wu gui de xin sheng~

14 march

2009-03-14T14:43:00.002+08:00

been really busy n suffocating with the immersing pressures from the various projects deadlines. seriously behind datelines and the pressure of wanting to do well adds them all.. sometimes, you just wanna run away from all of them... dun wan to think abt it, dun wan to care abt... at least now my fyp concept is much more refiner but now there still sooo much details to handle n the major prob of the prototype.. haiz.. will i make it in time? hope so.... and the dreading essays on hand to complete... haiz... totally detest my final yr days... esp my final sems, having to take up mods that i totally dun like... haiz.. if only i was given the modules i've chosen, guess i would be complaining n lamenting ba....

i'm starting to lose the self confidence... it seems to be draining away... insecurities sets in n uncertainity floods in me now.. what do i do now? i am no longer sure... there is sooo many traps ard me tt i'm too afraid to make a step forward for the fear of ingniting a disaster.. trapped in the corner.... too afraid to move... too afraid to make decisions anymore..

14 october 2008

2008-10-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

been ages since i blog le... ha... feeling emo so turning to blog.. lol..

been feeling veri sian wif hall environment.. not sure issit the final yr phase... haha.. feel damn left out n out cast... ha... mayb i 1st 3 yrs too onz le? haha... suddenly the drift then feel soo damn empty...

exams coming, semester 1 ending... n i'm feeling damn nua... not gd not gd... lotsa work to gan but no motivation... haiz...

in a damn nua stage.. argh argh!!!

27 may 08

2008-05-26T23:28:00.002+08:00

been reading blogs recently again.. guess i now have too much time hence i'm back to blog reading... ha.. so here am i blogging after reading my frens blogs, i flet so inspired to write in my musty n rusty blog.. ha..

doubts anyone comes here anymore.. dun really care aso cos i blog for myself n not for others.. =P

been leading a drifting life i wld say... like a log floating in the big vast sea.. where will i go? what will i do? how will i end up like? these qstns have been lurking in my mind as i approach my final year status... suddenly veri wary of the situation that i'm in.. but yet at the same time i'm not doing anything to help my situation.. guess the lazyness in me will jus let me rot in the vast blue sea ba... let's jus see how thins will change for the better ba...

things isnt going veri smoothly at home too.. haiz.. it may seems like everything is as per normal but if u observe things more sensitively, u will sure find that things arent the same anymore... mayb things will get better when people stop being greedy and asks for too much, when the situation can be more clearer and allow us to see the exact situation of where we are... waiting is a painful process.. i can truly apprehend it now... haiz..

meanwhile, my relationship wif my dear dear has been a stable one.. really glad to have him in my life. though now he's at shanghai enjoying himself... ha.. but he's coming back.. so my days of waiting for him is ending and i'm excited to see him again... =)

changing my blog skin soon ba... it's time tt i change mine le.. ha.. but hav to see when i'm in the mood to do so.. ha.. hopefully i'll hav the motivation ba... =P

environment friendly bags

2007-10-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

Just wanna intro the environment-friendly bag since nowadays it's all about being green and environmental conscious.

This website http://www.envirosax.com sells the environment friendly bags at only $9.90 a bag and $35 for a pack of 5 bags and it comes in many designs too. It is made of lightweight polyester, portable and waterproof. These bags only weighs 40grams! Liddat you can bring it around for your grocery shopping without having to ask for plastics bags at the counter. Do check it out at the website.

22 april 2007

2007-04-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

how long was my last blog entry? ha... i cant remember but i know my blog has grown lotsa cobwebs liao... had been busy with sch projects and recently exams... and of cos in between my bf... =p so haven had the time to blog... lazy to blog too.. cos i wld rather rest when i had the time... haven been slping well for the past mths... dark eye circles are surfacing and pimples are outbreaking as signs of protests....

some summarise updates of what happened to me during my mia period... ( in order of wat occured to my mind first, not in chronological order.)

had my hair cut short till face length.. didnt permed it as wanted so strip it off... some says i look like xiao mei mei.. haha...
projects deadlines were killing me and was sick towards the end... still suffering frm slight flu... recovering....
had 2 celebrations frm my hall frens on my bday... really appreciate their efforts to take time off their studying time to sing bday song n eat cake wif me... THANKS ALOT! really grateful for not having to do a on-site presentation at serangoon after my exams on my birthday and a project deadline submission. and my bf who is willing to fork some of his studying time to have dinner wif me. not i guess i will be spending the day alone at home liao.... thanks ppl!
profs had plans for us, product majors, to be overseas to gain experience. so saving up for the proposed india attachment at the end of the year and milan furniture fair next april. If i had to choose only one, i wld rather go to milan... but being the greedy me, i want to go both... will be saving up for these trips.. and crossing fingers i will be going there with sch help so tt it will be cheaper and less taxing on my side...
still have one project deadline due this coming wed... not done wif it... =P resting this wkend before piaing it on mon... needed some long overdue break.... and finally exams are OVER! i jus hope i passed...
want to work during the holi to earn money.. anyone will job lobangs pls tell me k?? thanks!
will be taking inter semester module this may... taking architecture with my fren... ha... who knows mayb i will cross over? ha...
missed my old frens and teachers... had a dream where all the ngee ann seniors and juniors came back to play and catch up... dreamt of mr wong too... haa... miss those days....
planning to go back tj to play ball and see the juniors... miss vball and need to excercise b4 i become rounder and rust...
my mum is overseas enjoying herself wif her mum in yunnan.. she left a day b4 her birthday and isnt back till coming wed...

dunno wat else to update liao... wanna know anything jus tag me ba...
hear frm me the next time my fingers are blog itching.. =P

5 march 2007

2007-03-05T10:38:00.000+08:00

i miss him.. i hope he is alright frm the fall...

too many work to do.. haiz.... i really really need and want a break..... will my break arrive??

24 jan 2007

2007-01-24T17:42:00.000+08:00

whenever i blog nowadays, it's either there is a great emotion upstir in me that caused me to blog or i'm too bored... and i haven been blogging for more then 2 mths.. ha... wonder who still visits my blog... lol... lotsa cobwebs liao...

was super duper depressed yesterday over an incident tt happened... almost cldnt control my emotions well... was really really very sad at the response i got.. and it left me puzzled.. if you are complaining abt sth not right then does tt means u are concerned abt the things tt is not right or u jus feel like complaining and hence the complain? if you are concern abt the things tt is not right, wld u do anything abt it to remedy the situation? if yes, then tt's gd. if no, then how? the things to correct the situation does not lies on solely one party... however why is it it seems that no one understands it... we often learn that , ' it takes two hands to clap' . but did we ever really understand tt?

suddenly felt veri tired at tt moment yesterday... but i'm was touched by some people yesterday which really helps to brighten and rekindle the motivation in me..

20 nov 2006

2006-11-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

gone missing for another period of time... would say this gotta be my worst semesters in ntu so far.. it seems that the first sems of each academic year seems to be the toughest and the next sem gonna be better.. and i really hop it will be better for the next sem...

AAH paper is coming and it's on WEDNESDAY!! gosh... and i haven really studied for it cos i was rushing for my projects for martin n suresh... but last fri, i had a super unbearable headache that made me escaped from the reality and jus do nothing related to school.. and yup.. damn guilty now...

i'm really stressed from all the works... did i make a wise choice of having 5 studios modules and a compulsory aah module this sem? the projects deadlines are killing me.. ya.. it's killing me mentalilty not physically for i'm still here typing this... haven been able to eat well n rest well.. well mayb the resting part is just abt sleeping at the right time... been sleeping at werid hours and my biological clock is going haywired... and i really haven been eating well.. the amounts of stress and the oh-no-it's-canteen-food-again! thought really makes eating a torture now... and of cos, people said i've slimmed down.. really??? but a recent trip to the weighing scale says otherwise... i'm still at the same weight... so i wonder where the weights/fats have relocated themselves to giv ppl the perception that i've slimmed down...

supposed to be studying or doing work... but seriously, i'm veri fed up with work now... and i'm glad that after friday, 24 nov... i can really let my hair down without any guilt... everything will be over... at least for a while before starting all over again... trust me... i'm gonna disappear again .. this time, hopefully in a lighter mood....

think not much people frequent my blog due to my infrequent post anymore... but if u do happen to pass by and read this in time, do wish me luck for my wed paper, countless projects submitted k? thanks alot... wishing all who are having their papers good luck too! really jus hope to pass this sem.. as for grades.. haa.... dun dare hope much... wat can u expect when u know u having been putting in much efforts?? pardon me for the language, but to hell with the grades...argh!!! ( guess martin does influence me somehow... haha) grades will not mean a thing to me as long as i pass... i jus hav ta work hard next sem to pull up the grades this sem... haiz... and i will work hard... cos now i have much better experience, i'm not overloading myself wif another 5 studios... plan well and hopefully really made a wise choice this time... 3 studios with 3 lect modules... 3 days wk... ( hopefully i am able to get my craft of writing.. *crossing fingers) and i shall be a good girl next sem n pia for my grades...

i jus hope i survive for this sem...

23 0ctober 2006

2006-10-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

how wonderful... i spilled my dinner... argh!!!! turning to biscuits... doubt anything cn go wrong with it.........

23 october 2006

2006-10-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

sad sad sad sad.... deadlines are nearing and nothing much has been done... went for class today and wanted to develop some photos b4 lessons start... but to my horror i cldnt find my photo paper... sian sian sian sian.... jus bought it like 2 wks ago?? and it's new lor... almost new box of photo paper... it cost me $64 and thanks to my blurness it's now all gone... now hav ta go buy new one... haiz.... how blur and careless can i get?? it jus gonna add burden to my financial status now lor... haven been getting my allowances... been surviving on my savings and meagre tuition fees... haiz...

lessons ended late and stayed back to do work... now waiting for the instant noodle to be ready before i start my dinner... sian.. it's 10.34pm and now then hav a meal... onli had biscuits in the afternoon... too tired to eat... and to add to my misery day, my handphone is died... cldnt have it charge... haiz... how bad can my day be??

tired... tired... veri tired.... can i jus pon all my lessons??? really lost and directionless now... guess i'm been swaying offmy track a long long time ago and is now just forcing myself to realise it ba... guess previously i'm just wanna do nothing about my state of messyness.. and now i know i cant not do anything abt it le... haiz....

just being sian.... so here all the complains and blabbering.... boo!!!!

20 0ctober 2006

2006-10-20T15:15:00.000+08:00

i overslpt n was half n hour late for lesson.. my stuffs arent fully done... luckily he wasnt critical.. gotta put in more effort...

really really veri tired.... slp b4 my next lesson at 5pm...

20 october 2006

2006-10-20T05:39:00.000+08:00

haven slp... and now is 5.32am... rushing project.. to be hand in in just a few hours time... haiz...

now is 5.55am... still not done.. left some more ba.. getting slpy... lessons at 9am... able to make it? think gotta take some power nap... jus hope i dun overslp... *crossing fingers*

6.01am... cant take it le... napping...

14 october 2006

2006-10-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

haiz.. been lagging too much... guiltiness is engulfing me... what i did is soooo little... what have i been doing all these while really beats me... haiz... time is running up... time waits no man and it's true... time for a change.. but proscratinations sets in and vicious cycles repeats... bleh...

blabbering here... gist of the past... the details jus for you who read to imagine ba.. to lazy to type the details....

18 sep 2006

2006-09-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

haven been putting much efforts in my sch work recently... felt bad that my frens are covering my workload.. esp for those project-based ones... homeworks have been sloppishly done... haiz... think there goes my grades....

my balance is tilted to one side so things are not falling in place... gotta quickly find my balancing point if not things will go out of hand...

looking forward to the one week break... hopefully i can use this time to catch up wif my work and spent more time wif my family.. been spending veri veri little time wif them.. feeling guilty abt the little amount of time spent with them.. haiz..

will blog when i'm more free or when there is sth to say ba...

7 sep 2006

2006-09-07T04:36:00.000+08:00

jus had our agm.. hmm.. nothing much to say abt it... kinda sad that i didnt receive much support frm frens ba... and i really cant speak well... argh!!

after doing the personlilty test, i really do notice that i'm veri observant on ppl's non verbal language... ya... and people that i'm not really veri close with do actually confide in me... i not complaining.. but amazed that i do giv some ppl tt closeness lor... ya... but guess my ablilty to communicate non verbally puts me at a disadvantage when there is a need to communicate verbally.. i'll be at lost man... serious... that is why when i stammer n stutter when i'm super nervous... i'm lost at words... it'll hav to take quite some time for me to fomulate my words... ha... and cos i dun communicate well verbally... i tend to communicate thru non verbal means.... and it's kinda sad that not many can understand what i'm trying to say thru my non verbal means... ya...

after a yr as a hall leader, i think cos of the exposure you hav, you will tend to see more to life and hence see the different kinds of people ard... and it's kinda sad to say tt all humans are selfish and self centred... it's jus the degree of how selfish and self centred one is that sets one apart frm the other... i dun deny that i'm also a selfish n self centred person... but i wld say my extent of being a selfish n self centred perso isnt tt high.... i jus dun understand why sometimes ppl are soo narrow minded that the thoughts that they formulate is jus all abt themselves... no compromises, no discussion.. haiz... jus really making the world more unhappy... if onli everyone understand the meaning of give and take... think things will be much easier ba....

now that agm is over, my role has aso officially increased... although i'm still a hall leader.. but now i'm hav more resposibility on my shoulders... and i hope i wun be too saddened with the things that i'll be seeing that makes me lose my motivation... and i will put in my best to fulfil my role well...

so frens, if u see me feeling down... pls do encourage me on and giv me the support... thanks... will still need the TLC frm frens other than my dear and family... =P

personality test

2006-09-06T02:48:00.000+08:00

got this test frm jass's blog.. interesting.. http://www.perex.com/status.php

free can go and do.. =) anyway the analysis:

You are exceptional and unique. Your quest in life is to identify exactly who you are and why you’re here. What’s important to you is the journey of self discovery, determining who you are today is not the same as who you’ll be tomorrow.

haha.. well the quest to self identity cld say is more obvious after i enter adm ba... haha... pressed by profs leh... but as designers it's impt to know who you are... yeah~ still in the process of identifying myself though... hee...

You resist being categorized and are quick to question any social standard that you sense someone imposing on you. Stereotypical gender roles always interest you and, in your mind, connect to issues that most other people would never even consider related.

yeah.. true true... dun sterotype me for who i am not especially...

You can “connect” with any individual person and practically read their mind, but you have a natural tendency to match your actions to the expectations you read from their mind and yearn for company that lets you truly, naturally be yourself. You struggle between letting yourself naturally match the sentiment of the group (which feels like putting on a façade) or letting your individuality shine, which may allow people to see how different you are.

ha.. doubt i hav the ability to 'connect' wif everyone lah... mind reading.. hmmm... no comments.. my friends.. you all decide for me ba.. ha... i enjoy company that allows me to be myself leh.. everytime need to put on a false front not tired meh? well.. i cant lor... unless the situations needs me to do so lah...

You are particularly accepting of other people and have a special talent for seeing people’s true selves instinctively. It takes time for you to trust your gut instinct about people because even you don’t believe that someone could be so right about another person’s nature so quickly. This intuitive sense about what people are thinking (which is actually your hyper-attention to nonverbal cues) is your special talent. You may think it is available to everyone and that others just ignore it, but in truth others could never develop the skill to the level which comes naturally to you.

but i do agree i notice alot on others' body language especially.. it's always the small little things that tells alot abt a person... ya... ha.. but didnt know it's my special little gift.. hee...

To you everything happens on a personal level. Your friends come to you for advice because they know that you’ll love them for who they are and put yourself in their shoes to look at the world. Your advice, although varied in delivery, usually boils down to “be true to yourself” and “listen to your heart.” You are also an excellent confidant because things told to you never return to anyone through the grapevine. You exude this quality so strongly that even strangers will sometimes spontaneously begin confiding their deepest secrets in you.

ha... cos i believe that there is soo much an advisor can give.. the ultimate decision will still hav to depend on the person itself mah.. different people got different values and perspectives mah.. so the advice i give will only be frm my understanding n my beliefs.. the ultimate decision will still hav to be made by the person himself/herself that he/she thinks that is wat he/she really wants mah... follow the heart man.. cos sometimes the mind is jus being too logical and kiasi... hee...

Despite all of that, you are not much of a talker. In fact, words sometimes trip you up because you prefer nonverbal communication. Unfortunately, most of the world is not as attuned to nonverbal communication the way you are, so your opinion can get overshadowed if a more outspoken person is part of the decision.

ha.. i'm jus not gd at words... actions speak louder than words.. ha...

You focus more on nurturing other’s self esteem than any other type. As a result of this naturally caring nature your close friends often turn to you for moral support.

do i? hmm...

You are by far the most talented of all types at reading nonverbal cues. In your admirable attempts to convey a message diplomatically, those who aren't sensitive to inflection, tone, insinuations or body language sometimes simply do not get your message because they only receive the verbal half of what you said.

ha... when i hav difficulty converying my message i will know why now... =P

In the same way that you're the best at reading nonverbal cues, you're also the best at sending them. When you speak they miss the nonverbal half of your message, then they speak and transmit twice the message (verbal + nonverbal) which often gives away more than they intended but is sometimes carelessly inaccurate since they don’t send nonverbal cues as well as you do. When you're tempted to assign bias based on someone’s tone or other nonverbal cues it is wise to have them restate what they said and see if ignoring the careless, unintentional nonverbal half of their message lets the true meaning through.

hmmm.. so this is where misunderstandings start....

If you have children your focus is making sure that your child has a strong self-image and high self-esteem. More than other parents it is important for you to be friends with your children.

i agree! being friends wif my kids will first reduce the generation gap and be more close to them... then they will naturally be more open n confide in you mah... ha.. i believe lah... hee...

You are more philosophical than most and passionately think about ethics and justice more than other types. It is when ethical issues come up in conversation that you most strongly sense that you are fundamentally different from other people. You become visually emotionally focused when these issues arise, while others easily laugh them off and switch topics to something trivial. To you, it seems that everyone should be passionate about ending racism, sexism and other social ills.

ha.. i like philosophical stuffs lah.. but dun think i very into it ba... lol... i dun like tooo wordy texts leh... ha...

You go by the book and are suspicious of anyone suggesting that rules or laws should be ignored. You think constantly about improving laws, and see that at a major avenue for advancing social change because you see legislation and rule creation as the consensus opinion of the group working together. For you the focus is seeing everyone working together in harmony.

yeah~ harmony is the key to teamwork... that is where everyone can work together happily mah...

You are a healer and probably give great massages and know what foods will make people happy again. You prefer to surround yourself with direct, honest, authentic people who let you reinvent yourself every time you meet. You want nothing more than for there to be peace and harmony in the world, and your actions clearly reflect that vision.

haha... i giv great massages? really? ha.. if so... think onli a few ppl can get to hav tt privilege ba.. =p to the others, sorry... ha.. =P yeah.. chocolate makes one happy... go eat chocolate when you are down... helps to brighten the mood alittle... i dun like the unbearable tension.. peace n harmony.. a great place to be in lor.. why disrupt it?? bleh...

You are more strongly moved by poetry and artistic expression than any other type. You are interested in the finer points of different artistic mediums, having many complete and incomplete poems and stories in your head if not on paper.

haha... kinda true leh... lol... mayb tt is the reason why i'm in adm ba... hee...

6 sep 2006

2006-09-06T02:06:00.000+08:00

been ages since i blogged.. wanted to blog yesterday.. but it seems ages to load the page.. got bored or i shld say too slpy while waiting tt i decided to blog another day... it still ages to load the page today.. but because i wanted to slack n it's a free day tml.. so i waited.. and so here am i blogging...

pretty much had happened... had some ups n downs.. but the downs i wun not say are those damn upset kinda downs.. but those that are not that drastic and mayb jus some unpleasant stufs that happened ba... life in hall and sch is getting pretty much heavy already.. joined the hall committe again.. but this time as hon gen sec in short secretary.. ya.. and sch side, projects are rolling in and we are highly encouraged to join mini competitions to 'beautify' our portfolios.. ya.. but guess those outside competitions are gd to gain exposure too lah.. but guess i'll too busy to join ba.. unless it's really damn interesting to me ba...

my body is really breaking apart and i'm fearing for the worse.. haiz... will be seeing a doc soon ba... the doc i planning to see is on holi and wun be back till 15 sep.. haiz.. wonder if i shld see another doc first to rectify the problem first cos it seems to be really bad now... haiz... medical fees are really damn expensive... haiz.. and i'm not having much input... so gotta control my output.. so my wants are kinda put on hold now... ha... or mayb it's jus my greed that make my wants list damn long... haha...

kinda happy recently that my tuition kid improved tremedously for the subs i'm teaching.. hee... he was onli scoring an average of 70+ for his english and science when i taught him... but in his recent CA, he scored 97 for his english n 92 for his science.. haha... so happy that he improved sooo much.. the kind of satisfaction.. woohoo.. hee.. jus so proud and happy for him lor... hee.. but worry abt his SA lah.. he kinda see saw type of student.. haha... will go up and come down one... like his maths n chinese marks deproved.. yalor.. fear that his next exams wun do tt well.. then it will be disappointing le... then it will be possible that my income will be reduce cos the mum seems to hav plans to enroll his son in a group tuition that teaches him maths n science.. so i might lost my income on teaching him science and will hav to focus on his english onli... if tt day really comes tt it's either i look for another kid or i'll hav to eat bread n butter everyday le... mayb another alternative wld be to take part in competitions and win them.. muahaha...

k lah.. kinda lengthy post today.. haha... mayb cos too long nv blog so lotsa things to comment... =P hope all my friends out there are doing well.. anything feel free to call me.. got incoming free! hee... take care!!

9 aug 2006

2006-08-09T16:48:00.001+08:00

happy national day! feel like going to watch the frieworks leh.. but dunno who is free to go aso.. didnt ask ard too.. lazy.. so guess i'm gonna miss it ba.... wait for next yr then...

camp has ended and sch has started... foc was fun and kinda siong for me.. guess gotta attritude to my old age ba... or mayb cos the holi i hav been slacking tooo much and that extra calories is making me heavier to run ard... ha... my fitness level has detoriate tremedously... haiz... will need to do sth abt it... this yr foc isnt as siong as last yr.. but i was worn out too.. ha.. lao le lao le... =P but it was fun lah... hee...

sch started for 2 days... it's gonna be a heavy work year again.. will be learning some programming... hee.. i jus hope the prof adjust this time table again... think cos he's new ba.. didnt know tt the sem is onli 13 wks and in between got a week break.. yalor.. he planned till got 17 wks of lessons lor... ha... although i dun hav much exams... but still i need my exams break... =P

when for a seminar yesterday as part of our conceptual design mod... it was an interesting talk.. learnt lotsa things frm the talk and i'm admiring a particular speaker, Mr Y J Ban... the chairman and ceo of stikfas... he's cool and entertaining.. i admire how he controls his company... how he treats everyone as his family and how he values his staffs... inspriring talk frm him...

after the talk, it kinda made me think alot... it's really difficult to find a boss tt is aprreciative of his workers and values them sooo much... and beinga worker, if you know tt your boss is soo appreciative of you, naturally you will go all out to work for tt boss.. and sooo.. it will no longer be a boss and worker relationship but more of a fren fren kind of relationship... where everyone works as a team... brings me back to my nas vball days.. where everyone trains as a team going and aiming for tt same goal.. the champ.. same for the jc days too.. but the team goal wasnt tt strong as my sec sch days... really miss playing and training as a team... will try bring tt kind of spirit into the uni team... it reallly feels great being a united team...

during the talk, mr ban talks abt how he finds sth missing when he collects toys.. being a avid toy collector he had numerous toys collections but he always finds sth missing... which is the playability and poseability... and becos of tt he came out wif his own toy, stikfas... which allows the player to pose the toys anyway he/she wans....

this made me to think... nowadays people wans to be able to control the things they hav... and hence the surfacing of products that allows people to control how the particular products move and operate.. like you can now configure your own handphone display.. wat kind of wall paper you like to hav, the type of ringtone you wan.. mayb you like to assign different ringtone for different people etc.. but in the past, the things that the consumers are able to control are sooo much far lesser... and they are still happy wif that... somehow i attributes these shift in the wans in people to the change in the attitudes in people... the wan to stand out frm the crowd and the thrist for power ba... think our society nowadays have been trained to hav their own thinking... and hence, we do not like our stuffs to be pre-programmed for us.. we wan to program our own stuffs... yalor.. and hence the shifts in the needs in the consumers.. was thinking if this trend were to continue.. would we ever be tooo dominating that we were to be too stubborn and insensitive to the people ard us?

ha.. think wat i've typed kinda messy.. nv really organised my thoughts lah.. so doubt they are comprehensive.. bleh...

haven been blogging cos of the hectic schedule.... lotsa hav been happening.. hope those things tt are going smoothly will take a turn and be back on the smooth track... people who hav been going through bad times will be strong and hope things will turn out fine and well for you.... do take care evryone... till the next time i blog!

quiz

2006-08-09T16:44:00.001+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Acts of Service and Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Acts of Service:

28 july 2006

2006-07-28T15:47:00.000+08:00

been busy wif many little things... didnt hav the mood to blog too.. was tooo upset by things happening ard me and hence i'm here to blog...

anna's dad met an accident.. hope he'll recover soon..

came back to pack my room... but was sianned by the sight of decayed food and flies flying ard my table.. haiz... lost the mood to pack my room already...

dear had been super busy wif things.. people been asking favours and he has lotsa home stuffs to settle.. think he's really hav been too busy ever since he's back frm china.. wonder if he has rested well this holi... sch's starting and tt is another busy start too...

met jing recently... and thanks to her... i got those miniture of the absolut volka bottles... they are really cool... she let us tried the red ruby.. quite nice.. the grapefruit taste was there... really nice... too bad i was feeling unwell tt time to really appreciate it...

haven been feeling well... haiz... weird body... think my body is rejecting 100 plus... 2 incidents already.. having adverse effects after drinking it after my sports activities... hmm... think i better learn my lessons and stay away frm it ba..

sch is starting... wonder how this yr will be..

new sch term resolution:
- be neat and tidy
- be hardworking
- be creative
- improve my wah grade. ( now it's gonna be known as aah [asian art history])

13 july 2006

2006-07-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

met up wif jing, kelly n jass... li cldnt make it cos she wans to accompany her mum for dinner... a pity li was missing... had fun catching up and sharing stories with one another.. ate ALOT.. ha... veri veri full...

saw ting kuang nearby working.. so we went up to him and chatted for a while and it's home sweet home...

haven been really slacking these few days.. been bring kids for trails for 2 consective mornings.. kinda fun.. but headache too.. esp when the kids u get are horrendously rowdy... and lots of pi pa gao dun really helps after that ma... lucky for me.. i didnt hav to face rowdy kids for 2 consective days... hee... happy that my kids today are such a darlings.. hee.. though they might be naughty and run ard.. but guess they are jus kids lah.. u cant be tt harsh on them either.. as long as they listen to u when u talk.. tt is gd enuff.. hee.. one more trail tml and i'llbe busy wif camps.. and my long awaited room shifting.. ha..

if u ask me wat hav i gain this morning... i'll tell i hav gain 2 kg.. ha... the result of ultimate slacking n nuaing at home... ha.. but seriously arh.. the days i spent at home aso anot a lot too leh.. ha.. so actually i aso not veri sure wat i've been doing... haha... bleh.. jus not commitedly working for long periods of time... in total (including the job tml) i've only worked for 5 days.. haha... gotta be real thrifty when sch starts.. in fact thriftiness suppose to start long long ago.. haha.. =P

9 july 2006

2006-07-09T10:39:00.000+08:00

met up with the gals on fri.. went marche fro dinner.. catching up is great... and as usual meeting them brightens up the day.. lotsa photos were taken and lotsa laughters were made... now waiting for photos to be upload.. hee...

sch's starting.. gonna get all busy again... looking forward to sch.. nuaing too much.. but cant imagine all the projects tt are coming in... stress.. bleh...

drowning myself wif msn games.. ha.. gd way to keep oneself busy...

2 july 2006

2006-07-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

been abt half a month since i last blog here... nothing much done.. nothing much changed... pretty much still nuaing like crazy, living in my own bubble...

registered my subs... 4 day wk.. woo hooo... hope i get to relax as sch starts... and i hope sch starts before i start ballooning til the point of no return..

dear is away in china.. so 2 wks he wun be ard.. consolation as least there will be some form of inexpensive contact- emails.. first time i'm happy there's sth called Email.. ha.. cos previously when an email comes means a job comes.. ha...

nothing much to blog aso... i hope to meet all my cliques b4 sch starts and b4 i start getting too busy again.. meet up time!

21 june 2006

2006-06-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

been mia again.. bleh..

met up wif emily on mon... been almost a yr plus since i last saw her... went out shopping.. suppose to be shopping for office wear since she will be on internship soon.. but she called the company and ask how's the dress code is like and it's not tt demanding for interns so we ended up sitting at a shop... ordered some snacks and chatted, updating each other wat has been going on wif our lives... then we went to shop for comestics as emily needs them for her internship.. ya.. spent another long time time there.. hee..

after spending a day wif her, i realised i've really been living in mine own bubble world... ha... =P

12 june 2006

2006-06-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

hmm... sth is missing in my house now.. my rabbit is gone... haiz... feeling abit of lost... my mum gave him away this morning... together wif my uncle's two rabbits... yalor... although i arent veri veri close to my Rabbit, still now seeing tt that particular spot where he always lie is empty... is alittle bit of werid and lost... but guess my misses for him will be jus for these few days ba... jus not as close to rabbit as compared to lelly.. if lelly is gone, i'm sure i'll be damn sad...

11 june 2006

2006-06-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

been mia this holi... really damn nua.. dun ask me wat hav i been doing.. cos seriously i aso dunno.. =P eat slp eat slp ba... and if u find me ballooned.. dun worry.. ya eyes are perfectly alright.. cos i really ballooned le.. think the coming IH period will be a good time for me to get back my original shape.. haha.. i hope so.. =P

i went to my mum's cousin's wedding dinner today... saw su heng there.. ya.. su heng is my uncle.. cos he's my mum's cousin.. so he's bigger me one generaton although he is younger than me by 8 days.. haha... then saw terrnce chiew there.. my jc physics teacher who transferred out halfway... kinda veri qiao... then saw one of the mps too.. cant remember his name.. but apparently he is the female side relatives... think he is the bride's father brother ba.. ya... kinda saw alot of familiar faces and familiar faces that i wouldnt thought will be seeing one...

their dinner is different frm the 'normal' kind of wedding dinner.. their dinner is held at a sichuan restaurant at UOB Plazza.. then they had their little walk in at the 38th storey.. where the cocktail session was held there earlier too.. after their walk in, the cake cutting ceremony, the video clip of the bride and bridegroom's life story then the yum seng ceremony.. after tt the guest is led to the 60th storey for dinner...

it was kinda a 'peaceful' dinner... no mcs to 'interrupt' the dinner... the onli 'interruption' was jus the photo taking session wif the bride and bridegroom and some of their family members... yalor.. even how the guests are seated is different... mayb cos the layout of the restaurant id kinda like a U-shaped.. so u dun really get to see all the guests.. then they had a VIP section where the elders and more closer family members sat and dine.. quite a different kind of dinner... well think it's the revolution of wedding dinners ba.. ha.. youngsters nowadays are trying to personalise their own style of wedding? or mayb it's jus trying to do wat they think is the best and hav their own style.. hee... i wonder in the future how will the chinese wedding dinner be... or it will be more and more funky and personalised as the older and more tradition generation are phased out..

29 may 2006

2006-05-29T23:40:00.000+08:00

been really nua.. haha... haven been working.. so basically been slacking at home.. kinda mia too.. =P

my 3 cousins staying over for a few days.. wah.. woke up this morning because of the din made by them.. 4 kids in the hse.. can imagine how nosy tt will be?? ha.. puzzled by the little maths there?? haha.. didnt made a mistake.. 3 cousins staying over.. but got one that comes everyday and goes home very evening.. so in the day got 4 cousins in the hse... and i forgot to mention.. 4 little cousins.. haha.. the biggest jus primary six and the smallest is jus two years old...

the pri 6 kid is having some kind of attitude prob towards his work.. he jus doesnt want to do his work properly and jus wanna play... haiz.. really making us worried for his PSLE this year... he failed his mid year lor.. 199/400 leh.. aiyo.. then saw his assignments.. his cloze passage with those prepositions as helping words still can get 2 or 3 out of 10... then his maths.. those problem sums jus write ans on the line.. never show working one.. all mental calculations.. but the qstns already stated muz show workings... haiz... basically jus doing slip slop work lor...

haiz.. really dunno wat to do...

21 may 2006

2006-05-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm the chalet... or i shld say boyfriends' orientation? ha.. had fun wif the gals.. nothing unusual abt it.. hee.. times spent with them are always fun loving and crazy.. hee.. had fun barbequeing.. hee.. although the fire took ages to start and they jus dont seems to last.. think the guys had some kind of interaction with each other aso.. hee.. esp during the name games we played till 4 plus? haha.. guess now they shld know each other names quite well liao.. lol.. nuaed the whole day today cos was too tired frm the lack of slp the previous night.. ha... then played more card games.. lol...

veri veri tired now.. tml still got tuition n meeting... hope tonight's rest will be ample to recharge my energy for tml's long day... =)

14 may 2006

2006-05-15T16:27:00.000+08:00

haiz... jus dun really know to express my feelings now.. well.. jus didnt handle the whole situation well... and know it's jus getting all back at me.... bleh.. no one else to blame but me.. reaping what i sow... the consequences of mishandling is all this unhappiness... haiz... really doubting my abilities to hangle things... somehow or rather things will cork up one... haiz...

13 may 2006

2006-05-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

had a simple dinner at my cousin's hse to celebrate mother's day and her mum's birthday.. it's more of a birhday celebration organised by her kids to giv her a surprise birthday celebration... ya.. then left the place late cos the cake cutting was late.. so my brother was kinda on the verge on being late for his book in... so we quickly left the place and my father sped the way thru.. the highest he went was 130km/hr lor... ha.. then managed to reached there before his book in time.. but he still had to walk in the long stretch of road.. so dunno in the end he late anot aso... hope not.. so he wun get extras...

been super nua.. coming wk hav lotsa things going on.. ya.. and i haven go find a job yet~ haiz.. too nua... =P looking forward to the gatherings.. hee...

hmm.. wld say tt the clouds have cleared.. sun is taking it's time to appear though.. but at least the clouds are cleared and i'm not feeling tt lost anymore... jus hoping that things will turn out in the most idealistic way... *keeping fingers crossed*

11 may 2006

2006-05-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

met up wif some of the vball girls... it's nice to meet up to catch up and chit chat... enjoyable the chit chat session.. hee.. then got to know that some of them are attached.. happy for them.. hee.. didnt joined them for kbox cos had to be home early.. so left when they made their way to kbox...

think it's the syptoms of old age.. lol.. jus feel veri happy to meet up old frens and catch up with them and reminisce the old times... ha.. getting old le... ha..

btw i saw the little boy and his mother on my way back home.. ha.. wat's so interesting or exciting? cos on my way to meet the vball ppl, i gave up my seat to this little boy so he cld sit beside his mum... then on my way back home.. i saw them again on the train... sooo qiao lor.. haha.. then veri qiao to met desmond in cineleisure too... haha.. mayb i shld go buy 4d this wkends... lol... =P

still feeling bit lost... although given some sense of direction... guess it's the feeling of fear of being lost again and uncertainty ba... and looking at the weather, will see that the rain has clear.. but the sun is nowhere to be seen yet...

11 may 2006

2006-05-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

been slacking at home like nobody business... basically have lost the motivation to do things... but there hav been numerous gatherings happening which successful got me out of the house... but other than that... i'm nuaing at home like crazy... there are things i know i shld be doing but i arent doing... running away from responsibilities now... i jus wanna stay free frm my responsibilities now... throwing some sort of tantrums at my responsiblity..

i'm lost... lost at words and directions.. dun really know what to do now... really hope things will get better.. really do.. but it doesnt seems soon... but i'm hopeful... cos there is always sunshine afer the rain... jus hoping the rain doesnt stay for long...

5 may 2006

2006-05-05T12:04:00.000+08:00

been ages since i blog here le... well.. been slacking much instead of studying for my final paper... so the result for slacking too much is a not veri well done paper... jus hope i get at least a B-... acty the paper quite easy... if i had studied hard, think cld easily get an A ba... but oh well.. given my lazyness and nuaness i had during the 'break' for my revision.. my expectation at at least a B- shld made me feel contented le... unless my carelessness surfaces and rob me of my hopes of at least a B-... *crossing fingers to hope it wun happen*

hurray for the end of my exams... =) not more fretting abt not studying for my paper and being guilty for slacking.. haha... but now gotta fan abt getting jobs... bleh... so lazy to look for a job... but if nv look for a job.. then no money... yalor.. haiz...

going to watch the gals play later.. hope they can win ny... if i not wrong they lost to hc.. so this is their crucial match... if i'm not wrong if they are able to win ny 2-0 then think they might be able to get in to semis.. *crossing fingers* wish them best of luck..

looking forward to the 'boyfriend orientation' von proposed.. ha.. interesting idea and it sounds fun.. lol.. hope everyone can make it.. =)

23 april 2006

2006-04-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

my bro now facing dilemma.. he's thinking of backing up his contract n not sign on le.. ya.. so now he dunno wat to do.. haiz.. sometimes i feel that we are fhee.forced to make decisions that will affect our life at a veri young age... at 19 wat do u really know abt the life outside? if u dun really know abt the life outside, then how are u able to make decision that will severely affect ya future? yalor.. felt quite sorry for my bro.. he has to make a decision and stick to it for the next 6 yrs.. and 6 yrs isnt really a short period of time.. yalor.. but guess he most prob not going to sign on liao.. so he's kinda a 'free man' le? =P

my dad drove my bro back to book in.. and all of us tag along for the car ride.. then after tt we went to hav turtle soup.. hee.. but onli me n my dad had it.. cos my mum n granny are full... yalor.. then when we wanna leave the place cant leave cos the car decided not to start.. bleh.. had to borrow power frm another car to start.. finally got started and got home.. jus dunnno whether the car will fail to start tml anot.. hope not..

23 april 2006

2006-04-23T15:34:00.000+08:00

i'm back.. haha.. but not today lah.. was back on 21 april.. but too lazy and busy to post the trips updates.. firstly wanna thank all who msged me and wished me well for my birthday! thanks alot.. =)

the trip was not too bad.. hee.. but the sea were rough so the ship was shaky.. and i didnt feel veri stable there... ha.. made me kinda giddy too.. =P then went to experience casino for the first time.. cool experience.. but really not my cup of tea.. hee.. mayb cos i dun really know how to play ba.. so can onli go for the idiot proof game- jackpot.. haha.. jus press button onli.. lol.. btw the legal age on cruise is 18.. lol.. so i can guang ming zheng da de walk in and out of the casino.. haha.. and i was veri happy tt i kana checked by the ppl there.. haha.. =P shows tt i look young.. haha.. but i was checked on the last day of the cruise.. lol.. ok shall post more details abt the day on cruise..

19 april 2006

talked to him before i left the house for the cruise.. then he reminded me to bring a jacket.. but i left all my jackets in hall.. ya.. so going jacketless.. then when i reached the harbour front, when to shopped ard for some jackets.. but not nice leh.. so fated to go jacketless liao.. ya.. then when was waiting for my mum to do the admin stuffs.. then he appearred... with a jacket too.. hee.. was really touched n surprise he came cos it was exams period and unlike me.. he got lotsa of papers.. yalor.. then he lent me his onli jacket too.. exams hall are freezing cold one.. so was really really veri touched.. oh then he aso met my mum n granny n my dad.. hee..

then we boarded the cruise.. it's big.. nono.. big isnt apt.. enormous.. lol.. we boarded star virgo.. ya.. and it's like got 13 levels.. and there is front deck, mid deck n back deck.. it's my first time on a overnight cruise.. been on cruise before but it was jus a day's cruise to nowhere..

the dinner was not bad.. then daddy ordered a bottle of white wine.. then i had a glass of it... initially found it not bad.. but after a while it didnt taste that nice afterall.. then had another mini round of buffet at another restaurant.. =P took bread and a small portion of salad for some bites.. hee.. =P

after that we went to catch the 'Masters of Kung Fu' performance. It's a mixture of Shaolin KungFu with Chinese, European and North American arcobats.. think i more amazed by the acts by the Chinese arcobats.. they are really zai man.. hee... didnt really like it as much as my parents n granny though.. =P played bingo at a bar but sadly we didnt win.. then proceeded to the casino to try our luck again.. hee..

it was my first time entering the casino.. culture shock.. haha.. see those footages of casinos before from the tv.. but seeing from ya veri own eyes.. standing in the casino is a totally different feeling.. ha.. and the legal age is 18.. and i'm way past tt age liao.. (hai.. old liao leh.. ) so dun hav to worry abt sneaking in too.. hee.. =P

was amazed with everything i saw.. and the way they played blackjack seems different frm the way we or shld i say i played during CNY at my aunts hse.. and the rest of the games needless to say, all looked alien to me... haha.. yalor.. then the onli game i played was jackpot.. lol.. spent most of my time playing it... played till my eyes were sore lor.. lol... dount really understand why ppl can play jackpot for sooo long.. dun their eyes get tired? mayb cos my luck isnt veri gd ba.. didnt keep winning so i got bored.. hee.. my granny and mum seems engrossed wif it though.. ha.. while my father found his entertainment in playing the rouettle.. dunno how to spell.. it's the game whereby u try to guess the number one.. the the person will spin the 'thing' see where the ball lands..

i was acty quite seh when i was at the bar playing bingo le.. guess it was the glass of wine.. tot my jiu liang is tt bad man.. but i was able to walk straight jus my head felt heavy n i was super tired.. but it was later on tt i found out it was other reasons tt made me liddat.. mayb the glass of wine did partially caused it ba.. but the main contributing factor was the rough sea..

20 april 2006

today is my 20th birthday! Happy Birthday to me! hee..

woke up with a cold.. tot i had a hangover.. but it's jus the rough seas.. really make me feeling giddy.. bleh.. made me felt uncomfortable the whole day on board..

went to the jacuzzi pool after i woke up wif my mum.. the jacuzzi was really veri shuang.. hee.. if onli my hse one was jus as gd.. wah.. heaven man.. lol.. then went back the cabin to bathe.. to my surprise, there was a cake left on the table for me.. ha.. service veri gd man.. lol.. and we onli ate mouthfuls of the cake after our trip frm redang.. hee..

went to redang in the afternoon.. the beach is really veri veri beautiful.. guess gonna psycho the vballers to come here for a short get together trip.. cld play beach vball, swim/soak in the clear sea.. and see fishes under water.. or jus plain suntanning.. then for those willing to spent one can go fishing or snorkelling out in the deeper seas... yalor.. hee...

didnt want to get wet intially.. but after my mum's persuasion, i got changed and went down.. really glad i went down man.. ha.. there were many different kinds of fishes and they are sooo sooo beautiful... and the water is soo clear too.. hee... and the waves were veri shiok! hee.. the onli sad thing is that the sea bed some parts veri painful because of the broken coral reefs.. the view is really gd.. make me wanna go there again to try snorkelling.. hee... but think redang onli can go for a short period onli.. 3d2n is jus nice.. any longer will be quite bored cos nothing much liao.. yalor.. hee...

caught another performance after dinner.. this time it's the same Chinese, European and North Americans arcobats performing.. jus minus the kungfu parts.. but they performed a different sets of stunts.. ya... and the chinese arcobats are really veri veri ZAI!! the rest were jus mainly dancing so nothing much lor..

then at 12midnight catch another performance.. a topless dance.. ya.. the tic is 20 per person.. quite cheap according to my mum.. hee... she says if outside wanna see this kind of dance veri ex one.. so she bought the tics so we cld like see how issit like.. hee.. kinda curious how they are going to dance too.. hee...

but the show wasnt really good lah.. the cast are the SAME European n North American dancers.. gosh! being a performer on the cruise no easy leh.. gotta be all rounders man.. gotta bare it all.. ha.. but they didnt reallt literally bare it all.. at least they still had their undies on.. =P

there were many diff dance segments and not all are really topless.. some were purely dance wif some tops on.. ya.. but when they are dncing topless they wore this kinda special bra.. sth like those underwired bra jus without the padding.. guess it's to make their breast stay in place n look firm ba.. then got this segment is where the husband tries to make his tired wife who jus came back frm work into wanting to hav sex wif him.. like veri porno liao.. then u get to see the exotic dance moves lor...

when watching it make me tot of WAH... ha.. learnt the term Voyeurism.. haha... reminded me of 'Sarah', Saartje Baartman.. and how i'm now part of voyeurism and how the performers are being the subject of sexuality.. and the term 'Otherness' flashed across my mind too..

21 april 2006

had breakfast at this particular restuarant.. they had chinese and english breakfast.. we ordered the chinese one cos of our granny.. ya.. but the food was really veri veri nice.. the porridge was gd though.. so after that we went to the buffet for another round.. as usual.. i'm into my bread n butter again.. ha.. the scrambled eggs tt morning was not bad too... then my parents decided to go back to the restaurant to try the english breakfast.. ha.. didnt joined them cos i ate quite alot already at my 2nd round.. ya.. so wet back to pack my stuffs after the breakfast...

nothing much to do aso so went to slp while my family played at the casino.. ha..

then home sweet home..

19 april 2006

2006-04-19T13:22:00.000+08:00

will be leaving for my short trip soon... hee.. wun be back till 21 april.. so for those who frequent my blog and u wanna wish me a happy birthday on the 20th april... let me help u save one sms.. hee... jus tag ya well wishes here.. hee... cos i wun be bringing my hp to cruise.. ya.. so watever msges u sent me wun be seen or replied till i'm back.. but guess i will be lazy to reply a 'thank you' msg to those who sent me msges when i'm back too.. =P

turning 20 soon... bleh.. sounds old.. and scary too.. as u grow older u hav more responsibilties.. no longer can be like a child and everything heck care cos u know u can reply on ya parents to help u solve all the problems... hee.. yalor.. and being 20 means veri soon i'll reach my legal age.. jus a yr more i'm getting the key... ha.. think i'm blabbering nonsense already.. haha..

more updates abt my cruise when i'm back ba.. unless lazyness sets in again.. =P take care peeps.. will miss u all.. and pls study hard for those still having exams.. gambattte!!

18 april 2006

2006-04-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

my hall cliques gav me a surprise bday celebration yesterday.. i was surprised.. didnt know they celebrating my birthday.. hee... thanks peeps.. hee.. but doubt most of them will be readng this too.. =P but i really appreciate it tt they took precious time off their revision to celebrate my birthday.. yalor... gan dong.. had a sumptous meal too.. lol.. super full after the meal... hee...

then receive my pressie frm them too.. yeah! it's a product design book that i've been wanting to own.. hee.. didnt she de to buy the other time cos it's really veri ex.. yalor.. so thanks peeps!! =D

received his pressies too.. hee.. really touched he made me a card.. hee... although it's a simple card.. but still it is handmade by him.. hee.. =)

got home late and got reprimanded by my mum.. =P and it continued when i woke up at 2 plus this afternoon.. =P

veri long nv slp till so late le... veri shuang.. hee...

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2006-04-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

ha.. can see i super free rite? haha.. ya i'm... lol..

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15 april 2006

2006-04-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

baked cookies today.. haha.. quite fun.. haha.. didnt bake them all by myself lah.. had the help of my mum.. hee.. then packed some for him...

went to watch his match at geylang sports complex.. he playing for ang mo kio n they playing against nus today... quite an interesting match i wld say.. oh.. and his parents were there.. ya.. i finally met his dad.. but think i left a bad impression ba.. cos i was late.. =( ya.. underestimated the time i need to reach aljunied...
so i was late...

then we had dinner at geylang the beef kway tiao there then he sent me home first... ya.. so this practically sum up my day today...

going cruise on 19.. ha.. i'm seriously not behaving like i'm having exams.. bleh....

14 april 2006

2006-04-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

woke up late today.. suppose to be at tj for vball training at 10 one.. but in the end onli reached there at 1130.. and tt is because jass called me.. not think i will hav missed it totally... =P

been ages since i last touch vball.. and kinda ost touch liao... and my reaction time getting slow.. basically i lao le.. not as agile anymore... think i need to train man.. and the last time i touch vball was in the last ih competition i tink.. gosh and tt is mths ago... a long long time ago man... getting rusty is not a gd sign.. bleh....

then after training, went to kelly's hse to eat.. ordered pizzas n drumlets... hee... pizza hut hav gd drumlets... hee.. then wasnt full so had her maid to cook a bowl of maggi for me.. then i was super full.. guess i no need eat dinner aso.. veri veri full.. getting fat le.. later ppl complain i fat.. =P

12 april 2006

2006-04-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

had my first paper today... WAH~ ha.. prepared my essays the night before.. then didnt really have time to memorise my essays... so ya... wasnt able to write the essays i prepared.. so had to impromptu.. ha.. so i'm not gonna expect much frm this module.. at least a C, i'll be happy le... hee..

then i kinda pretty much no more exams le? =P next paper on 5th may... quite some time still so gonna enjoy myself first.. especially during my birthday... to be mugging on ya birthday is a damn sad thing for me lor.. yalor.. hee.. so i'll be on cruise on my birthday.. hee... which is gd also lah.. doubt any of my frens able to celebrate wif me also... exams period leh.. hee..

gonna rush out my lamp tonight cos it's due tml afternoon... =P i'm a last min gal.. hee.. =P

i seriously no exams mood.. =PP

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2006-04-11T11:47:00.000+08:00

ha.. i'm being distracted again... bleh....

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11 april 2006

2006-04-11T11:02:00.000+08:00

feeling veri veri sian.. can i dun study?? haiz.. dun hav the exams mood.. dun hav the mood to prepare for my essays... ya i noe i shldnt be complaining... i get know my exams qstns beforehand.. so all i jus need is to prepare the qstns... but i seriously no mood to do them.. art history.. argh~~ *headache* dun understand the movements and techniques then how to formulate my essays? plus my writing skills is so sucky lah.. bleh...

tml is the day of my WAH~ (western art history) gosh... it's tml!!!! and i hav less then 24 hrs left to prepare my essays... technical speaking i am left with 12 hrs 55 mins to prepare my essay.. then the time is ticking away as i type this entry, trying to escape frm reality, escape frm the preparation i need to do.. bleh...

save me frm my essays..... argh~~~

9 april 2006

2006-04-09T18:14:00.000+08:00

had tuition in the morning.. then later back home i nua... ha.. didnt do anything n my exams is on wed.. guilty guilty... really tired n i slpt... gosh.. been ages since i sooo nua at home le... cant remmber when was my last time soo nua lor... =P

went to watch ice age 2 yesterday.. it's nice.. =)

tue the c gals playing their finals at toa payoh.. hope they win.. hee.. =) sad tt the b gals got third... but it's kinda unfair to comment liddat cos i didnt see their standard.. yalor... but at least both are in top 4 lah.. so not tt bad ba.. hee...

7 april 2006

2006-04-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

yeah! finally the last wk of sem.. now all i left to tackle is exams and my lamp.. hee.. yeah!! hee.. 4d projects were ok.. not too bad and arent tt really bad ba.. lol.. and i glad that they like the story i wrote.. hee.. =) hope i can at least get a B frm scotts...

watched ice age 1.. it's funny... hee.. lol.. looking forward to catch ice age 2.. lol.. hope it will be good.. hee...

finally saw my brother today.. gosh! he is damn thin now lah.. and he seems to hav grown taller again.. gosh... or issit cos he has become thinner and thus looked taller? hee.. dunno lah.. but he definitely seems taller and is definitely thinner.. hee...

anyway, now my parents n brother know abt me being attached liao.. ya... they didnt hav much reaction though... ha... maybe they silently reaction big big, but in front of me like nothing big happen liddat?? hee... =P

6 april 2006

2006-04-06T12:34:00.000+08:00

went to meet his mum yesterday... the initially plot didnt really go according to wat he plan though.. ha.. not a veri gd actress here... then went to study for some time before meeting his mum again for dinner.... sent his mum home then shun bian visited his house too... in short, the meeting was fine.. his mum is friendly... but during the meeting i was veri quiet.. =P dunno wat to say as usual.. so was like listening to their conversations throughout the night.. hee... didnt get to hav dinner wif his dad cos his dad was on night shift.. hmm.. i'm more worried abt meeting his dad... fear for those awkward silence lah.. cos i really dunno how to initiate conversations one...

looking forward to tml after 2pm.. ha.. cos by then it will mean MORE FREE TIME.. muhaha... then a gd break too... will still hav one last project which is my lamp for the 3d module.. but tt still ok lah.. cos i will be enjoy doing it mah.. hee.. then wat's left to worry will be my papers le which i haven start revising.. bleh...

really scare for the presentation tml... haiz.. last wk my fellow classmates had set too high a standard le... STRESS man.. haiz... sad sad.... guess my grades for this mod will be bad ba...

happy that i got B+ for my foundation drawing.. hee... was expecting a B- one.. hee.. then wonder how my 2d will fare... bleh... doesnt feel confident cos the final tt i submitted arent really veri impressive.. yalor... haiz... i jus hope this sem i wun get any Cs... then i'll be a happy gal.. hee.. BUT not all B- tooo lah.. hee.. greedy gal here.. =P

quizes

2006-04-03T15:31:00.000+08:00

Your Birth Month is April

You are trustworthy and highly ethical in all facets of life.
Helpful and steady, you are able to solve any problem.

Your soul reflects: Bliss, playfulness, and curiosity

Your gemstone: Diamond

Your flower: Sweet Pea

Your colors: Yellow and red

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

You Should Be A Cancer

What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous

What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand

In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection

In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support

Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure

Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood

You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese

What Sign Should You Be?

Your True Love Is a Taurus

Why you'll love a Taurus:

Romantic and sentimental, a Taurus can provide you with the security you need.
And you both share a fondness for the finest things, from great food to luxury vacations.

Why a Taurus will love you:

You have the honesty and direct approach that down to earth Taurus desires.
And enough elegance to show a Taurus a few new decadent delights!

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

2 april 2006

2006-04-02T12:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday was april's fools day...and it also became another special day for me too... (*'.'*) i'm attached... on april's fools day..

then at night met the gals.. the unsurprise surprise birthday celebration for jasmine... plan didnt go veri smoothly though.. but a little glitch didnt spoil the whole event.. plus nothing beats as long as we spent the night together.. hee.. as usual, had fun and laughter during the fish n co meal.. =D

he came to look for me after his match and then went to east coast wif him for supper... ya.. so didnt join the gals in their game of twisters at von's hse... enjoyed the chat we had at east coast and of cos, his company..

made a big step in saying yes.. and i'm happy i made tt move... =) casting my pessimistic thoughts aside, like him, i'm feeling positive abt this relationship... and this relationship will go in the right direction.. hee... but seriously there are still times when i question myself if this is too fast... really scare it will be like a bubble tt doesnt last... but guess my fears are jus me thinking tooooo much.. ha..

exams are coming... and the coming wk is all the assessment wk.. argh!! stress stress stress... still got lotsa things undone... chiam liao....

30 march 2006

2006-03-30T10:43:00.000+08:00

cleared misunderstandings make the whole situation seems a whole lot clearer.. clouds are cleared and suddenly it does seems so blurry and unsure anymore... =) somehow somewhere i can see the route again.. it's far but i know i'm heading there i think... ha..

back to piaing projects... till then...

29 march 2006

2006-03-29T16:24:00.000+08:00

fri is the big day.. 3 projects due that day.. wish me luck..

insecurities is settling in.. differences in what u see in two different situations triggers doubt... but yet the feeling is still the same in both situation... jus hoping more could be done.. more could be expressed.. more could be... falling into the vicious cycle of greed.. hoping and hoping for more and expecting expecting less or nothing frm giving... bad bad...

seriously cant imagine the change that will bound to befall on me.. can sense the change in me.. and i'm having doubts abt whether is this the me tt i know.. unleashing the me hidden within me all along or am i transforming into another me shaped by you? hope it's not the latter..

jus a random thought....

27 march 2006

2006-03-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

works been piling... and i seriously is to sianned by the pile to focus on completling them... bleh..

things that i miss:
- studying in the cockroach-infested container in nas
- vball training in nas
- mr wong kt
- doing endless maths papers in the study benches or in the container wif frens
- looking for miss alice chua to clarify the doubts
- cg breakfast
- marcus tan's talks
- 06's crappyness
- the remedials at mrs lim office
- the drop econs cliques
- the frens and team in tj vball
- thai trip wif the tj vball team
- meet ups with the siao zabos...
- being able to sleep late and wake up damn late the next day
- the guess promoting job tt allows me to earn my first salary
- the late night suppers after work wif frens
- accompanying my mum to the supermarket
- shopping wif my mum, aunt n grandma
- chilling out wif my cliques
- time for myself

suddenly felt like listing down the things tt i miss dearly... oww.... i really cant wait for exams to be over so it's easier to meet up... but hopefully my holi isnt going to be packed...

anyway, i'll be going away for a short trip ard my birthday... will be going to redang on cruise i think... frm april 19-21... a short break frm the exams b4 i get back to my books.. ha... my papers are on 12 april n 5 may.. veri long rite? ya i noe i shldnt complain cos i onli hav 2 papers unlike a lot of my frens who are having like at least 5 papers? but well.. i have endless of projects to rush during the sem do they? so yalor..

argh~ gotta go back to work le.. slacked too much liao... till then...

很难不去想太多
很难不去担心太多
很难不去陷入太深

25 march 2006

2006-03-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

signed and handed in the paper that decided my future on friday... i'll be majoring in product design... ha.. shocked jass and myself too.. ha... but i will stand firm on my decision... yeah.. so i'll work hard towards the goal of being a gd product designer... wish me luck as i embark on my journey to be one! hee... =)

lotsa of work to hand in next wk.. =( and most of them i haven really started... haiz.. wish me luck on this too... pray for me tt i'll get ample slp k?

met up wif kelly, jing n li n jass... it's always fun to meet up and chill it out and catch up together... too bad i got dental appointment today.. not cld hav joined them to tj's vball training today in the morning...

after dental went out to study wif fren... ha.. glad he asked me out to study... if not i'll be procastinating my work and not start them... so at least i hav the database somehow in construction le... but it's jus storyboarding... at least i get something done.. =P

3d project i'm gonna make a lamp... ha.. wish my luck on it.. haha...

p.s to anna n ally: non replyable messages are turning replyable messages.. ha... does tt mean i have mastered the art of turning non replyable replyable??? haha... =P

quizzes

2006-03-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner.
For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.

You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.

Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.

You connect best with: Earth

Avoid: Fire

You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

Your #1 Match: ISFP

The Artist

You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).
You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.
Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.
Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.

You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic

You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.
A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.
To outsiders you seem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.
You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.

You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

Your #5 Match: ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What's Your Personality Type?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy
Music
Theology
Art
History
Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

How You Life Your Life

You tend to deprive yourself of things you crave, for your own good.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Birthdate: April 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride.
Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing.
When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it.
It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.

Your strength: Your warm heart

Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions

Your power color: Black

Your power symbol: Musical note

Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.
You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.
Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.
You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

22 march 2006

2006-03-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

was doing some research for my project and read this in one of the website i came across to.. veri meaningful i find... so decided to post it here.. hee..

An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye."

Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time their flaws, vulnerabilities, pet pee ves, and differences will become more obvious. If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you've got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you.

You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams, weaknesses, and strengths. You are two unique individuals who have decided to share a life together. Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect for each other? Do you bring out the best of each other? Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare, and control? What do you bring to the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You can't take someone to the altar to alter him or her. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay. If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life", you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and selfishness are not the ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and lasting relationship.

Seeking status, sex, wealth, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship. What keeps a relationship strong? Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of humor, sharing household tasks, some getaway time without business or children and daily exchanges (a meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note). Leave a nice message on their voicemail or send a nice email. Sharing common goals and interests.

Growth is important. Grow together, not away from each other, giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure. Allow your mate to have outside interest. You can't always be together. Give each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment. Don't try to control one another. Learn each other's family situation. Respect his or her parents regardless.

Don't put pressure on each other for material goods. Remember for richer or for poorer. If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace the passion.

" Nurture your mind with great thoughts, for you will never go any higher than you think." The grass withers, the flowers fades, but the word of God stands forever.
Shall we make a new rule of life from tonight? Always to try to be a little kinder than is necessary.

The difference between 'United' and 'Unt ied' is where you put the "i".

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

quizes

2006-03-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty a fair amount.
You're loyal to your friends... to a point.
But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.
Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.

Honesty:

You don't really value honesty.
You do value getting your way, no matter what.
And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.
A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)

Generosity:

You value generosity a fair amount.
You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.
Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.
But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!

Humility:

You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.
And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.
You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance a fair amount.
You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas.
You have very few prejudices that you're aware of.
And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give completely and unconditionally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

22 march 2006

2006-03-22T11:16:00.000+08:00

gav jass a surprise birthday celebration.. it was fun and glad she was surprised.. haha... i was sooo afraid tt she suspected something when i kept asking her qstns.. ha... the photos taking, tok cok session and the trip to ah fang was unforgettable... really love the cliques man... lest the coughing would hav made the session much more enjoyable though.. ha..

i'm still sick.. sian.. but at least i'm recovering... yes... i can sense it.. lol... coughing arent tt frequent and bad liao... mayb jus at night it might get worse... but as long as i dun stay up tooo late it wun be tt bad... and i'm trying to slp early... and luckily my workload allows me to do tt too... hee..

and this wk has been a happy one for me.. seriously.. many things are happening... and i'm enjoying myself much much more than ever.. lol.. cos i' having more 'free' time now.. and i get to pamper myself at times too - the wkend shopping and bbq... exams are coming and i haven start studying for my WAH and my projects are due soon too... but i'm taking my pace slowly still.. =P jus let me enjoy the happy moments now... stressful stuffs jus let me be wilful and throw them aside first and bother about them later ba... =P

19 march 2006

2006-03-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

hmm.. haven been slping enuff this whole wk... and yes.. i'm still sick.. guess this is the longest time i'm sick? really bad... but the cough is on and off.. the fever is gone.. the flu is also on and off too.. but my voice has totally changed.. cant really talk continously for long too... no strength to talk.. voice veri weak.. and thoart veri dry too.... but i'm not seeing the doc.. dun like doctors.. unless i'm wan to take mc lah... might consider taking it though.. no mood for lessons leh... or i shld jus pon?? ha. =P

went shopping on fri.. so shuang.. haha.. didnt shop for clothes or shoes but shopped for books.. haha... went kino and like spent the whole time in orchard there?? haaha.. and i spent 80 plus on books.. hee.. got myself 4 books.. haha.. so shuang... lol.. then later was treated to sushi tei... nice nice.. but damn ex.. haha...

then next day which is yesterday pei my mum n grandma to bugis... then spent 100 over on lingerie.. haha... been spending like crazy lah... OMG... think that is the consequences of being cooped up in the shen shan (ntu) too long.. ha...

then had jcrc bbq... it was fun... lol.. less the coughs.. and vicky's house has super good view man.. lol.. hee... and later moive marathon at my hse.. haha.. we watched 2 shows.. then stopped at 630 for breakfast... haha... had prata at simpang bedok and kang quan kindly made the detour to drive me back before driving the rest home.. and then i slpt like a pig before my tuition at 2pm...

resting at home now.. ha... think this is my first time spending my sunday night at home ever since i enter uni.. ha.. it's so good to be at home slacking man... lol.. and i'm snowballing my work once again...

and gals.. i got SOMETHING to share...

16 march 2006

2006-03-16T04:48:00.000+08:00

feeling down all of a sudden...mayb it's the sickness or mayb it's the exhaustion... or mayb it's the stress... the workload... the environment... everything...

now at the stage of not wanting to slp although body wants to slp.. too seh to slp to think to do anything...

ideas dun flow to me and everything seems clique to me... brain dead and cells are dying fast..

and i'm not making any sense now either.. jus typing for the sake of typing and not slping...

sudden saddness engulfing...

15 march 2006

2006-03-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

haiz.. i'm sick after the event on sat.. sian.. feverish at night.. cldnt slp well.. kept waking up.. iritating.. but luckily after the night 'rest', was feeling better.. jus super tired.. and cos of my sickness and tiredness due to the fever, i didnt hav the energy to do any work... bad move... shld hav pushed myself harder to at least do sth....

results of not doing any work during the wkends? snowballed work during the wkdays.. and my recovering sickness got worse and now it had developed into sore thoart, cough and flu.. haiz.. didnt get to have enuff slp since mon.. since mon, i like onli able to slp like onli at 4 plus? haiz.. bad bad bad..

i'm seriously wondering when is the day that i will collapse due to exhaustion... but i also got to say its all due to bad time management too.. oh well... everything snowballed... and before u know it.. u are buried under the big pile of work... haiz..

i'm yearning for a big break.. a break where i can not do anything and jus relax myself, catch up wif frens, enjoy life itself.. possible? or it will jus be a dream that i can onli dream of?

exams coming and i haven start revising.. haiz.. although i know my papers are super far apart.. ( i onli hav 2 papers and they are at 12 april n 5 may) and i have plenty of time to study so to say, being a slow learner, i will need double or mayb triple the time ppl use to study to study my stuffs... haiz...

seriously i'm feeling more hardworking than i was last sem and the days during my jc.. ha... but it's still not enuff.. lol.. i'm still not doing enuff... bleh...

i whining in this entry.... pardon me.. haha.. being sick has tt privilege to be whiney and grumpy.. lol.. and yes, i'm sick.. =P

and i'm learning to reply non replyable messages... haha... mayb someone will want to teach TT person to type replyable messages? haha.. i feel tt there is sth going on.. BUT it's just subtly going on i guess... and where it is leading i seriously dun know.. everything is unpredictable and things may jus end up where we least expect... so not having any high hopes.. jus going wif the flow and heart... =P hopefully the next i see u gals, i hav more to share... haha.. (mayb by then i will hav master the art of replying non replyable messages.. haha.. )

where is my sunday??

9 march 2006

2006-03-09T19:30:00.000+08:00

scary... i need to choose my specialisation soon.. and i'm still fuzzy wif wat i want.. i'm scare of regrets... bleh..

did a self test today.. it's interesting and quite true.. ha.. the test is part of my fren's pscho module.. hee..

here's my results:

"The Loner"
Individuals with low Inclusion scores are most comfortable when they can move away from people or when people in general stay away from them. These scores do not mean that they cannot associate with others, but rather that they are highly selective with whom they association takes place. They are uncomfortable around most people and avoid them whenever possible.

"The Checker"
A male with a very low expressed Control score and a morderate or borderline wanted Control score is not dependent, but does have some doubts about his ablility to make decisions and to take on responsibility. Because he has such doubts, he needs othersto reassure him before he makes a decision. Hence, he checks with others to see what they think. He does not want to make a fool of himself and looks to others for reassurance about the correctness of his behaviour. The "Checker" seldom makes decisions completely on his own or goes against the opinion of others. If he is unable to "check" or otherwise obtain reassurance, anxiety results.
A woman with a very low expressed Control score and a morderate wanted Control score may or may not be a "Checker". As indicated above, wanted Control scores for a woman merely reflect the degree to which she is willing to tolerate Control from others rather than a measure of how much control she wants. If such is the case, the correct interpretation would be that she is a "Tolerant Rebel" rather than a "Checker". When her tolerance level is reached, she will then reveal her more basic "Rebel" orientation.

"Rebel"
When both Control scores are very low, these individuals not only avoid making decisions and taking on responsibility, but also are most comfortable when others di not attempt to control them. They do not tell other what to do, but by the same token they do not want others to tell them what to do. Their basic attitude is, " I will stay off your back, but you stay off mine."

"Warm Individual" or "Golden Mean"
Those with moderate Affection scores are capable of both giving and receiving affection without going to extremes. They neither make excessive demands on others for affection, nor tend to be overly cautious in expressing affection. They tend to be realistic and practical both in amount of affection desired, and the number of individuals from whom affection is sought. Although they want to be liked and prefer most people to be warm, they do not need or demand affection from everyone. As such, they are also better able to tolerate the presence of someone who is unaffectionate or even hostile toward them.

7 march 2006

2006-03-07T01:56:00.000+08:00

well.. another hectic wk.. haiz.. whenever can i enjoy the do nothing day???

had a birthday celebration for one of our blk cliques.. one big one wif all the hall ppl and one jus our cliques.. it's jus fun to be able to sit and chat and tok cok sing song wif ya frens.. =) shared lotsa 'updates' too.. hee.. =P

lotsa work undone and unfinished.. =( haiz.. some i really dunno how to go abt doing it lor.. bleh...

and sth happened today tt made me veri veri happy... hee... chatted on the phone wif mr wong~ hee.. miss him man.. wan to see his cute little baby too.. lol.. haven seen his baby lor.. and his baby already one yr old plus liao... chatted wif him on the phone and i as smiling brilliantly tt my frens tot i was toking to my bf or sth.. lol.. =P

did sth crazy on fri nite.. and to tink of it was funny.. lol.. embarrassed..
(* ^-^ *)

generally i'm happy wif some of the things tt are on going.. =D

3 march 2006

2006-03-03T16:15:00.000+08:00

had a bad dream last night.. also a a long slp last night too.. came back after my maths lect at 6pm and slpt all my way thru till the next morning at 8am.. ha. skipped my dinner.. =P but i was really tired.. mayb tt is why i had tt bad dream.. and it still kinda affect me.. =(

in my dream, i saw my dead grandpa while i was out in a outing wif my family.. but somehow onli i cld see him.. then he told me not to tell anyone abt his presence cos they wun be able to see him.. he here to like bring my great grandmother wif him.. at first it scared the hell out of me cos i tot it will be my grandmother.. but it was my great grandmother.. i'm closer to my grandmother so didnt want her to..

then he sadly told me to take care and kinda hint to me tt i will be next... cos i haven been taking care of myself well... so ya.. knew abt my impending death then...

scene change, suddenly i need to do a dance performance.. ( it muz be the up coming cultural night... ha.. but i not going to perform leh.. dunno why this dream of me performing..) then the perfromance didnt end well cos all of us wasnt prepared.. cldnt remembered our steps and trying to smoke out way thru.. and there were so many zilions of eyes watching us.. terrible...

remembered seeing myself crying for all those bad events.. then remember seeing my mum and granny, having a some chit chats wif them.. and inside me i wasnt feeling great cos of the tot of leaving them... then in my dream i was feeling depressed cos there is still so much i haven do yet but i know my end is coming... helplessness was engulfing me...

so basically it was a depression dream... and sometimes i wonder if it's a premonition for me... am i really gonna fall down hard this time round? haiz.. cos seriously i haven been taking gd care of myself ever since i hav entered uni... not tt i hav taken gd care of myself before i come uni but ever since uni has started for me, i seems to hav taken my health for granted and kinda torturing it....

all those late nights, all those consective trainings, all those irregular meals, all those can foods and instant noodles, all those styrofoams... gosh.. think i shld be glad that nothing serious has happened to me so far man...

but guess what hit me the most it the realisation tt i haven done things tt i wan to do and there are some things left unsaid or undone... regrets... haiz..

guess proscrasination will be one big evil thing i'm gonna get rid of.. ( well, i've been saying tt numerous times... seriously wonder if i'm ever going to get rid of it) and gonna be more organise and hardworking too... term is ending.. i wan my grades to improve... but frm the looks.. haiz.. doubt it will...

27 feb 2006

2006-02-27T13:39:00.000+08:00

hav u ever yearn for thing? and often not hav them? but wat if u cld hav ur wish granted and wala... there u hav it? how wld u feel? how wld u react? hmm... i dunno leh.. i'm hoping for something and in the midst of hoping, i know somehow it gives me joy for the imaginary space that i could built my fanstasy on.. although sometimes i will feel disappointed abt the truth for how far i am from my fastination.... but i noe generally i'm happy...

but wat if suddenly i'm given the chance of having wat i wan? how will i react? happy shock? surprised? seriously i dunno... but wat i'm fearng now is that... wat if i'm given wat i want.. but i didnt noe how to cherish wat i hav? or wat if i'm given wat i wan but i'm tooo shocked to react to it? ha.. know i'm thinking tooo much.. lol.. cos there is too many wat ifs now.. haha.. too hypothetical already... but tt is wat is flashing across my mind now... cos i know i'm those that tend to take things for granted which is bad bad bad... haiz..

why am i thinking abt all this thing? cos i got this hunch that i might be getting closer to wat i wan... but the prospects of me having tt frightened me... i'm not sure if i wld be ready to handle wat i want.. if i'm arent ready, i know i shldnt continue pursuing it... rite? hmm... mayb this hunch of mine is wrong and all i hav worry is jus unneccessary worries.. hmm..

but if the hnch is wrong, then think i will face another disapointment too.. it will then be the realisation that i'm still far frm it.. bleh... guess either ways i will still be worrying ba.. ha... mayb i'm jus a worry freak.. =P

23 feb 2006

2006-02-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

hmm... woke up at 11 plus today... and finish one of my maths tutorial.. achievement... haha... and waking up early does helps in having more work done.. haha... =P but still think i enjoy slping better.. haha.. =P

always thought it is good to keep the comments to yaself so that it wun worsen the situation... but guess i was wrong? sometimes it's gd to intervene to help the situation... lesson learnt... but still... sometimes it's not whether we wan to intervene but it is how we shld go abt solving the problem... cos untactful intervention will make matters worse which is acty making the situation more ugly... sometimes i realy hope life is easy to comprehend like abc or 123... at least they are more straightforward...

sometimes i really wished i cld turn back time and remain in my teens.. at least days than were much much simpler and happier... but of cos.. the irony wld be that i wld be hoping to quickly be older and enjoy the 'freedon' of being older.. oh well... guess that is life ba... or shld i say humans... haha... always hoping and drooling wat isnt in ya hands... man... nv satisfied... haiz...

imagine in a land where man is always satisfied... guess life there will be veri much peaceful ba... but being easily satisfied wld also meant tt there wun be any improvement like advances in technology... ppl will jus live by each day as it is... hmm... wld tt kind of environment be really wat i wan??

think all i jus wan is a simple environment ba.. and wat's simple? hmm.. tt is relative too.. it changes as i grow older too.. lol... so tt meaning changes every passing seconds... ha...

been ages since i typed such a lengthy entry liao.. ha.. it doesnt mean i'm freer and more slack!! lol... jus getting more emotional as i aged.. haiz.. old already! lol.. =P

jus wanna say something before i end this entry... i love and treasure everyone of u that i call friends... and i really do! and u not hearin frm me doesnt mean i hav forgotten u... and i really hope to catch up wif all my long lost frens but i'm jus too lazy to org a gathering.. =P BUT BUT... feel free to call me if u need me.. =)

21 feb 2006

2006-02-21T17:40:00.000+08:00

yeah.. finally got my ass out of my comfortable bed and chair and make my way down to the workshop and do my sculptures... hee.. not too bad had one all shaped out and another a quarter shaped... but still i way behind tt 8 sculptures requirement and haven do my drawings!! argh... and all these jus for one module onli.. i still have other modules work not done too! gosh.. and it's recess week!! arent i suppose to relax myself?

tml gonna hav tutorial bbq at my fren's place.. hee.. so fun.. looking forward to it liao.. cos it's enjoyment! haha.. then fri and sat got hall production.. hee.. looking forward to see the play.. went to dl and see last yr one.. interesting and funny.. but too bad cant really see the actors n actresses expressions clearly.. so it's more of a 'hearing' last yr play than 'seeing'.. hee....

and regarding yesterday incident.. guess tt is it liao.. dunno whether tt person will see this.. but whether tt person sees it or not it doesnt matter cos it's my blog i type wat i want.. =P hee... jus wanna say i'm was utter disappointed with u.. sweet talks doesnt work with me.. mayb it does for once or twice but not all the time... not saying anything all along doesnt mean i'm easy to bully.. mayb i was wrong to giv u tt false impression too... but ya.. mayb i'm easly to bully... bleh.. but there gotta be a line.. dun take things for granted.. jus hope the remaining work allocated to u will be done properly.. if not i really dunno wat to say.. i will jus feel really bad for putting gd words for u once in a long time ago..

21 feb 2006

2006-02-21T02:55:00.000+08:00

finally the net is working and finally i remembered to blog.... guess i'm getting senile soon... boo... there seems to be sth wrong with my health.. ha... guess it's it way of protesting against me torturing it ba... oh well...

i'm was damn pissed off today... and almost lost my cool.. and i teared when i returned back to my room... was kinda glad for the msges tt came in during tt time tt help distracted me and helped cool me down..

sometimes it sets me thinking... why ppl keep asking me how's jcrc? jcrc is fun actually... the things i'm doing( tt why i choose to be in in the first place) the ppl i meet.. but frankly.. i hate the admin stuffs to be done... haha.. as usual for me ba... but i really enjoy painting banners... although it's alot... hee...it's fun leh.. hee... however my pt is why is almost everyone asking me how is jcrc and not how are my subcom? or is it because they fall in jcrc? so they are to be discuss as a whole? *ponders*

everyone has their own part to play.. but often we neglect our roles and quality check other ppl's roles... then often we being humans who always think so highly of ourself is picking up flaws of others... but do we ever realise that we not playing our own individual role well ourself is or might affect other ppl's role? and who are we to critise others when we are the one tt cause others to under perform their role? no doubt there will bound to be ppl that will underperform.. but when they underperform do we sit there and jeer at their poor performance or shld we be lending a helping hand to help tt particular person to perform their role well?? sometimes i jus dun understand why humans can be so self centered at times.. and i really hate myself for being self centered at times too... it's jus sooo me me me.. everyting is jus ME! gosh...

i jus feel like bursting out after today's incident... but jus dun hav the channel to burst out.. dun really know who shld i say it too... but i really really glad for your msg... but i doubt u will noe tt u had helped brighten my day with tt innocent msg of urs... jus wanna say i really appreciate tt msg of urs... if not i guess i wun hav broke down ba..

guess i shld go slp now... and after the slp, everything is gonna be fine.. (hopefully... lol... let's not think abt the tons of hw piling... lol...)

i miss blogging.. lol.. it really helps to relieve stress and hard feelings... hee...
and mayb one day it will help reveal my true feelings... haha... =X

quiz

2006-02-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

Your Existing Situation
Conflict and dissatisfaction of one sort or another enforce the need for the compensations indicated by the + group.

Your Stress Sources
An existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory, but she feels unable to change it to bring about the sense of belonging which she needs. Unwilling to expose her vulnerability, she therefore continues to resist this state of affairs, but feels dependent on the attachment. This not only depresses her. but makes her irritable and impatient, producing considerable restlessness and the urge to get away from the situation, either actually or, at least, mentally. Ability to concentrate may suffer.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner and seeking a rather unrealistic perfection in her sex life.
Becomes distressed when her needs or desires are misunderstood and feels that she has no one to turn to or rely on. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.

Your Desired Objective
Wants to establish herself and make an impact despite unfavorable circumstances and a general lack of appreciation.

Your Actual Problem
Anxiety and restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled emotional requirements, have produced stress. She tries to escape from these by denying their existence, concealing her dissatisfaction behind a proud but illusory claim to self-sufficiency and independence.

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8 feb 2006

2006-02-08T18:50:00.000+08:00

think somehow been neglecting my blog ba... haiz... think i'm neglecting too much other stuffs in my life too... and i hate this feeling... bleahz...

having pms recently... been veri uptight.. been veri pms... been veri gouchy.. haiz... and i hate this feeling... seriously... it feels not me.. but sometimes it's the things i see that pisses me off... the feeling of being taken for granted is mounting... argh... mayb is my need for attention that make me feel this way... mayb... or it's you... nevertheless, i detest this feeling and wanna break free... boo!

suddenly all the negetives feelings are sprouting in me... suddenly... feeling grey now.. and somehow it's affecting the way i see things...

how 'true' are u to me? is all these smiles and words pretentious to gain sth frm me? do i really mean anything to u?
why am i doing all these things? is there anyone who will appreciate all that i've done? or these are just wat i'm suppose to do?
words... how true can they be? and who is there to judge the truth in it? is there truth in the first place?
irony in ourselves... we want this but often we act as though it doesnt matter... wat's wrong wif us? trying to be macho or jus plain cowards to fight for wat we want?

guess i noe another reason why i'm in this foul mood recently... i'm tired... but hey, is that another excuse to cover things up? bleahz~

2 feb 2006

2006-02-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

it has been ages since i last type sth here liao.. haha.. most of the time is either too busy or dunno wat to type.. haha.. but most of the time is cos i'm too busy.. haiz.. but at least this sem is much much better than last sem.. but i'm still slping late... =(

cny haven been slack for me.. cos cant celebrate.. still mourning for my grandma.. so didnt go visiting.. onli went to my aunt's hse to have gathering.. then next day my relatives came over to my hse.. then next next day frens came over... then that night my bro book in.. and me too book in to my hostel.. haha... cos next day got lessons..

but it's good to slack during cny.. cos tt wat i've missing sooo sooo much.. haa... so tt 5 days break seems to past sooo sooo fast too... ha... hoping and waiting for another long break.. hee...

really miss u gals.. but too bad i cant make it for the gathering on sat... =( hope to see ya soon... btw i realise we haven been taking photos for a long long time...

quiz

2006-01-31T01:44:00.000+08:00

Your Existing Situation
The fear of rebuff and the extreme caution of her approach make it difficult for her to achieve the degree of intimacy and identification she desires.

Your Stress Sources
Seeks independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoids obligations or anything which might prove hampering. She is being subjected to considerable pressure and wants to escape from it so that she can obtain what she needs, but tends to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but restless and inclined to be emotionally withdrawn, which prevents her from becoming deeply involved.

Your Desired Objective
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.

Your Actual Problem
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

Your Actual Problem #2
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or her reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to remedy this by intense activity and by insistence on getting her own way. Faulty self-control can lead to ungovernable displays of anger.

quite zun leh.. think free can try.. hee...

quiz

2006-01-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

The results of your analysis say:

You like to be surrounded by four solid walls.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

22 jan 2006

2006-01-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

saw my bro in his botak head yesterday night when he came back.. haha.. his head is soo small... lol... jus it runs in the family ba... haha.. my head aso veri small.. lol.. now my bro seems fitter and thinner.. guess it's always training in there.. heard he everyday do pull ups lor.. gosh.. tough man... first day he did 11.. but nowadays he can onli do 7.. shack was his reasons.. but glad he is ok wif army lah.. =)

went to the nite cycling comm ppl to their recce trip.. it was fun.. it was my first nite cycling trip and first time cycling on the roads lor.. was teribly scare at first.. at later on not too bad liao... cycled all the way frm sch to bedok jetty.. hee.. and wanted to watch the sunrise one.. but too bad the sun was blocked by the clouds... =(

really miss u gals... meet up soon k? hmm... guess after cny? then we gotta draw lots again for Valentine's day! haha... i'm excited abt getting pressie.. lol...=P but i'll more excited meeting u gals! hee.. cant wait to all the bitching and laughter.. hee... =D

quizes

2006-01-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

Intelligence

Intelligence is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You like to be able to talk about everything that is on your mind, and if your partner can't keep up, well, you know. You are very attracted to someone who can challenge you, and make you see things in a whole new way.

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Your hidden talent is psychic

You are able to foresee certain things, and prevent bad things from happening to yourself. It could just be a lot of common sense, but it’s probably something a little more.

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You will be famous for eating the most hot dogs at Nathan’s Famous hot dog eating competition

You love life and enjoy doing what you feel like whenever. You are a free spirit and are not tied down by any social conventions.

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11 jan 2005

2006-01-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

been ages since i last blogged... acty had quite alot of things to blog one... but somehow when i'm in front of the com, jus dun hav the mood to blog or have forgotten wat i wanted to blog... hee... signs of old age... scary... yesterday i realised that i'm TWENTY this year!!! OMG!! old liao old liao....

bro went army on the 7th... so far so gd ba.. haven heard him complaining so far... hee... haven got to see his botak head yet... haha... this wkend ba... hee... cant imagine him in tt short hair.. haha....

sch's been fun... took maths as my prescribed module... lots ppl are giving me tt werid stare when they know i took maths... haha... maths is fun mah... jus sometimes it's tooo tedious... hee.... but it'll be a gd break frm my drawing n design work.. hee... and got 3 other frens taking the same modules too.. haha... but they all guys... lol.. so i'll be the onli gal among them.. but guess the most odd thing abt me wun be being the onli gal in the grp of four but being the onli design student taking maths ba... haha... =P

i'm losing my tan... haha... though not drastically.. but i'm losing it... so i'm not tt chao ta liao... hee...

4 jan 2006

2006-01-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

had my 2d lessons today... thought today will be the start of my hellish sem.. but i was wrong... the prof decided to change his way of working n thus we'll be having lesser bring-home- projects... but instead we'll be doing all the assignments in class... woo hoo... sounds great cos tt will mean no more slpless nights or working till wee hours days... however, lessons seems less interesting... not tt it is not interesting but less interesting... amt tt i'll be learning will seem less too... hmm... pros n cons... shall go thru it first ba... u nv know till u try...

dont like decision making... cos it always mean i hav to giv up something.. opportunity cost... shld i or shld i not?? bleh...

the guys vballers will be playing the semis later.. same place as yesterday... somehow the saddness came back as the time to go there to support is nearer.. guess the place now holds unpleasant memories for me... kinda dreading to go... but gotta face it afterall... boo! gotta be strong and live with it and fight back! zhiwei says next IH we'll be strong cos guili coming over... yeah... thinking of pulling eileen in tooo... then we'll hav a vball team.. yeah!! fight back!! personal grudge... cant stand losing to her... bleh!! been si dui tou for years... although dun really know her but sorry... jus dun like her... so it makes losing to her AGAIN more bu gan yuan n angry.... haiz...

everyone been having the same line when they see me.. " you are very dark leh... "
haha... think they are trying to be nice.. it shld be, " OMG ! u are chao ta!"

3 jan 2006

2006-01-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

lost the semis... sad... no doubt... mixed emotions... the team fought well... except for the first 2 sets... we were tooo nervous... me included... it's sucky!!! damn sucky... cld have won one.. but we too too long to warm up and lack of mo qi... fought well though... just angry at myself why crucial pt nv serve the ball over.... why i soo nervous at the start tt i cldnt perform to standard... made super lots of mistakes in the start.. if only i am more calm, things wld be different... if onli... haiz.. too many if onli liao....

gotta train hard for next year... guess will be making frequent trips down to tj to train... haha... hopefully... *crossing fingers tt my schedule wun be so packed* hee... really into vball now... guess my love for it increases as i grow old.. hee... yue lao yue nong... hee...

3 jan 2006

2006-01-03T16:06:00.000+08:00

Woo.. today is my first day of sch for my second term... finally no more 8.30am lessons... lessons are starting later.. so they start at 9am instead... yeah!! so can waker up later... had foundation drawing today... nudes again... but today is my first time drawing nude MALE model... haha.. damn paiseh lah.... we had to do 25 1 min sketches... then most of the pics i was onli concentrating on the top... lol... but after a while he was being treated as an object liao.. so not tt awkward liao... lol..

after lunch the model was switched... so back to a familiar face.. hee... but she cut her hair short n dye them RED!! haha... my fave colour!! but somehow think the dye didnt suit her... but the haircut does... hee... had fun today at drawing lessons... drawing bit rusty frm the lack of practice during holis... gotta buck up...

later having vball semis... hope we can win... gotta JIA YOU!! =))

1 jan 06

2006-01-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

my first post for the year 2006... hee... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

conclude my new in 2005... hmm... first half of it was working.... kinda fun working in guess.. though got some kind of politics involved.. but overall it was fun... gd to earn your own money too and working wif frens u noe... hee... next half was spent in uni and most of the time was in hall... great knowing new frens and experience new stuffs... ran the publicity dir post and so far enjoying the banners painting.. haven got sick of it yet... hee... fun learning new sports although it turned me black n mummified.. =P met wif some politics too in uni and learnt abt the ugly side of humans... but oh well... everywhere i'll get to know the ugly side of humans... haha..sometimes realising mine ugly side too.. lol... but i guess i was happier in 2005 as compared to 2004... so guess 2005 was kind of a ok year for me ba.. hee....

hope 2006 will be a better year for me... seriously hoping so... =) new year resolution?? hmm....
1) be organised
2) treat myself better
3) lesser injuries
4) fairer? lol
5) good results
6) treasure time wif my loved ones
7) be neater and tidier
8) build closer relationships wif ppl ard me
9) slp more
10) learn more stuffs

above just my list for new year resolution... hee.. but doubt i will be able to fufil them... lol... but will try my best to acheive them.. =)

had tution today.. somehow see the kid improving make me feel proud.. hee... then went over to my aunt's hse... the games they played wif the kids was fun.. lol... they treated the kids like 'horses' then numbered them 1-6, then threw 3 dices... the numbers show means the kid wif tt no will be able to move a step forward. the kid tt first reaches the finishing line gets $2.. haha... then was the catching money before it reaches the ground... lotsa games played wif the kids but all involved money.. it was fun to see them play lah.. but to think of it, the kids were like motivated by the money.. kinda sad...

ankle hurting again.. sian... guess i kinda aggravate it during warm-up before my compeition.. opps... no time to go see tt doc... thinking of going to see tt geylang sinseh.. but there no gd go alone.. and so far frm sch... sian... hesitations sets in cause competitions coming and there are like a suitable time to see doc till everything is over...

yesterday went 85 to eat supper wif kelun.. it was fun being there to eat and tok wif him... hee... the place also holds pleasant memories for me too... so being there is also a happy thing for me.. hee... and got to know abt this werid gal wif a doll called watutu... scary... haha....

i missed the old carefree days... i missed all the gd old times... i missed all my frens who i haven seen in a long long time... and pretty soon i will miss my brother too.. haiz.. h's entering army soon... and i JUST realised it... so sad... haven been seeing him... gosh i sounds like my bf is going army.. haha.... 7 jan he gonna cut botak.. hee... cant imagine his botakness... lol... but tink till then home will be quieter.. and i shld be spending more time at home to pei my parents le...

28 dec 2005

2005-12-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

2005 coming to an end... been in uni for abt half a year liao... kinda adjusted to uni life n hall life liao... but seriously been super busy with hall stuffs especially during the holis that i feel that i've been neglecting my family n friends... sometimes i feel frustrated for all my commitments and busy schedule... but it was my choice so i shldnt be complaining abt the busy schedules i have.. but sometimes i feel lonely cos it seems like no one understands wat i'm going through and is able to be there to support me... oh well.... mayb cos i'm often alone in my room ba... so loneliness tends to set in more easily... bleh....

23 dec 2005

2005-12-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

been mia for a veri veri long time... been super busy wif all the trainings... even if i'm back early which is super duper seldom, i'll be busy catching up my slp...

so far my injury status quite bad i shld say... injured my ankle the other time rite? didnt acty waited for it to fully recovered before i went back to my trainings and competitions... so somehow it nv got better... then cos it nv really got better, so i've been stressing my the other leg... and yes... one day my the other leg started to get angry and tada... another sprained ankle and a veri veri weak knee.... so basically now i'm veri veri mummfied acty... jus tt i dun wrap myself up unless i'm in match or trainings... quite bad but cant really rest lah... IH period is where all my competitions are... onli time to rest is after all the matches lor...

sometimes i jus hope i can nua the whole day at home... but tink to be able to nua in hall is already a super luxury le man... haiz.... busy busy busy

8 dec 2005

2005-12-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

I just sooooooo bloody suay today!!!!!

I SPRAINED MY ANKLE!!!!!! haiz...

i got frenly on sat which i really really want to play... gonna be playing against temasek hall frm NUS then got this gal quite zai one.. wanna receive her balls.. think playing wif her will help improve my skills but now sprained ankle..
doubt they will let me play on sat liao.. cos next wed our first vball match... haiz.. hope i'll recover in time. sooooo damn sian...

then i dropped my hp.. dropping my hp is common liao.. but tis time drop liao my screen some parts dieded.. haiz.. they turned black lor.. cant see anything lor... sianed.. haiz...

went to see the doc for my sprained ankle then also shun bian see my sprained finger.. ha.. so now i like mummy liddat.. lol.. wrap finger n ankle.. lol..

4 dec 2005

2005-12-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

i'm damn busy.. haiz... but i'm glad i am able to squeeze out some time to meet the gals.. hee.. meeting the gals is always fun... hee... we drew lots... finally.. to the person i'm getting present to.. i really dunno what to get u leh... you wanna hint me?? haha.. and to the person getting me presentS.. haha.. note the 's' there?? hee... my christmas wish list is very long this year... i tink i'll post in permanent on my blog somewhere.. when i got time.. hee.. so stay tune k? hee..

my father complete the full marathon org by standard chartered today.. 42km in 4h 20mins... i think my father quite good leh... hee.. but he isnt veri happy wif it.. so he says he wants to try again next yr.. haha.. will support him in spirit.. haha...

2 dec 2005

2005-12-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

I'M DAMN TIRED!!!!!!! jus had my first proper meal at 8pm.. and i had bball training at 815am, then went out to buy banner cloth then meeting till 7 plus.

argh... super tired now.. really wan to slp le.. but cant.. got sth at 10pm and now onli 930pm... endure half an hour more. haiz.. damn busy since my last exam paper... sianed.. it's much more busy than my sem days lor... haiz.. but partly my fault ba.. joined 4 sports.. so hav to juggle jcrc, HO and the 4 sports trainings... haiz.. but already buy the 3 sports jerseys.. (abit regret buying netball..) but too bad lor... buy liao and dun wan to waste money so shall play lor..

but shall complain too much lah... qifang, she joined 8 sports.. reduced from 10 last year and she was publicity head last yr which is the current post i'm having... and tis yr although she joined 8, she also has to juggle her vice president duties.. truly admire her man...

haven really plan my sat events... but dun worry gals.. not matter how tired i will still find a way to meet u gals... tink i shall plan tml ba.. hopefully...

i'm damn sian too.. cos of my injuries.. haiz.. tink i'm super injury prone.. after my first softball training i had a bad blister on my left thumb.. then today after my bball training i have a sprained right index finger.. walao.. now i'm like handicapped and my daily rountine is super duper affected.. the sprain seems quite bad... it's swollen n bruised.. haiz.. wonder wat's up next.. tml my vball training... super duper sian....

i'm going to sign 500 cards soon.. haha.. think my hand is going to die man.. lol.. but on the brighter side it'll giv me a taste of the celebrity.. haha.. jus no flashing camera lights.. lol...

sometimes i feel that nobody understands... guess it's cos they aren't me ba...

it's sad to be misunderstood.
it's sad to be alone on the other side....
it just seems that i'm left all alone to fend for myself...
....

26 Nov 2005

2005-11-26T23:21:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over.. woo hooo... but if u tink i'm going to be damn relaxing.. u are wrong... i'm damn packed wif stuffs..

straight after my paper had a meeting... abt my paper first... wah!! first time in my life i did a 60 marks essay k... the first essay qstn is worth 60marks lor... OMG!! then the other two essays worth 20marks each... we were given the qstns beforehand to prepare... (onli the first qstn was given, the other two came as a hint)so my preparation were like memorising essays?? ha.. but my mind was partial blank when i went in to do.. oh well, came out early and yeah! WAH is over... at least for NOW.. lol.. (cos there is WAH part 2 next sem.. =( )

the meeting was jus a mere 15 minutes.. gosh.. it's headed by me.. ha.. felt bad abt it cos ppl came frm diff halls.. but onli 3 came n sat for the meeting.. the other was lost so waited for her and repeated myself.. oh well, turn up was bad... kinda last min aso.. haiz... exams ended late...

then had steamboat... fun fun fun.. lol.. was eating frm the start till the end... haha... while the rest had already stopped... oh well what's new right?? lol... =PP
then had our science experiment no 2.. lol.. then movie and video marthon till the next morning... and went for breakfast for 3in1.. hee...

after breakfast, back to my doing of the noticeboard.. slpt for awhile and back to work till my father came to fetch me home at ard 3 plus 4... then went beach road buy sports shoes... cos i need a sport shoes, training starting and i onli hav my vball court shoes... then in the end didnt get the sport shoes i wanted but got myself a nike shoes for outing and a bag! hee... fruitful trip.. but i am so veri dead.. but cant slp.. cos stll got endless work to do... haiz...

finally finish part of them so here am i blogging.. lol.. gonna go slp straight after this entry... cant take it liao... i need my slp...

21 nov 2005

2005-11-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

haiz.. nuaing like siao.. when i hav a paper on fri... sooo sianed....

somebody pls save me frm these nuaness i have...

argh!!!!

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feeling soooo unmotivated.. haiz...

anyone who can help me wif WAH?? will be veri veri grateful...

19 nov 2005

2005-11-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

yeah.. finally change my blog skin.. hee.. i did the layout myself again.. hee... having fun... wait till my drawing skills are better then i shall draw my own pics.. hee... got this pic frm deviant art.. hee..

slack the WHOLE day today.. oopss... suppose to be studying for my art history.. or at least be doing some research for it... haiz... jus cant seems to be motivated to do art history... i simply detest the subject.. cos i seriously dun know what she really wants and how to go about doing it... so sian...

k lah.. i shld be studying liao... shall start studying le.. although there arent much few hours left before a new day begins...

17 nov 2005

2005-11-17T02:18:00.000+08:00

been slping late these few days again.. =P
slpt late on monday cos had to rush my video which deadline was tue 3pm.. =P and on monday night i and my blk frens happily went to city harvest there for dinner.. shun bian collect my hp frm my aunt.. hee.. then after dinner we went to shop at the pasar malam... haha.. think we gals scare the guys then.. haha.. we went all jaja over the stickers they hav there.. haha.. they were selling the stickers veri cheap... 10 for $1 leh... hee... soo cheap how can dun buy.. plus i STILL collect stickers leh.. haha... then we gals were kinda stuck at the first stall of stickers.. lol... after buying then saw another sticker stalll... same price but more variety.. so got stuck AGAIN.. haha... then i also saw sticker books and colouring books.. each jus for $1 lor.. then bought one sticker bk to paste my purchases and 3 colouring bks.. haha... the guys were shocked by me n jass who also bought the colouring books.. haha..
then as we apporaching the 3rd sticker stall, the guys quickly run over and tried to hide the stalls frm us.. hee... lol... so funnny.. lol... then in the end we spent 3 hrs at the pasat malam.. lol... had lotsa fun there lor.. been ages since i had such fun in hall le.. lol..
then after the event then realised frm jass n shiqi that the guys were protective during the pasar malam... cos we the gals were kind of separated, looking at the stickers, so the guys kinda attached one to each gal.. ha.. cos jus nice 4 guys n 4 gals.. didnt realise tt happened till they told me lor.. hee..
then last night jessica n magdalene stayed over at our rm.. suppose to do western art history one.. but in the end didnt do much... then our desert break somehow become a tok cok session for our blk ppl.. haha.. then while mag n jess were slping, we chatted.. haha.. then didnt slp cos chatted till morning then went for breakfast.. haha... crazy? ya.. tink so too.. lol.. but life is too short to be serious all the time.. hee.. gotta let ya hair down once in a while too.. hee...
presentation tml.. wish me luck... =))

sometimes hard facts hurts.. but sometimes it's actually the narrow perspective tt cause the pain.. mayb that's why we tend to live in our own fantasy world to prevent ourselves from getting hurt ba... to remain in our happy self and adopt that silly ostrich mentality... bleh... jus some thoughts after experience some kind of enlightenment... hee...

12 nov 2005

2005-11-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

went to my cousin wedding today.. woke up early lor.. cos hers is like a church wedding but held at raffles hotel...
kinda sad cos the weather wasnt veri gd.. like gonna to rain so the venue changed place.. it was suppose to be a garden wedding... but later cos of the threatening weather, they changed it indoor.. such a pity... then the ceremony was ok lor... still tink Mr n Mrs Wong one nicer... mayb cos can see mr wong emotional marriage vows.. and their clips ba.. more personalise... whereas my cousin one jus the exchange of vows, the preacher talking n signing of the paper n that's it.. then the tea reception lor... forgot to add... my niece is damn cuteee!!! hee.. she was the flower gal... and she super pretty and sweet lah.. and she soooo adorable throwing the petals on the red carpet.. hee...
the tea reception is a brunch buffet.. it's cool lah.. lotsa nice nice food.. hee... and lotsa nice desert too... hee.. lotsa yummy chocolate cake, chocolate n yummmy bread!! i love breads!! hee... then waited quite long there cos the chinese tea ceremony they wanna hold it there.. then gotta wait till all the guest leave liao then can start.. abit sian lor... but lucky my bro was there to pei me talk n this cousin of mine.. not tink even more sian..
then went home change and go my uncle hse.. my cousin didnt want those chinese dinner kind of wedding.. she jus want her wedding to be simple.. so she initially jus want to hav the tea reception and that's it one.. but my uncle dun wan.. so at night hav a simple gathering at his hse.. to sort of like replace the chinese dinner lor... then veri sian there.. cos no one pei me.. my bro went church.. dad playing majong n ma watching him play.... then later no enuff player so ask me take over.. so at least not tt bad... then hor realise my cousin didnt go studio take wedding pictures one leh... she today after the chinese tea ceremony then see since the scenery there quite nice so muz as well take some photos... pengs...
gosh... tink she really wanna hav a simple wedding lor... wah.. if me dun tink i'll liddat.. haha.. dun care lor.. wedding once in a lfetime.. wanna be full of super sweet memories.. wanna be tt sweet till when i old n when i recall will still hav tt blissful smile on my face... hee.. lol... but too tink of it... to marry the guy u love, it itself will already put a blissful smile on ya face liao.. ha.. but tink at least muz take wedding photos for memory sake lor... hee...
btw yesterday went out wif the gals.. too bad von cldnt make it.. jas's update is surprising.. and jas.. i'm really really happy for u for finding someone who make u happy.. hee... ally.. shall be waiting for u to update us k... and vani too.. hee... cool..
veri long nv meet up wif kelly, jing n li liao... super long.. jass i see her almost everyday.. haha... but jass u fang xin.. haven grown sick of u yet... hee... =P lets meet up soon k??
i miss all my frens....

10 nov 2005

2005-11-10T15:26:00.001+08:00

been veri slack today... and tt is veri veri bad... why?? cos i hav a lit paper tml afternoon and i'm slacking.. not doing any revision for it... think it's ok cos i may hav done my revision days before and alright to slack a little? well.. i haven done ANYTHING for lit... die i just... gonna see how i die tml after sitting for the paper.. or shld i say i cld predict how i die when doing the paper... =P

really slack.. no mood to study... guess this is because yesterday was the deadline for my 2d visual journal... took the easy way out cos no time liao.. and handed in a sloppish work... oh well... but finally it's done... and sooo happy... stay up late to complete it lor... or shld i say i didnt slp... onli took an 1hr n a half of nap onli... and the previous nights i was rushing other portfolios so onli able to slp onli at ard 530am... and having lessons the next day at 8.30am... super deprived of slp... and so after the presentation and lunch... went back to slp.. slpt frm wed afternoon, 2 pm to thursday morning 10.30am.. haha... amazed?? well, tt goes to show how tireeed i am... hee.. and i'm acty quite amaze cos i onli had a meal on wed... and i survived wif jus a meal.. ha... duck rice... lol... and i woke up at 10.30am.. considering whether i shld go back to slp.. seriously... ha.. but i didnt lah... it wld be too horrible.. haha... but some of my frens asked why didnt i slp for more to make it 24 hrs.. ha.. oh well... it will be too horrible i guess... lol...

but slping sooo much is reallly great.. haha... so shuang.. and i'm behaving like exams are over.. haha... and i still have my video to rush, a art history presentation to do, and my last paper on 25 nov... hope for the best and wish me luck k.. cos i will need tonnes of them.. ha..

confession... ya.. fancy a guy... yeps.. but i dun tink the feeling is mutual... but still... happy that we are talking.. but we arent acty talking much either.. haha... jus msging each other forwarded msges.... yalor... werid tt i'm attracted to him too.. haha.. cos didnt interact wif him much too.. wonder why i am having interest in him... hee.. i'm an lianing someone.. but i'm too shy to say who.. lol.. *blush blush* oh... infatuations........

1 nov 2005

2005-11-01T11:10:00.000+08:00

had halloween party last fri... org by my sch... had fun dressing up for the party.. been ages since i went to a fancy dress party le... used to hav fancy dress party when i was small during christmas at my uncle's hse.. but cos we all hav grown bigger, so abolish the item liao.. all paiseh lah.. haha...

dressed up as a samsui woman.. hee.. cost of costume = $0.. haha... then had fun helping my frens getting ready for the party too.. hee... anyone interested to see the pics jus msn me lor... hee.. then realise my course ppl all quite onz.. all really go dress up leh... some even took the pains to make their own costumes.. despite the heavy sch workload... wow.. salute man... the event itself was kinda boring... me n my frens were late cos we spent 4 hrs doing the make up n preparations.. then reached the place at ard 8 liddat where the party starts at 630. ha...

the hungry us went to take food then sat down to watch nightmare before christmas... and the party ended after the show!!! argh... sad case... and it's onli 930... the programme list wrote it will end at 11... nvm... we found out own entertainment by snapping photos.. ha.. forgot to mention that my profs are cool... they came in their costumes too.. think onli 2 who came are in their normal clothes.. the rest at least did sth.. hee.. then later took photos wif the profs.. then our photography teacher ask us to remain while she professionally snap our photos.. haha....

then after the photo taking some of us went parading to the library... haha.. a grp of abt 10 or so walk, run , scream as we make our way to the library.. haha.. first time in my life i kana centre of atrraction till liddat... ha.. the ulitimate was at the library.. we went in walking round the lib.. without making ANY noise.. but still manage to gain LOTSA stares from ppl.. haha... the jing dian comment during the library, " wah, they (meaning us) more stress than us(meaning them) leh!" haha...
then got 2 gals who were in their sch uni and dressed like they failed their exams so commited suicide went to one of the study benches and told the ppl there, " good luck for ya exams.. we failed ours.." ha.. but the ppl there apparently too muggers tt they didnt bother abt them... ha..

tt abt my halloween party lah... hee.. fun event..

exams coming...sian.. my projects deadline are pressing.. frens ard me are somehow getting their work done.. unlike me... slacking... oopss.. feeling the pressure.....

how to study for my lit n art history!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

22 oct 2005

2005-10-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

great fun yesterday.. meeting the girls nv fails to brighten my mood... although had to wait for an hr for our bday gal wif my hungry stomach.. ha... it's jus sooo great being wif the girls, crapping chatting n talking... enjoying our seafood platters, fish n chips and grilled calamari and the jar of ice water... cant imagine if one of us is away... gosh... cant imagine tt... dun wan too...

still remember vani's plan to marry together, giv birth together.. ha.. and literally together... haha... then our meet ups then will be us a table, husbands a table and children a table... haha... soo cool... lol..

went sinseh recommended by my mum..it's cheap and i think it's gd.... think will frequent there liao.. plus it's near too.. it's super near anna's hse lor.. and i pass by her hse today.. ha...

when he tui my calfs there.. i almost wanna cry out loud lor.. gosh.. super painful lah.... both legs somemore... T_T... then had acuputure... the taking out of needles hurt slightly.. at least it arent tt painful as the tui na...

super happy today because of ya msg.. ha.. (",)

15 oct 2005

2005-10-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

did a foolish thing yesterday... went all the way down to parkway from sch to celeberate vani's bday...but reached there no one was there and i was late... so called anna to check where are they... ha... then i found out i was a wk early!!! diao.... meeting NEXT fri not yesterday... and will hav to go back ntu cos today morning got jcrc rm clean up... so since i'm at parkway i went to walk ard... but sadly nothing much for me to shop.. quite lonely too... reached back hall at 1140pm liddat, did some work and concussed at ard 2am... but during the journey thru and fro i was super tired.. my head was like keep nodding n nodding..haha... cant blame lah.. onli slpt at 530am on fri morning... slpt for a few hrs onli before i go for lessons at 830am... rushing my project... ha...

enjoying yet stressing wif my work... and i jus detest art history and literature.. jus dont seems to understand wat is going on lor... and exams are ard the corner... jus hav papers for them two aso... think after all the projects ends i can concentrate fully on these two and study REAL hard for it ba.. hopefully... lol..

been veri scandalous in hall too... hmm... somehow i've been liddat since jc days... haiz... during the 2 yrs in jc i had 5 scandals... and now in uni so far.. only 4 mths and i hav 2 liao... dots dots dots...

tink i've fallen... but is it gonna be hard this i dunno... but i may be mistaken too... it may jus be a trip... ha...

sometimes i jus assumes too much and think tooo much for my own good... and sometimes i jus tend to fabricate too beautiful picture of wat is gonna be happening... hmm... gotta wake up...

9 oct 2005

2005-10-09T11:47:00.000+08:00

gosh... jus realise today IS my brother's birthday.. how sad.. too busy wif my stuffs that i neglect things/people ard me.. haiz... if arent for me surfing shiqi's blog and see her bday date.. n me wondering what the date today.. i wun hav forgotten tt today is my bro's bday TOTALLY.... argh!!! haven gotten him anything... haiz... wat a bad sister i am..

haiz... work been piling.. and i'm slacking.. slacking??? hmm.. hav i?? been doing work all the time leh.. but why the work load doesnt seems to decrease yet increasing all the time?? i dun know... i jus noe i'm looking forward to the exams period.. cos jus hav 2 papers and during tt period no projects n commitments... hopefully...

can someone help me pls??

3 oct 2005

2005-10-04T17:19:00.000+08:00

somehow i'm seems to be back in time... somehow back in time... facing somehow the same situation.. although been thru it before.. somehow i jus couldnt handle it well.. some things i jus can never learn it well.. oh well...

1 oct 2005

2005-10-01T15:09:00.000+08:00

wooo.. finally had time to blog!!!! haha... was super duper busy.. in fact i'm still now.. but shall start my work later lah... rest rest.. haha... jus woke up in fact... could have slpt longer.. but thinking of the amt of work undone... better wake up... sian... work just seems nv ending... wkend shld be days to rest and relax leh.. wat happened to wkends?? haiz....if i'm at home mayb i cld hav really rest ba.. ha. cos once i'm home i DONT touch my work... lol.. mayb i do.. but it'll be minimum... guess probably cos most of the time i'll be spent slping.. lol.. wkends are for me to replenish my deprived slping hrs...

work in school had be stressful... felt sooo small and ashamed when i see how others have done their work... esp during 2D lessons... cos i didnt put in much effort and time in them... sad... i'm jus struggling everywhere... jus got back my grades for one of the projects i did.. C+... haiz... will try harder... wanna reach at least B... =)

hall wise, had been busy too... lotsa events, admin stuffs and banner painting... publicity dir.. then my sub commer hav to show me their designs for my approval.. but had been rejecting their designs.. felt bad... but didnt think what they gav was gd enuff mah... think they also scare of me liao... oops...

many things have happened too... too many to elaborate too... and dont feel like saying either... jus puzzled how ppl can behave like this.. and all this jus make me feel puzzled.. i'm unsure of the people i meet and who i'm am... is sth wrong wif me or them?? acty sick of it lor... mayb this is the thing i shldnt be dabbling wif... but on the other hand.. sometimes all this isnt cos i go get myself into this trouble but it jus like to find me one leh... sick sick sick... haiz...

exams coming.. and i got 2 papers to take... jia you for me... i seriously dun wanna ta pao these 2 modules.. e lit n art history... argh!!! help me...

7 sep 2005

2005-09-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

lessons been getting better.. guess got the hang of how things goes.. somehow.. =P but there have been cancellation of lessons recently.. or shld i put it more explictly.. cancellation for the past 2 wks.. 3 wks including this wk... teacher is in hospital, down wif dengue.. scary... scary at both her condition and my impending one.. make ups!! argh... scary scary scary.. and there wun be any make ups during the recess wk.. that means after sch reopen.. i'll be super busy... busy struggling wif my usual workload and the additional ones and busy trying to figure out what has been taught... art history is horrendous..

sometimes i hate myself for being soft.. being sensitive of other's feelings... putting others before myself... and people just dun appreciate and just take advantage of you.. so sian... i'm not a indirect person.. i leave hints for you.. hope u understand.. but somehow dun think u do... haiz.. and i'm freaking out.. seriously do... haiz.. i'm at lost....

4 sep 2005

2005-09-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

so fast i'm back in hall liao... my wkends seems to past sooo fast lor... haiz..

had jcrc initiation on fri night... didnt expect it one.. tot it'll be just a simple first meeting... but during the meeting when the seniors didnt want us to go up get our stuffs, somehow or rather can guess why liao... heard frm ppl that jcrc initiation is more hiong that oc one.. but didnt tink so leh.. oh well... but it was kinda long? not sure how long we spent doing our initiation too.. but we had gathered at 830pm to start our 'meeting'... onli able to finish de-conflict abt our sub com list then out for initiation.. and meeting didnt officially start at 8.30pm either.. sit in for the 18s last meeting.. touching scene where quite a few teared.. wonder if next yr will i tear too... hmm....

then initiation didnt end till the next morning 6.30am... had to went in the pond as part of the initiation.. so naturally we all were wet n stinky.. had breakfast made by the 18s.. then bathe and continue the meeting... ha.. the continuation was terrible.. cos it was super difficult to keep my eyes open... then it was the case just for me.. most of them aso liddat.. so meeting ended earlier than expected and everyone went back to slp.. i guess...

had to support he softball.. but cldnt wake up lor... so was alittle late for it.. ha.. didnt even noe vicky even came to my rm outside and try to wake me up using a loud hailer lor... ha.. guess i was too dead slping le..lol

then for the first time in my life i played softball... haha... kinda fun.. lol.. had difficultly hitting the ball using the bat.. lol... and unknowingly we played till 5plus lor.. ha.. then went back to slp while waiting for my parents to come fetch me home... woke up gong gongly.. lol... then went to eat at bukit timah...

finally get to eat frog congee... the chao wei n ming long had tempt me since dunno when... ha... the congee was superb.. yummy yummy... then also had fried oyster, chee kueh and raw fish.. all are delicious.. gd place to dine in...

finally home.. then i slpt at 930pm till the next day 230pm then woke up.. ha.. so shuang lor.. cld hav continue longer i guess... ha... den had kueh tiao soup for brunch.. had prawn n liver in it... also had wu xiang made by my mummy... yummy...

then not long later had cockles!! my grandma fried it wif garlic.. different style of eating.. and it's nice.. though half cooked ones taste better.. hee.. also had cold crab too... feasting on seafood.. yummy yummy...

then a while longer longer, had 'dinner'.. ha... had dried noodle... lol... just i've been eating kinda non stoply after i woke up.. haha...

had.. staying in hostel has really make me treasure my time spent at home.. though most of the time i spent at home is slping.. ha... so i try not to go out during wkends... hee... wkends are also the time for me to replenish my slp lor... seriously slping onli a few hours a day during the wkdays lor... sian sian... so every wkends when i go home, my dad will like buy lotsa stuffs for me to eat.. ha... and my mum n ah ma cook yummy food for me.. ha... and mostly all seafood lor.. so guess i'll like be fat during the wkends and slim down during the wkdays.. haha...

31 august 2005

2005-08-31T02:38:00.000+08:00

been ages since i last blog liao... uni life have been hectic for me... and i'm super busy... almost every day sleeping at 3/4am.. haiz... sch is fun yet stressful due to my course.. no exams sounds cool n fun rite??? it totally WRONG lor... it means more stress.. cos every assignment counts.. so everything gotta do swee swee... no tutorials for me to copy... explains my late night.. or shld i say 'early' nights... =S

joined the hall jcrc too.. experienced rally n voting.. interesting experience.. but now start to wonder whether i made the right choice.. adding more burden to my load.. so now i might hav to slp at 5am? considering next day got 8.30am lessons... *sarastic laughter* oh well... but since i've already taken up the load, i'll have to carry it well... will try my best.. hope next yr during my AGM, i wun kana shoot like siao.. but actually ppl wun be totally please with whatever u do one lor.. i find... cos there will be also room for improvement n people are picky... especially towards others.. it's also easier to find faults at others than at oneself... oh well.. just do a good job and dui de qi zi ji can liao...

sucky that everytime u can just affect me just liddat.. haiz.. whenever can i be free from you??? seriously dont understand why u managed to stay in there for so long... and sometimes i really wish i dun get to see/know u anymore.. just be totally out.. but things dont always happen the way u want them... ha... or is it just me?? just like to be in self dilemma.. stuck in my own self illusion? argh!! i just hate myself for being like this... argh!!!

think people or gals tend to be more saddistic? ha... we tend to go for the things that arent really that good believing it's good for us... ha.. that's why the saying goes, ' nan ren bu huai, nu ren to ai'... sad case rite? pity the good guys out there too... lol... being good doesnt get them gals they like and they hav to lose the gals to guys who are 'losers'... then although those bad guys get critise like siao, they tend to get the gals they like... irony leh... or is it just humans?? they just hav tt saddistic elements in them???

haiz...late nights just make me more gan chu ba.. or mayb cos i very very long nv blog liao.. hee... miss blogging.. so shall blog my feelings... hee...

so sian... tml gotta rush tml de tml hw... it's just nv ending...

11 august 2005

2005-08-11T19:20:00.000+08:00

been ages since i blog liao... am super duer busy lah... haiz... lack of sleep... dozing off in class is becoming common to me.. bad bad... but i'm seriously deprived of my sleep!!!!

why? all because of the vibrancy of hall life n my course... almost everyday got hall activities... and my course assignments are killing me... haiz... and actually i'm not suppose to be typing this entry.. should be sitting on my table thinking for my storyboard.. gotta hand it tml... haiz...

almost everyday the prof gives us assignments.... n our course arent like those engineerining course whereby tutorials nv do nvm one.. as long as exams perform well can liao.... cos our course no exams, except those core subjects... so very assignments counts... so die die gotta do finish n hand it... and die die also muz hand in swee swee one... not the grades will suffer...

and i had to take lit n history for my core lah... haiz.. dont noe what the hell they are talking lor... think my exams for these die liao lah... hope i can pass these modules.. then i dun hav to 'da pao' them... choy!!!!

my laptop haven come... so sian.... waiting.. waiting.... i miss msning... but guess my hectic schedule wun allow my to msn alot also.. ha...

anyway i'm joining my hall's jcrc... hee.... gonna be banner gal.. lol... running for publicity director.. then jass running for publications director.. so when we work together... we will be known as the PAP... lol... Publicity and Publications... lol...

went for corrinne may's concert yester-nite... the concert is awesome!!! she is veri veri talented and duh too.. lol... her jokes are kinda cold.. lol.. but it helps liven the mood there... hee... glad i went.. = )

6 august 2005

2005-08-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

when training today..so fun.. finally get to play ball.. but muddle me... left my shoes in hall.. then luckily fung told me can borrow lisi's shoes cos she left it in the sch hall... but went down training forgetting to bring socks... so blur rite?? had fun playing... but sad that my skills got bad... so sad... gotta improve... so gotta train train train...

when to market opposite tj wif my mum in the morning.. and bought 2 jackets n a long sleeve blouse... for my sch.. my classroom is freaking cold lor... so like freezer liddat... hee... and those 3 items just cost only $20.. cheap rite?? hee...

then on my way home.. as i prepare to board the appoarching bus 12.. got this old ladt appoarch me for help... want me to help her carry her marketing stuffs up the bus.. she was carrying 2 big bags of stuffs lah.. damn heavy aso... plus she had difficulty walking also lor... helped her carry liao then on the bus she told me she live in simei.. kinda ask me if it's possible to help her carry those bags home... was hesitating lah.. cos dun really know where she stay although she told me her block no... but later i agreed lah.. cos she stayed near my hse there lah.. but as i helped her.. i was also thinking lah... what if she's out to trick me or sth.. cos the route to her hse quite desertted... yalor.. then was also thinking for her... i dun noe her n she dun know me... how do we know that each other is a good person?? we could have ulterior motives... yalor... but nothing bad happen... n i'm kinda ashamed for thinking that the old lady is out to mayb cheat me or sth.. =P but somehow did a good deed today lah... hee.. kinda happy... lol..

went back home to bathe then is out again... this time wif my father n mother... went thomson rd dere... why? cos my father plans to buy a car... so went down to see see lor... me happy? nah... was quite agst him buying it one.. but didnt voice up to him... only to my ma.. ha... we like now hav to pay the hse loan... my course is veri ex.. ( i keep need to buy stuffs) then my bro going uni in a few more yrs.. why shld we add more debts... tt wat i feel lah... plus we all big liao.. dun find that a car is really neccessary for us... i'm used to taking public transport arh... yalor... but on the other hand... mayb like wat my mum say it might be gd afterall lah... can bring my grandma out... ( my mum initially also agst him buying one..) yalor.. and plus my pa like veri bend on buying.. say so much agst it will only make him angry?? hee.. dunno lah... so let him lor.. when he ask abt my view abt buying... i just asked him whether he can settle the monthly instalments for it lor... he say he canm.. then can lor... nothing else to say liao wat...

with a car in the family... i still dun have the mood to learn driving... think i'm not cut for driving anyway... yalor... still prefer to be driven ard n not the other way.. ha.. =P

jass got her laptop liao... me haven.. so sad... when will my laptop come??? i wan my laptop!!! and i'm stressed!!! my tutorial grp are filled with art background ppl... feels sooooo small being together wif them... and i'm having like having SPA everyday... haiz.. muz be retribution... laugh too much at the yr 1s last yr liao... so now i'm suffering wat they are suffering.. no no.. i'm suffering worse than them.. at least i think SPA is easier then what i'm going through now... ha... but guess mayb i got a little slight advantage over those students wif art bg ba.. cos some grading are based on the improvements made during the sem... so being lousy means the room for improvement is larger... muhaha... tt's provided i improve tremedously lah... and acty being an arts student i shldnt be too preoccupied abt my grades.. but my quality of my art pieces.. haiz... guess i'm just being a typical Singaporean student ba... brainwashed by the educational system... grades are impt... 'A's are good... 'B's, 'C's or 'D's are bad.... oh well....