well... my grandma pass away yesterday.. yah.. it was just sooo suddenly.. was in malaysia with my colleagues when my receive the call from my mother about her death.. i was TOTALLY shocked~ just saw her during chinese new year and she was still healthly and fit.. still remember the day i spent with her alone at her house, preparing dinner for second night of chinese new year..
rushed back to singapore and down to ttsh.. went to the mortuary to see her body... although i was there seeing the body but my mind still couldnt register that she is dead... somehow upon seeingher body i still like 'see' movements in her body at the corner of my eye... i just couldnt believe that she is gone... until today when they perform the rites to put her body into the coffin and seal it up... then it registered to me.. she is really gone~
isnt that close to my this ah ma lah... but afterall she is still my grandmother... someone close and related to me~ felt sad and emotional when i was going through the rites... but tears onli flow a little.. i'm not someone who tears easily.. ya... was super emotional when the sons and daughters ahd to feed her and say, ' u feed me when i was young and i feed u when u're old.' gosh... that scene made my teared.. made me think also... do we actually show our gradtitue to our parents for rasing us up? most of the time we take them for granted lor...
got to know actually one of my aunt is a twin~ her twin was given away and they couldnt locate her.. anyway they also give up to locate her lah... so my grandma actually have 12 children.. 4 sons and 8 daughters.. alot hor? but one given away and one dead.. so now got 6 daughters left... then got 16 grandchildren and 5 great-grandchildren.. huge family hor~ so the wake is gonna be busy lor... gonna hav quite a lot of people coming down to pay their respects and comfort my relatives and famly...
the wake will last till mon... then she will be buried.. it's her wish to be buried lor... ya.. wonder how the family will go on with the matriach gone~

rambled @ 12:47 AM

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