to celebrate with my friends for getting GOOD results~ but still my mind is still scaring me... i'm freaking out... = x
there is alot of things i need to do but i havent started doing... i need to plan an activity for the recently graduates students of nas.. deadline coming thurs~ need to write an essay, take 5 photos and a 10 min video by 1st april... not done... seriously consider my plans for the future.. where i want myself to be.. what course to take.. haiz~ dead liao... time is running out~
told some of the people i know i want to get married young.. my ideal age of marriage was 21.. now is 23.. ha.. which is just4 years more.. well...my ideal age of marriage.. ideal = it will never happen to me.. haha.. why i want to marry early.. influence by my mum... she married early, have kids early.. and i feel that the generation gap between the kids and parents is smaller.. and my mum can be mistaken for my elder sister.. ha.. then recently found another gd reason to marry n have kids early.. so that when the kids is grown up... i'm still healthy and fit enough to look after my parents.. i wont be too tied up with my young and wailing babies/ toddlers to cant help take care of my parents... yup... but as said~ it'll just be an ideal situation for me~ ha... ideal cases is never attainable.. lol...
long entry.. could be longer but i'm tired... slp early yesterday.. totally exhausted from the lates nights n tonning... didnt slp on the last nite of the wake.. played majong to keep awake.. ha... keep throwing 'cards' to my parents then they win the max - 5 tai.. ha.. 12.80 leh.. ha.. still shagged from the lack of sleep.. and idiotly, my ulcers haven recover~ haiz~ from dunno when till now liao.. they seems to worsen in fact.. more are sprouting.. can feel it.. no no.. it's them.. ARGH!!! cant talk n eat comfortbly... sian~~~
slpy slpy slpy~

rambled @ 11:22 PM

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