been really busy n suffocating with the immersing pressures from the various projects deadlines. seriously behind datelines and the pressure of wanting to do well adds them all.. sometimes, you just wanna run away from all of them... dun wan to think abt it, dun wan to care abt... at least now my fyp concept is much more refiner but now there still sooo much details to handle n the major prob of the prototype.. haiz.. will i make it in time? hope so.... and the dreading essays on hand to complete... haiz... totally detest my final yr days... esp my final sems, having to take up mods that i totally dun like... haiz.. if only i was given the modules i've chosen, guess i would be complaining n lamenting ba....

i'm starting to lose the self confidence... it seems to be draining away... insecurities sets in n uncertainity floods in me now.. what do i do now? i am no longer sure... there is sooo many traps ard me tt i'm too afraid to make a step forward for the fear of ingniting a disaster.. trapped in the corner.... too afraid to move... too afraid to make decisions anymore..

rambled @ 2:43 PM

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been ages since i blog le... ha... feeling emo so turning to blog.. lol..

been feeling veri sian wif hall environment.. not sure issit the final yr phase... haha.. feel damn left out n out cast... ha... mayb i 1st 3 yrs too onz le? haha... suddenly the drift then feel soo damn empty...

exams coming, semester 1 ending... n i'm feeling damn nua... not gd not gd... lotsa work to gan but no motivation... haiz...

in a damn nua stage.. argh argh!!!

rambled @ 11:10 PM

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been reading blogs recently again.. guess i now have too much time hence i'm back to blog reading... ha.. so here am i blogging after reading my frens blogs, i flet so inspired to write in my musty n rusty blog.. ha..

doubts anyone comes here anymore.. dun really care aso cos i blog for myself n not for others.. =P

been leading a drifting life i wld say... like a log floating in the big vast sea.. where will i go? what will i do? how will i end up like? these qstns have been lurking in my mind as i approach my final year status... suddenly veri wary of the situation that i'm in.. but yet at the same time i'm not doing anything to help my situation.. guess the lazyness in me will jus let me rot in the vast blue sea ba... let's jus see how thins will change for the better ba...

things isnt going veri smoothly at home too.. haiz.. it may seems like everything is as per normal but if u observe things more sensitively, u will sure find that things arent the same anymore... mayb things will get better when people stop being greedy and asks for too much, when the situation can be more clearer and allow us to see the exact situation of where we are... waiting is a painful process.. i can truly apprehend it now... haiz..

meanwhile, my relationship wif my dear dear has been a stable one.. really glad to have him in my life. though now he's at shanghai enjoying himself... ha.. but he's coming back.. so my days of waiting for him is ending and i'm excited to see him again... =)

changing my blog skin soon ba... it's time tt i change mine le.. ha.. but hav to see when i'm in the mood to do so.. ha.. hopefully i'll hav the motivation ba... =P

rambled @ 11:28 PM

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rambled @ 6:58 PM

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how long was my last blog entry? ha... i cant remember but i know my blog has grown lotsa cobwebs liao... had been busy with sch projects and recently exams... and of cos in between my bf... =p so haven had the time to blog... lazy to blog too.. cos i wld rather rest when i had the time... haven been slping well for the past mths... dark eye circles are surfacing and pimples are outbreaking as signs of protests....

some summarise updates of what happened to me during my mia period... ( in order of wat occured to my mind first, not in chronological order.)

• had my hair cut short till face length.. didnt permed it as wanted so strip it off... some says i look like xiao mei mei.. haha...
• projects deadlines were killing me and was sick towards the end... still suffering frm slight flu... recovering....
• had 2 celebrations frm my hall frens on my bday... really appreciate their efforts to take time off their studying time to sing bday song n eat cake wif me... THANKS ALOT! really grateful for not having to do a on-site presentation at serangoon after my exams on my birthday and a project deadline submission. and my bf who is willing to fork some of his studying time to have dinner wif me. not i guess i will be spending the day alone at home liao.... thanks ppl!
• profs had plans for us, product majors, to be overseas to gain experience. so saving up for the proposed india attachment at the end of the year and milan furniture fair next april. If i had to choose only one, i wld rather go to milan... but being the greedy me, i want to go both... will be saving up for these trips.. and crossing fingers i will be going there with sch help so tt it will be cheaper and less taxing on my side...
  
• still have one project deadline due this coming wed... not done wif it... =P resting this wkend before piaing it on mon... needed some long overdue break.... and finally exams are OVER! i jus hope i passed...
• want to work during the holi to earn money.. anyone will job lobangs pls tell me k?? thanks!
• will be taking inter semester module this may... taking architecture with my fren... ha... who knows mayb i will cross over? ha...
  
• missed my old frens and teachers... had a dream where all the ngee ann seniors and juniors came back to play and catch up... dreamt of mr wong too... haa... miss those days....
• planning to go back tj to play ball and see the juniors... miss vball and need to excercise b4 i become rounder and rust...
• my mum is overseas enjoying herself wif her mum in yunnan.. she left a day b4 her birthday and isnt back till coming wed...

dunno wat else to update liao... wanna know anything jus tag me ba...
hear frm me the next time my fingers are blog itching.. =P

rambled @ 11:01 PM

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